N from D megathread

[SofterSoftest]

Alright officially as of this morning in my email: D has confirmed that the shortage is real, they have no product. Not even to sell for extra. They have reccomended trying back in July. All we can do is wait.

I received the same message. As much as I'm disappoinred, I'm also really thankful and appreciative for their honesty and thoughtfulness - they are under no obligation to write back and tell us to try again (I'm sure business was more than okay before now).

 

[wljourney]

Alright officially as of this morning in my email: D has confirmed that the shortage is real, they have no product. Not even to sell for extra. They have reccomended trying back in July. All we can do is wait.

Thank you for letting us know!

 

[Imperia]

I received the same message. As much as I'm disappoinred, I'm also really thankful and appreciative for their honesty and thoughtfulness - they are under no obligation to write back and tell us to try again (I'm sure business was more than okay before now).

Yep, me too.
I also really appreciate the message.
Sounds like they do want to stay in business... And maybe already have some clue about when N will be available again. I hope that July is not a wild guess...

 

[lostmylove]

Nothing will happen in July it will be the same bs. I'm trapped in this prison I'm actually fked gotta jump in a train now. Unbelievable

 

[Cra87]

I think he's done well to let us know. I mean if he didn't think he would be back by July (reports saying end of June should be back to normal) he could of easily scammed a lot of people in the last few weeks but he hasn't.

 

[no-name9859472882]

So what caused the shortage i heard some explosion happened or something?

 

[SofterSoftest]

I think he's done well to let us know. I mean if he didn't think he would be back by July (reports saying end of June should be back to normal) he could of easily scammed a lot of people in the last few weeks but he hasn't.

Exactly my thoughts. They could have easily made lots of money from people they knew would be very desperate for N. I really respect their transparency.

 

[HubbaHubba]

I also received a reply and although I am grateful he did, I am disappointed on myself. I should have ordered soon.

Took me a while to get the PPeH file (failed downloads, etc.), setting up BTC account, dealing with work, planning on how/when/where to CTB, etc. My indecisiveness also play a part on the delay in placing the order.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I cannot even imagine the hurt this is causing. I am feeling the full weight of what this world does to people by trapping them here no matter the circumstances.

The closest peacefulness I can think of for an exit is SN with Benzos and Meto.

Exactly my thoughts. They could have easily made lots of money from people they knew would be very desperate for N. I really respect their transparency.

Yeah D is a Saint if there ever were one

Nothing will happen in July it will be the same bs. I'm trapped in this prison I'm actually fked gotta jump in a train now. Unbelievable

If you want someone to talk to my pms are open.

 

[wljourney]

I think he's done well to let us know. I mean if he didn't think he would be back by July (reports saying end of June should be back to normal) he could of easily scammed a lot of people in the last few weeks but he hasn't.

I agree. This is a good sign that D may come back online, but of course a massive blow for those who didn't get their orders in.

I also received a reply and although I am grateful he did, I am disappointed on myself. I should have ordered soon.

Took me a while to get the PPeH file (failed downloads, etc.), setting up BTC account, dealing with work, planning on how/when/where to CTB, etc. My indecisiveness also play a part on the delay in placing the order.

Hubba I am so very sorry.

It's a really big blow, but none of this was foreseeable for most of us. It's definitely not your fault. Please don't blame yourself.

Maybe take the next few months to get your ducks lined up. Getting an Rx for M, maybe benzoes & SN as a backup. Sorting through paperwork. Making a will. Whatever needs to be done.

Sending hugs (wish I could send N).

 

[HubbaHubba]

I agree. This is a good sign that D may come back online, but of course a massive blow for those who didn't get their orders in.


Hubba I am so very sorry.

It's a really big blow, but none of this was foreseeable for most of us. It's definitely not your fault. Please don't blame yourself.

Maybe take the next few months to get your ducks lined up. Getting an Rx for M, maybe benzoes & SN as a backup. Sorting through paperwork. Making a will. Whatever needs to be done.

Sending hugs (wish I could send N).

@wljourney thank you for the kind of words.

