Method OK, Kiddos. It's going to be Thursday

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry to hear everything you have been through. I hope you are able to find peace this time.

 

[Idiotic_Idiot]

Thursday seems like a nice day to CTB. There's something sorta peaceful about thursday. good luck to you and I hope you find peace

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Wishing you a successful & peaceful journey to whatever comes next!

 

[nonialabaster]

Here's Johnny Cash, covering Nine Inch Nail's "Hurt." Enjoy, babies! And, happy Easter!

 

[FundamentalAspect]

You are the reason that, after years of lurking, I finally joined this site (this is my first post ever). There have been many members whose threads have affected me, but there is something about you that got to me and I felt that I had to join so that I could thank you.

In reading your posts I found a lovely, caring, welcoming individual; you and I seem to have a lot in common, and you remind me of some of my favourite people to come through my life, sadly all gone now. You have excellent taste in music, seeing your music dumps has made me smile because they look exactly like my Liked list on Spotify. Your sharp wit and humour have made me laugh, just as hearing about your difficulties and pain has made me cry, as have some of the beautiful things you have told us about Mark and your cats.

Thank you for letting us walk with you a little while, and for keeping us up to date on your status through the process, especially after how harrowing the last couple of days have been.

I am sitting here writing this awkward thing, with my own cat in my lap, and bungling trying to convey how much you have affected me. My words are inadequate. You are a beautiful person, you deserve peace, and I hope you find it painlessly.

Rest well.


P.S.
Apologies if I hijacked your thread, never the intent. Goodnight.

 

[nonialabaster]

You are the reason that, after years of lurking, I finally joined this site (this is my first post ever). There have been many members whose threads have affected me, but there is something about you that got to me and I felt that I had to join so that I could thank you.

In reading your posts I found a lovely, caring, welcoming individual; you and I seem to have a lot in common, and you remind me of some of my favourite people to come through my life, sadly all gone now. You have excellent taste in music, seeing your music dumps has made me smile because they look exactly like my Liked list on Spotify. Your sharp wit and humour have made me laugh, just as hearing about your difficulties and pain has made me cry, as have some of the beautiful things you have told us about Mark and your cats.

Thank you for letting us walk with you a little while, and for keeping us up to date on your status through the process, especially after how harrowing the last couple of days have been.

I am sitting here writing this awkward thing, with my own cat in my lap, and bungling trying to convey how much you have affected me. My words are inadequate. You are a beautiful person, you deserve peace, and I hope you find it painlessly.

Rest well.


P.S.
Apologies if I hijacked your thread, never the intent. Goodnight.

Oh, honey. Thank you. You are a beautiful writer; you made me cry. I've found such comfort and support here, so stick around, even after I'm gone.

My Kali is in my bed, waiting for her Mama to come back. She was helping me through tummy troubles. She decided to eat a little bit of my hair. She got bored with making biscuits.



Sorry to keep posting this one. I've got Mark's Stetson and his ashes in my bed. Kali has curled around Mark's box. She didn't know what to do with the cowboy hat.

 

[charlotte_]

hii! though we haven't interacted at all, I've seen some of your responses on others' threads and this one, and you seem like a really nice person. im sure you've brought a lot of comfort and joy for many others here. it's sad seeing you leave, but im happy for you that you are finally finding the peace you deserve. hopefully, you will be able to reunite with your husband once more, and travel amongst the stars with him. i dont know if this brings any joy for you or not, but even after you're gone, you will remain a lovely shining star in the night, or just in the hearts of the people you've brought joy to.
normally, im not really the kind to interact with goodbye post, but since you're leaving soon, i want to say a goodbye before you do. i sure hope this isnt too cringey haha. best wishes to you wherever you go!

 

[Rocket]

Hope you're feeling better, Noni, thinking of you. Hope Kali is giving you all the love you deserve. Have you worked out your new plan? I'm still so sorry it was so traumatizing the other night, you have every right to make your own decisions and hearing the hassles you went through was heartbreaking. Lots of people here care about you, sending positive energy and hopes that you're doing OK.

