Method OK, Kiddos. It's going to be Thursday

[LateForTheBus]

I drank 25g, with 50 mg of water. I don't know why it didn't work. I'm not a heavy person. I'm a little fairy. My legs are still numb. I'm so pissed off.

50mg of water or 50ml? It should be ml, but I don't know what effect using a different amount of water would have? Or that might've just been a typo? But 25gm of SN should've been enough. I'm so sorry.

 

[thereisnomeaning]

50mg of water or 50ml? It should be ml, but I don't know what effect using a different amount of water would have? Or that might've just been a typo? But 25gm of SN should've been enough. I'm so sorry.

Water weight is equivalent in grams and ml

 

[HerculePoirot]

Blood test?

 

[nonialabaster]

How is that possible? Did you throw up?

I retched. Passed out. Drank my retching. There wasn't much there. Still can't feel my legs. I'll try again in a few hours.

Yes, it is possible. You're drinking salt. It's difficult to do. SN will shut your organs down, because of the way it works on your red blood cells. Going to sleep now.

 

[nonialabaster]

Wrong place. Please move. Away.

Thank you, Detective.

 

[looking_for_peace]

I'm puzzled... maybe it was sodium nitrate instead of nitrite? I'm sorry OP. get some rest if you can

 

[speck]

I'm sorry your day was full of setbacks and now this. I hope your next try goes smoother. Did you use antiemetic at all?

 

[HerculePoirot]

jesus christ fuck off you sick asshole

Yup. That is the polite version. If not understood, we may also use the rude one.

 

[Rocket]

Reported as well, Nonia. How dare anyone interfere with someone's personal choice. Please try to forget and ignore it, you've had a horrific day.

Sending you a huge hug and lots of positive energy.

I read the thread tonight and wish you peace and love. With all you're doing, taking the time to share the incredible music links is another sign of how wonderful you are.

Blessings for your decision and choices to be respected, beautiful soul. xox

 

[nonialabaster]

Yup. That is the polite version. If not understood, we may also use the rude one.

Where do these assholes come from? I'm sitting with KaliKat in my lap. She's purring like an engine. I want to thank all of y'all, for coming to my defense. I truly appreciate it. I'm trying again, in a few hours. I'll not take the beta-blockers. I think that's what stopped it.

 

[ExistHarm]

Where do these assholes come from? I'm sitting with KaliKat in my lap. She's purring like an engine. I want to thank all of y'all, for coming to my defense. I truly appreciate it. I'm trying again, in a few hours. I'll not take the beta-blockers. I think that's what stopped it.

do you think? i was planning taking propranolol , but maybe ill cut it from my regimen

 

[HerculePoirot]

May I suggest again to perform a blood test?

 

[ExistHarm]

May I suggest again to perform a blood test?

yes, may be appropriate, sounds similar to other people who failed with sodium nitrAte instead

 

[Dot]

Bannd tht usr -- wll tidy up thred s/ tht u d/ nt hve 2 C thse msgs

 

[bluebree]

Bannd tht usr -- wll tidy up thred s/ tht u d/ nt hve 2 C thse msgs

why were they banned

 

[nonialabaster]

do you think? i was planning taking propranolol , but maybe ill cut it from my regimen

Not quite sure. I'm gonna double up on the Benadryl today. It's not like I live in Switzerland. I wish I had a doctor, helping me through this. At least, I scared that person away from this thread.

 

[Dot]

why were they banned

Wll xplain in d.m

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Not quite sure. I'm gonna double up on the Benadryl today. It's not like I live in Switzerland. I wish I had a doctor, helping me through this. At least, I scared that person away from this thread.

This would be so much easier if we all could have a doctor help us through it. I wish we didn't have to do this ourselves.

 

[LateForTheBus]

Bannd tht usr -- wll tidy up thred s/ tht u d/ nt hve 2 C thse msgs

Thank you, @Dot!

 

[nonialabaster]

do you think? i was planning taking propranolol , but maybe ill cut it from my regimen

I think it's ok to take. I just took mine, then the cops showed up, and I vomited. So, I wasn't really following the protocol. Tomorrow will be better.

 

[HerculePoirot]

yes, may be appropriate, sounds similar to other people who failed with sodium nitrAte instead

Technically speaking, a blood test at this point might not be relevant, as Op's blood is more or less 'polluted'. Aquarium test would be more appropriate.

 

[nonialabaster]

Technically speaking, a blood test at this point might not be relevant, as Op's blood is more or less 'polluted'. Aquarium test would be more appropriate.

True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.

 

[LateForTheBus]

True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.

Sent you one last chat DM just now. (Hugs)

 

[WaitingToGo]

Oh I'm sorry you had such a shit night what with the cops calling and then the SN not working. As I was driving to the store a couple of hours ago I was thinking of you and that you and Mark and Kalli were all reunited. And now you have it all to do again. Thinking of you

 

[chr74]

nonia sorry to her it did no go as planned, its a big thread this so sorry if it is mentioned already but was the SN nonia used from IC?

 

[Janine]

I'm so sorry for everything you've been forced through which lead you to this decision. You deserve your last hours in peace listening to your incredible music. We didn't have any contact except for some general-chat messages, I believe, but I know your story from what you've shared. You're a great person, you should realize that in the moments before leaving us. All the best.

 

[WonderfulWeatherDIE]

True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.

Damn that must suck so much shit. I dont know why it didnt work.

If you retched / vomited then you should just force yourself to vomit the rest out aswell, its not worth trying to continue, either you survive or die very slowly or get permament damage. at that point you need to start over.

Chocolate brown blood? Oh dear. goodnight. I hope you either wake up in prosperity tomorrow or that you perish atleast peacefully in your sleep.

Also your cat is very cute, purring like an engine (:

True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.

You were a very lovely person btw (: I followed a lot of your posts. Wishing you well no matter what happens now.

 

[orca87]

True. I cut my wrist, just to check. My blood looks like chocolate syrup. I'm going to sleep. With a pillowcase over my head. maybe it will work.

That must be a nightmare. I'm so sorry for you. I hope that apart from not feeling your legs, you're feeling physically okay.

Please don't rush into a second attempt — if your blood is brown that most likely means that there is some SN in your system. If that doesn't kill you, it was probably not enough. That can be because of an absorption problem or because of the purity of your SN. As big of a burden that is, but you need to investigate that before a second attempt.

For example, if you bought from IC, only the 3 bags package is sealed air tight. If your SN had to much contact to air it might have degraded so nitrate to a large part.

If this is not properly ruled out, any further attempt bears the risk of failing with uncomfortable and probably permanent damages which is the last thing that you want.

If you're going to sleep and won't wake up, I really wish it will be a peaceful ride for you! If you wake up and want to talk, feel free to PM me. I followed your posts here and your story is heart breaking. I can really relate to your loss and followed your attempt with a strange feeling of connection even though we have never talked before.

 

[LateForTheBus]

Thinking of you this morning, sweet lady. I hope you either left this world peacefully in your sleep or you wake up with no ill effects to try again another day. Whichever the outcome, I'm sending a ton of love your way.

 

[Yahwa]

I really hope you're okay, and if you've tried to CTB again, I hope it's worked now. You weren't in the best conditions yesterday, the cops showing up gave you an additional stress that helped make you throw up. If you haven't tried again yet, I wish you a peaceful exit and a happy after life with Mark I'll miss you, but I'll join you soon, so I hope we'll be able to cross paths someday