LateForTheBus
Experienced
- Feb 7, 2023
- 228
50mg of water or 50ml? It should be ml, but I don't know what effect using a different amount of water would have? Or that might've just been a typo? But 25gm of SN should've been enough. I'm so sorry.
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thereisnomeaning
To live here is my nightmare
- Mar 15, 2023
- 54
Water weight is equivalent in grams and ml
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
I retched. Passed out. Drank my retching. There wasn't much there. Still can't feel my legs. I'll try again in a few hours.
Yes, it is possible. You're drinking salt. It's difficult to do. SN will shut your organs down, because of the way it works on your red blood cells. Going to sleep now.
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
looking_for_peace
Student
- Dec 4, 2022
- 195
I'm puzzled... maybe it was sodium nitrate instead of nitrite? I'm sorry OP. get some rest if you can
speck
Student
- May 5, 2020
- 178
I'm sorry your day was full of setbacks and now this. I hope your next try goes smoother. Did you use antiemetic at all?
Yup. That is the polite version. If not understood, we may also use the rude one.
Rocket
Member
- Oct 12, 2022
- 60
Reported as well, Nonia. How dare anyone interfere with someone's personal choice. Please try to forget and ignore it, you've had a horrific day.
Sending you a huge hug and lots of positive energy.
I read the thread tonight and wish you peace and love. With all you're doing, taking the time to share the incredible music links is another sign of how wonderful you are.
Blessings for your decision and choices to be respected, beautiful soul. xox
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
Where do these assholes come from? I'm sitting with KaliKat in my lap. She's purring like an engine. I want to thank all of y'all, for coming to my defense. I truly appreciate it. I'm trying again, in a few hours. I'll not take the beta-blockers. I think that's what stopped it.
do you think? i was planning taking propranolol , but maybe ill cut it from my regimen
yes, may be appropriate, sounds similar to other people who failed with sodium nitrAte instead
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,604
Bannd tht usr -- wll tidy up thred s/ tht u d/ nt hve 2 C thse msgs
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
Not quite sure. I'm gonna double up on the Benadryl today. It's not like I live in Switzerland. I wish I had a doctor, helping me through this. At least, I scared that person away from this thread.
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,604
This would be so much easier if we all could have a doctor help us through it. I wish we didn't have to do this ourselves.
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
I think it's ok to take. I just took mine, then the cops showed up, and I vomited. So, I wasn't really following the protocol. Tomorrow will be better.
Technically speaking, a blood test at this point might not be relevant, as Op's blood is more or less 'polluted'. Aquarium test would be more appropriate.
nonialabaster
Experienced
- Jan 4, 2023
- 263
True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.
LateForTheBus
Experienced
- Feb 7, 2023
- 228
WaitingToGo
Experienced
- Feb 18, 2023
- 233
Oh I'm sorry you had such a shit night what with the cops calling and then the SN not working. As I was driving to the store a couple of hours ago I was thinking of you and that you and Mark and Kalli were all reunited. And now you have it all to do again. Thinking of you
chr74
Student
- Mar 29, 2023
- 140
nonia sorry to her it did no go as planned, its a big thread this so sorry if it is mentioned already but was the SN nonia used from IC?
Janine
"The man who hunts two bunnies will catch neither"
- Mar 18, 2023
- 50
I'm so sorry for everything you've been forced through which lead you to this decision. You deserve your last hours in peace listening to your incredible music. We didn't have any contact except for some general-chat messages, I believe, but I know your story from what you've shared. You're a great person, you should realize that in the moments before leaving us. All the best.
Damn that must suck so much shit. I dont know why it didnt work.
If you retched / vomited then you should just force yourself to vomit the rest out aswell, its not worth trying to continue, either you survive or die very slowly or get permament damage. at that point you need to start over.
Chocolate brown blood? Oh dear. goodnight. I hope you either wake up in prosperity tomorrow or that you perish atleast peacefully in your sleep.
Also your cat is very cute, purring like an engine (:
You were a very lovely person btw (: I followed a lot of your posts. Wishing you well no matter what happens now.
That must be a nightmare. I'm so sorry for you. I hope that apart from not feeling your legs, you're feeling physically okay.
Please don't rush into a second attempt — if your blood is brown that most likely means that there is some SN in your system. If that doesn't kill you, it was probably not enough. That can be because of an absorption problem or because of the purity of your SN. As big of a burden that is, but you need to investigate that before a second attempt.
For example, if you bought from IC, only the 3 bags package is sealed air tight. If your SN had to much contact to air it might have degraded so nitrate to a large part.
If this is not properly ruled out, any further attempt bears the risk of failing with uncomfortable and probably permanent damages which is the last thing that you want.
If you're going to sleep and won't wake up, I really wish it will be a peaceful ride for you! If you wake up and want to talk, feel free to PM me. I followed your posts here and your story is heart breaking. I can really relate to your loss and followed your attempt with a strange feeling of connection even though we have never talked before.
LateForTheBus
Experienced
- Feb 7, 2023
- 228
Thinking of you this morning, sweet lady. I hope you either left this world peacefully in your sleep or you wake up with no ill effects to try again another day. Whichever the outcome, I'm sending a ton of love your way.
Yahwa
씨발년
- Mar 28, 2023
- 82
I really hope you're okay, and if you've tried to CTB again, I hope it's worked now. You weren't in the best conditions yesterday, the cops showing up gave you an additional stress that helped make you throw up. If you haven't tried again yet, I wish you a peaceful exit and a happy after life with Mark
I'll miss you, but I'll join you soon, so I hope we'll be able to cross paths somedaySimilar threads