I think it's just my fault and bad luck: I was not looking for the perfect CTB, but a method with the least impact to others and I spent a lot of time on the preparation. Examples:

1. I made plans for the longest time for various things, such as where my asset will go, who will take care of my pets, how to write an ironclad will, etc. I wrote my plan here for others to see: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...efore-the-end-game-am-i-doing-it-right.86917/.

2.I reviewed dozens of CTB methods to figure out which ones that will not traumatize others... or at least reduce that risk. Eg. shooting myself is gory and I don't want my loved ones to see my blown head, jumping in front of the train can traumatize the train operator and that's just wrong IMHO, etc.

N from D was the ONLY method I see that is the most peaceful, easy to do, have 99.999% success rate and have the least impact to others.

Unfortunately, the time I spent the above backfired because now I can't get N.

Sorry for the long winded explanation. It's probably in my nature as an Engineer to overthink everything with a tendency to not "upset" others.

I thought I have planned everything but in one instance (no N stock), everything crumbles.

 

[tryingtoescape]

Oh god I am going insane. Do you all think him being back in July is likely? Obviously we have no idea. I can't walk. My only method. I will not do something with a fatality rate below 90%. Jumping and N were my only options since I legally can't own a gun. There is heavy condensation on my bottles, which the pph says is a bad sign. It was due to a humidifier, I believe. I am in despair. It was the only thing keeping me from bashing my head into walls, giving me a feeling of a security blanket. I am in a such a severe panic now I have vomited.

 

[wljourney]

@wljourney thank you for the kind of words.

I think it's just my fault and bad luck: I was not looking for the perfect CTB, but a method with the least impact to others and I spent a lot of time on the preparation. Examples:

1. I made plans for the longest time for various things, such as where my asset will go, who will take care of my pets, how to write an ironclad will, etc. I wrote my plan here for others to see: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...efore-the-end-game-am-i-doing-it-right.86917/.

2.I reviewed dozens of CTB methods to figure out which ones that will not traumatize others... or at least reduce that risk. Eg. shooting myself is gory and I don't want my loved ones to see my blown head, jumping in front of the train can traumatize the train operator and that's just wrong IMHO, etc.

N from D was the ONLY method I see that is the most peaceful, easy to do, have 99.999% success rate and have the least impact to others.

Unfortunately, the time I spent the above backfired because now I can't get N.

Sorry for the long winded explanation. It's probably in my nature as an Engineer to overthink everything with a tendency to not "upset" others.

I thought I have planned everything but in one instance (no N stock), everything crumbles.

I absolutely understand that you wanted to cross your t's and dot your i's.

Maybe that time spent planning was needed to make sure that this is the right decision? To have peace of mind that it's ok to go?

Would traveling to SA be an option? Though of course if D has supply issues, so will likely Peruvian pharmacies…

 

[bigbeatmanifesto]

Call me an optimist but i don't think it'll be as long as everyone thinks until supply is back up and running again. The demand for a peaceful exit is huge and only growing by the day and in this unscrupulous capitalist world we live in someone out there will be able to cater to our needs. After all, there's clearly sooo much money to be made.

 

[tryingtoescape]

I can't believe animals are not even treated like this. That it is allowed. Unbearable and fear.

 

[whitefeather]

Maybe we should start a poll on when D last responded to you so we have some consensus. He has not responded to me since 04/05/22, so I can't place the order.

 

[YuckyDucky]

Frankly I'm not sure what everyone is still freaking out about. The latest development is a positive one. Yes, its definitely a disappointment for anyone who was about to place an order but the reply D is apparently sending certainly suggests that they intend to start selling again as soon as they can get supply, and they don't expect that to take longer than a few months. Compared to what was being speculated a few days ago and taking into account the established fact that there is a supply shortage, that is the absolute best case scenario we had any right to hope for, and a big win for people who desire access to N in the future.

 

[T-StayResident]

Oh god I am going insane. Do you all think him being back in July is likely? Obviously we have no idea. I can't walk. My only method. I will not do something with a fatality rate below 90%. Jumping and N were my only options since I legally can't own a gun. There is heavy condensation on my bottles, which the pph says is a bad sign. It was due to a humidifier, I believe. I am in despair. It was the only thing keeping me from bashing my head into walls, giving me a feeling of a security blanket. I am in a such a severe panic now I have vomited.

