Venting my wife died today.

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

There are no words to lessen your pain. I'm glad you have someone to at least help a bit, allow them to be there for you and help as much as possible. Be kind to yourself and use this forum to share your feelings as much as you want. You are in my thoughts.

 

[ABadPerson]

Please make sure to still take care of yourself, I know it'll be hard but seriously do; I hope you keep that friend close as any support beam can mean immensely. Remember that you are allowed to grieve, especially on a forum like this so don't at all bottle anything up.

I send my condolences.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

after looking through medical conditions I found what killed her. "Septic Shock"

Here's the run down :
End-stage sepsis, also known as septic shock, is a life-threatening condition where blood pressure drops dangerously low, and multiple organs, including the lungs, kidneys, and liver, begin to fail. Symptoms include very low blood pressure, confusion, pale or blotchy skin, and a rash that doesn't fade when pressed. At this point, the focus shifts to supportive care and hospice, as the condition can progress rapidly toward death.

• Extreme low blood pressure: Even with IV fluids, the blood pressure remains abnormally low.
  
  
• Organ failure: Lungs, kidneys, and liver begin to fail.
  
  
• Severe confusion or altered mental state: This can be a sign of the brain being deprived of oxygen.
  
  
• Changes in skin color: Skin may appear pale, grey, or blotchy, and a rash that does not fade when pressed can be a symptom.
  
  
• Rapid heart rate: The heart may beat very fast.
  
  
• Little or no urine output: This indicates the kidneys are not functioning properly.
  
  
  her heart rate was 145 BPM before cardiac arrest, and Every thing posted is EXACTLY what happened to her.
  
  during the day we had a nice dinner date, talked about things, she didn't say anything about feeling bad and then in the morning I found her in the state she was in and got her help, but too little too late. If she was feeling bad, I wish she would have said something, I would have taken her there, but It came and took her out so fast. I been crying and screaming saying "What if I..." thinking maybe I could have saved her some how, I can't help but blame myself for it.