Story My final words

[puffyclouds]

The world is so beautiful. My cat is breathing softly next to me. Is she trying to stop me from catching the bus? She's sleeping on my blankets, like she knows what they're going to be used for. I wish this wasn't the end. In another life, I'll meet you all, and I'll invite everyone over for tea. We can bake together.

 

[heliophobic]

It's nice to meet you like this, Melissa. Thank you for your kindness.

You're more than welcome. Kindness is free and yet so many people go through life being cruel and heartless.

 

[puffyclouds]

I'm going to send him that letter, now. Can you guys please encourage me?
I just sent him that letter. I don't think I'll ever get an answer. But I sent it.

 

[heliophobic]

The world is so beautiful. My cat is breathing softly next to me. Is she trying to stop me from catching the bus? She's sleeping on my blankets, like she knows what they're going to be used for. I wish this wasn't the end. In another life, I'll meet you all, and I'll invite everyone over for tea. We can bake together.

What if she *is* trying to tell you that?

 

[puffyclouds]

I think I'm going do it. I'm so so so scared. Goodbye, everyone.

 

[heliophobic]

Goodbye. I'm sorry I failed.

 

[puffyclouds]

Fuck. I don't know. Maybe I shouldn't have sent him that. What if he calls in a wellfare check? I'm scared. I wish this wasn't happening.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

i really want to cry right now. I love you. I will never forget you. I hope it's painless, im so happy to have been able to talk to you even if it was just for a bit. Goodbye Yūnus. You are such a beautiful soul

 

[pepe_felipe]

I'm going to send him that letter, now. Can you guys please encourage me?
I just sent him that letter. I don't think I'll ever get an answer. But I sent it.

i just want to say i found this about 20 minutes ago, my typical hours for perusing this site. I really commend you for you bravery, you've definitely been through a lot and I see no shame in all you've done up to this point. whatever happens in the next 20 minutes is completely rational imo, your cat will be taken care of and you've sent your final thoughts to those who deserve to hear from you. I really do wish you the best, know that you will be in our thoughts as well. your story hits close to home, so I especially wish you peace you deserve to rest easy man. i wish you had a better time here but at least you wouldn't have to worry about that soon enough. safe travels man, i truly hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[puffyclouds]

Goodbye. I'm sorry I failed.

You didn't. Please don't blame yourself. This is scary.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

I'm right here with you you're not alone ♡ if you change your mind and don't do it, it's okay. I know it's very scary, but I'll be by your side no matter what

 

[puffyclouds]

i really want to cry right now. I love you. I will never forget you. I hope it's painless, im so happy to have been able to talk to you even if it was just for a bit. Goodbye Yūnus. You are such a beautiful soul
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I'll come back as a ghost and hug you. This is so scary. I love you deeply.

 

[heliophobic]

You didn't. Please don't blame yourself. This is scary.

Because you're at the threshold of making the most important decision of your life. That power is terrifying. The reality of everything being over is TERRIFYING.

 

[whywere]

It isn't too late. I understand you made your preparations. You definitely have friends here, I promise. Ha! I'm even crying while writing this! Cats are the best. They really want to bring us calm. I lost my soulcat Paddy in 2022, but his ghost is definitely still in my apartment and plays with my new cat. You can start over. Maybe that's what you need. You made at least two friends out of this. Two friends that know all about depression and wanting to die.

You are a wonderful human being, just so ultra wonderful.

Also, I pray and hope that she reconsiders at least for now and really think it through. I am 100% pro-choice, it is just the fact of 1and done in my book.

Walter

 

[Guy Smiley]

My heart is beating so fast right now and my eyes are tearing up (I haven't cried in years). I just want you to be at peace, Yūnus. I can only imagine how scared you must be right now

 

[pepe_felipe]

ive never felt more invested for one's ending except for you man solely based on your story, i dont mean to deter what you feel is right to do. im glad you received some closure throught this thread, you bet your ass those who have wronged you will contemplate how they once acted. i hate to wish harm on such a pure soul, however your resolve is absolute and i am of the belief you are allowed to control your story.