Have you tried a small sample of the bottle (or bottles) that you have? I mean using a syringe with a scale on its side to extract about 1 ml? If I understand things correctly 1 ml of N from D should equate to 63 mg of PB and that should be able to put you to sleep for a couple of hours. If it does, then the whole bottle should still be ok to use for your final moment if that is what you want.

 

[Red Scare]

If I understand things correctly 1 ml of N from D should equate to 63 mg of PB and that should be able to put you to sleep for a couple of hours.

couple of hours? More like 12

 

[SleepingGirl]

I found all of the chemical reagents online, which totals $250 to make 23g sodium pentobarbital, not including shipping costs or the cost of buying the hotplate/thermometers/clamp-stands/etc.

The only reagent that's regulated is the malonic acid, which can only be sold to labs or businesses unfortunately. Maybe some 3rd world country might ship it to you without a business address though, like with SN.

Damn, that's not bad. There's always gotta be something hard to obtain in the end. Also too bad for me bringing in a bunch of chemistry tools would be pretty alarming for the person I live with. Who wants to be the angel of mercy since D has a shortage.

 

[sunny/omori]

Anyone know if is still possible to get N from Latin America?

 

[DPJ187]

There is a global shortage right now but as far as I know, it's getting more restricted even in places like Latin America. Word got out and authorities are clamping down of you do manage to order it, it's most likely a scam or you'll have the cops at the door.

Anyone know if is still possible to get N from Latin America?

 

[MusicToLogIn]

Sorry, if this question has been asked before. Is D planning on quitting?
If so will he be able to supply the people before he quits? And when will he quit (at the end of the year or in a couple of months)? Im trying to plan ahead.
Thank you very much.

 

[speck]

Sorry, if this question has been asked before. Is D planning on quitting?
If so will he be able to supply the people before he quits? And when will he quit (at the end of the year or in a couple of months)? Im trying to plan ahead.
Thank you very much.

We don't know. He said to try in July so people are feeling like that's a sign that he's not quitting permanently. My guess is that when the supply becomes stable again he or someone else will take up selling it again.

 

[no-name9859472882]

can anyone please pm me to confirm if i have the right email for D

 

[Red Scare]

can anyone please pm me to confirm if i have the right email for D

I'd recommend reading the past several pots preceding yours. Should help you be able to get a handle on the present situation.

 

[Foresight]

I'm just going to get SN before that runs dry and pray to the merciful gods N is available later this year. It'll be okay...

Might as well get the crypto in the meantime? Prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

 

[BrokenBliss]

I'm just going to get SN before that runs dry and pray to the merciful gods N is available later this year. It'll be okay...

Might as well get the crypto in the meantime? Prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

Advise you wait to get your crypto until right before you're ready to use it, unless money is not an issue for you. The value fluctuates so much that there's no way to predict how much what you purchase now will be worth three months from now.

 

[T-StayResident]

I'm just going to get SN before that runs dry and pray to the merciful gods N is available later this year. It'll be okay...

Might as well get the crypto in the meantime? Prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

If you haven't set up an online account that includes a crypto wallet, then you should probably do so. For example Coinbase seems to want to draw things out for a very long time before you can actually start using their service.

If you want to get the hang of how to transfer Bitcoins then may I suggest you get a second online account. This way you can buy Bitcoins for a very, very small amount (a few dollars) and then practice how to transfer Bitcoins between your two accounts whithout risking losing larger amounts of your savings. In my oppinion it's quite a hassle dealing with Bitcoins. First you have to transfer funds (USD, EUR, whatever) to your online account and then buy the Bitcoins at the current price of the market. And THEN you can transfer the Bitcoins to a receiving Bitcoin address.

Like @BrokenBliss said, it's probably best to hold off on buying larger amounts of Bitcoins before you're just about to make a purchase from your source.
Setting up an account and having the "know-how" for when that time comes is probably a good way to prepare, though.

 

[Eternal Oblivion]

I'm very distressed by this. I knew I should have gotten it when I had the chance.