I'm not hurt, I didn't pull the trigger. The safety was on the whole time. Mocha is curled up next to me, being her cuddly self. Everytime I put the muzzle in my mouth, I couldn't help but put it down and reread everyone's words.
In a strange irony, SaSu talked me out of it, at least in this moment. I don't know what will happen to me, after tonight. I don't know if I'll be able to pick up the pieces of my life or not. I have no idea what comes next. But I'm still around to go to sleep and see another sunrise. Let's all get some sleep. Goodnight, everyone. We live in a beautiful world.
I just woke up, and apologies I actually went to sleep, because good golly I would have definitely stayed by your side for the entire time. Even though I am partly pro-choice (probably because I looked at this forum too much lol), I feel immense relief after hearing this. I believe that even if you burned through all the options, there is still always a small glimmer of hope, whether that is achieved or not. You are such a sweet, sweet soul, and I'm glad you didn't pull the trigger. Funnily enough, assuming you're also EST, It's 2.24.24, which is a pretty cool number! And you lived to see this and that nice little number.
I haven't experienced what you have, but I still feel very sorry, and I do hope your life can go back on track. I know this is a scary, but beautiful world, too. I don't quite know how notifications work on this site, but when I do check the site, I would love to chat with you more!! Everyone here is so sweet. Also with Mocha, I bet she is ecstatic you stayed, because cats and other pets in general are like forever buds. Once you interact with them even for a little bit, they are immediately your friend and will remember you for a lifetime! Especially since you bonded with her. Maybe I will draw Mocha in a little bit! Even though it is obviously your choice, thank you for staying!!
Omg you're an artist too??
also I absolutely love your pfp avagado is one of my favorite artists ever <3 also thank you so much
usually I draw anime style stuff so drawing a cat was definitely out of my comfort zone. I feel that, burn out suckssss so hard. Lately I haven't felt much passion or interest in anything so art has been hard for me
Even though he wasn't the best person, im glad that you have some fond memories to look back on ♡ the apple slices gesture is very wholesome~ Yess all hail mocha!! We are all her fans lmao :> ! Awww party hats
mocha is old kitty :3
Yes! I'm also an artist haha. I loveee that artist so much. I also draw in an anime style too
though I am trying to expand on it by drawing other styles, such as things more cartoony. It is great to go out of your comfort zone, or you might end up like those 13-year-old Instagram artists I keep seeing. They only draw suggestive anime girls on ibisPaint, it's kind of scary!! I would definitely show you some of my art, but I'm not sure if SS allows links or whatnot, or if I could PM. Maybe I could draw your characters and you could draw mine? To get rid of the art block and burn out!
I was basically a guest on here for many months, so I feel like a noob tying to type these messages. Anyways—yeah, art is a curse and a blessing. I could have so many ideas, yet never get the chance to put them down, due to procrastination, or a hard day. BTW, I don't watch anime, but I do have a CrunchyRoll account, and don't really know what to watch. I would be down for suggestions!!
this is so damn hard. I hope you find peace and no longer feel pain. Thank you so much for talking to me, it meant the world, and I hope people here have been able to ease your exit ♡ I will miss you so much.