 

[nonialabaster]

Hope I haven't shared this one yet. More Yo La Tengo. "You Can Have it All." Mark and I got to see them in Chicago, many years ago. They are fantastic.

Hope you're feeling better, Noni, thinking of you. Hope Kali is giving you all the love you deserve. Have you worked out your new plan? I'm still so sorry it was so traumatizing the other night, you have every right to make your own decisions and hearing the hassles you went through was heartbreaking. Lots of people here care about you, sending positive energy and hopes that you're doing OK.

I'm feeling a little better. Thank you. I'm going to try again tomorrow. Kali was a little warm bean, settled against my stomach all night.

Hope I haven't shared this one yet. More Yo La Tengo. "You Can Have it All." Mark and I got to see them in Chicago, many years ago. They are fantastic.

I'm feeling a little better. Thank you. I'm going to try again tomorrow. Kali was a little warm bean, settled against my stomach all night.

This one's good for a laugh and features David Cross, who is, as my dad would say, "a funny little fucker."

 

[HerculePoirot]

I'm feeling a little better. Thank you. I'm going to try again tomorrow.

Do not use the same old Sn, please.
I wouldn't trust it.
At least make a blood test.

 

[SenseOfLoss]

May I ask for what reasons your attempt has now ultimately failed? Excuse me, but I could not take it from your thread now and it would interest me very much.

 

[nonialabaster]

May I ask for what reasons your attempt has now ultimately failed? Excuse me, but I could not take it from your thread now and it would interest me very much.

Not going to give any more tips. Sorry, but there's too many lurkers here who are trying to shut us down. Nothing personal; you might be a lovely person, but I was freaked out by a particularly nasty new member and I'm not in a trusting mood.

 

[nonialabaster]

Not going to give any more tips. Sorry, but there's too many lurkers here who are trying to shut us down. Nothing personal; you might be a lovely person, but I was freaked out by a particularly nasty new member and I'm not in a trusting mood.

I just watched "Bernie" for the millionth time. It's by Richard Linklater, a Texas filmmaker known, primarily for "Slacker" and "Dazed and Confused." This movie is based on a true story and stars Jack Black, Shirley MacLlaine and Matthew McConaughey. It's dark humor, very funny, but filled with poignant moments.

Mark and I were able to meet Richard in 2000, during a special screening of "Dazed" he was doing in our town, years after it came out. Mark always bragged that he smoked from Slater's bong. They lived in the same co-op, when that film was made. Richard loved the story!

 

[SenseOfLoss]

Not going to give any more tips. Sorry, but there's too many lurkers here who are trying to shut us down. Nothing personal; you might be a lovely person, but I was freaked out by a particularly nasty new member and I'm not in a trusting mo

Thanks for your reply. Anyway, I didn't ask for advice, just wanted to know why it didn't work. No problem though!

 

[FundamentalAspect]

Oh, honey. Thank you. You are a beautiful writer; you made me cry. I've found such comfort and support here, so stick around, even after I'm gone.

My Kali is in my bed, waiting for her Mama to come back. She was helping me through tummy troubles. She decided to eat a little bit of my hair. She got bored with making biscuits.

Thank you! You have no idea how much that means to have you say that! I used to write, had some of my poetry published and a couple of my plays produced, but CPTSD and depression took that away. Not writing made me miserable, being miserable made writing impossible, and it became a cycle which ate my brain and crushed my heart. Big part of why I wish I could CTB. I have been trying to go back to it, so what you have said means a great deal.

I always planned to stick around here when I joined after years of lurking - as you said in another post, there is community in this place - but you helped me push the button. And again, thank you.

How are you and Kali doing today? How is your stomach feeling?

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Thank you! You have no idea how much that means to have you say that! I used to write, had some of my poetry published and a couple of my plays produced, but CPTSD and depression took that away. Not writing made me miserable, being miserable made writing impossible, and it became a cycle which ate my brain and crushed my heart. Big part of why I wish I could CTB. I have been trying to go back to it, so what you have said means a great deal.