 

[puffyclouds]

Because you're at the threshold of making the most important decision of your life. That power is terrifying. The reality of everything being over is TERRIFYING.

My heart is beating so fast. I'm scared of the police coming pounding at the door.
I love you all. I feel so lucky. My cat is on my blankets. I'll miss everyone. I'm terrified. I don't want to die terrified. I wish he never left me. I wish things didn't end this way. The world is a beautiful place.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

I'm sorry it's just really hard. I love you deeply too. I'm still here Yūnus. I'm going to cry. If you need more time to think it through please take it. Is there a way to unsend the message to him? I'm so sorry you feel so scared right now. There's many people here for you, no matter what your decision ends up being, you're in control of your story im sending you so many hugs

 

[heliophobic]

You are a wonderful human being, just so ultra wonderful.

Also, I pray and hope that she reconsiders at least for now and really think it through. I am 100% pro-choice, it is just the fact of 1and done in my book.

Walter

Thank you. Really. Thinking of someone young enough to be my daughter going out this way for this reason is seriously tearing me apart and I can't do anything about it. Everyone has their own unique experience in life, there are just so many things I can relate to and so many stories of survival I could share but can't. I'm pro-choice too, but young ctb breaks my heart. Ctb from heartbreak crushes me.

 

[heliophobic]

My heart is beating so fast. I'm scared of the police coming pounding at the door.
I love you all. I feel so lucky. My cat is on my blankets. I'll miss everyone. I'm terrified. I don't want to die terrified. I wish he never left me. I wish things didn't end this way. The world is a beautiful place.

IT ISN'T MIDNIGHT YET. STAY.

 

[puffyclouds]

I'm sorry it's just really hard. I love you deeply too. I'm still here Yūnus. I'm going to cry. If you need more time to think it through please take it. Is there a way to unsend the message to him? I'm so sorry you feel so scared right now. There's many people here for you, no matter what your decision ends up being, you're in control of your story im sending you so many hugs

I deleted the messages. It's for the best. It was through discord. I'm shaking.

I feel a bit calmer now. I think I'm going to calm down a bit before I CTB. I wish he never left me.

 

[heliophobic]

TEAM STAY

 

[puffyclouds]

I'm hugging my cat right now. I'm holding her. There's a shotgun lying on the floor next to me. This is scary.

 

[pepe_felipe]

i feel you man, im glad you found a solution and pray for your peace of mind

 

[kawaiiphantom]

I deleted the messages. It's for the best. It was through discord. I'm shaking.

I feel a bit calmer now. I think I'm going to calm down a bit before I CTB. I wish he never left me.

I'll have this thread open to be here for you I promise ♡ maybe put on some nice music to calm down? I saw that you were listening to spirited away music before, maybe put on the soundtrack? Also maybe cuddling with mocha will help?

 

[heliophobic]

I'm hugging my cat right now. I'm holding her. There's a shotgun lying on the floor next to me. This is scary.

The sound will terrify her

 

[pepe_felipe]

from experience i can definitely understand as to how scary it is having a fully loaded fire arm within arms reach. im sorry the suffering has to continue

 

[EternalShore]

I'm so sorry for all that has happened to you. :( I wish this world and society could've been kinder to you and yet it has not :( See ya~ Praying for you through whatever happens :)

 

[puffyclouds]

Okay. I can't believe this is the end. I didn't expect to be so scared. I've been calm all day. But now the time has come, I'm gripped with fear.

My heart is beating so fast right now and my eyes are tearing up (I haven't cried in years). I just want you to be at peace, Yūnus. I can only imagine how scared you must be right now

I wish I could hug you. I wish I could hug everyone.

 

[pepe_felipe]

it definitely takes a strong decision to ctb, the only solace i can imagine is that once the split second decision is made you no longer have to worry and you'd be freed. please accept my apology if this is out of turn.