I always planned to stick around here when I joined after years of lurking - as you said in another post, there is community in this place - but you helped me push the button. And again, thank you.

How are you and Kali doing today? How is your stomach feeling?

Hey, I'm not her, but I want to second what she said, your word choices are eloquent, and it was pleasant to read. I'm sorry the cycle pushed you away from writing.

I was in a similar situation, pushed someone away because I was depressed, and the further I pushed them, the more depressed I got.

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

I just watched "Bernie" for the millionth time. It's by Richard Linklater, a Texas filmmaker known, primarily for "Slacker" and "Dazed and Confused." This movie is based on a true story and stars Jack Black, Shirley MacLlaine and Matthew McConaughey. It's dark humor, very funny, but filled with poignant moments.

Mark and I were able to meet Richard in 2000, during a special screening of "Dazed" he was doing in our town, years after it came out. Mark always bragged that he smoked from Slater's bong. They lived in the same co-op, when that film was made. Richard loved the story!

that's so cool! He's one of my favorite directors. I actually never got around to watching the Before trilogy until a few weeks ago and I was absolutely floored. He's a mastermind. I bet meeting him was awesome

 

[LostCauseLooknToCTB]

I feel like this song describes a lot of people including myself let us know what is going on if you're still here.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I feel like this song describes a lot of people including myself let us know what is going on if you're still here.

I think she said she might attempt again today. If we don't receive another update, that's probably what happened. I doubt she'd tell us again in case the cops come again.

 

[FundamentalAspect]

Hey, I'm not her, but I want to second what she said, your word choices are eloquent, and it was pleasant to read. I'm sorry the cycle pushed you away from writing.

I was in a similar situation, pushed someone away because I was depressed, and the further I pushed them, the more depressed I got.

Wow, thank you very much, that means a lot!

I am so sorry about losing your person this way, it's always horrible and just furthers the cycle of misery. This seems to be one of the cruellest parts of having depression and the like, the way it steals everything and leaves you stranded; it's bloody isolating.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Wow, thank you very much, that means a lot!

I am so sorry about losing your person this way, it's always horrible and just furthers the cycle of misery. This seems to be one of the cruellest parts of having depression and the like, the way it steals everything and leaves you stranded; it's bloody isolating.

You're very welcome!

And it truly does hurt, I haven't lost her permanently because she still speaks with me and helps me at times, but obviously not in the same capacity. I've pushed away family before but they forgive easier since we're family. Depression has left me isolated that's for sure, but, I'm making efforts to better myself and hopefully I succeed

 

[lebrodude]

OP hasn't posted in over a day now.
If she has gone may she be at peace and reunited with those she loved.

 

[Sparx]

Sounds like OP had an awful few days, hope she is at peace now.

It's stuff like this that put me off SN, a few years ago it seemed a fairly reliable method. I don't know what's happened since then.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

Let's hope the police weren't called again. OP mentioned it could of been someone from this site who called them. Bit worrying that they worked out where to call. Hopefully things have worked out in their favour whatever that looks like.

 

[Yahwa]

I'm really hoping you were able to exit peacefully this time and didn't experience anything bad again. I'm sorry you last days were this hard because of some trolls and hope you found your peace

 

[LateForTheBus]

Noni asked me to update everyone.

She took her SN 9 hours ago. The last message I got from her was right before she drank it, so it seems that she was able to successfully CTB this time. I pray that it was a swift and peaceful exit, as we all know her first attempt was pretty traumatizing. She spent lots of time cuddling her KaliKat before she left. I made sure to remind her of the impact she made here. I know she touched so many of our lives in the short time she was on SS. I miss her already, but I'm happy that she has found peace and been reunited with her beloved Mark and sweet kitty, Kristen. See you soon, Noni.

 

[redtruck1]

Thank you for the update. I hope it was a peaceful journey

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

May her soul be at peace.

 

[FundamentalAspect]

I hope she went peacefully and painlessly.

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

I am sorry that such a compassionate and intelligent person has left us, but this was her decision and I respect it. I am honored to have talked with her and exchanged music during her last days, even though it was only through this forum.