faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
While I am still around, I would like to thank you for making this place kind and compassionate.
I have seen many things there: some were really sad, some were enjoyable and funny. Some died peacefully, some recovered.
This is the day I have been waiting for so long. It is kinda strange to immerse into the internet first and then the things suddenly get real.
Well, CTB for me is one of the issues which I now consider real despite the brain fog.
No matter how I feel about it, how I see it, it is real.
Less than 2 hours left till SN fills my stomach, however I have a very controversial feeling.
I am not scared of it, but my body is. That's like my body and consciousness are living their own lives.
At this point I am not too overwhelmed with fear of failure, I somehow do not bother where the bus will take me.
Measured my heartbeat 10 minutes ago and it was 97 bpm, well, not too much for such an event, however, I can feel this surge of instinctive energy which batters me right now.
After this almost immediately took 80 mg propranolol, will see how it goes.
I wish everything is fine with all and each of you no matter what will be your final decision!
I have seen many things there: some were really sad, some were enjoyable and funny. Some died peacefully, some recovered.
This is the day I have been waiting for so long. It is kinda strange to immerse into the internet first and then the things suddenly get real.
Well, CTB for me is one of the issues which I now consider real despite the brain fog.
No matter how I feel about it, how I see it, it is real.
Less than 2 hours left till SN fills my stomach, however I have a very controversial feeling.
I am not scared of it, but my body is. That's like my body and consciousness are living their own lives.
At this point I am not too overwhelmed with fear of failure, I somehow do not bother where the bus will take me.
Measured my heartbeat 10 minutes ago and it was 97 bpm, well, not too much for such an event, however, I can feel this surge of instinctive energy which batters me right now.
After this almost immediately took 80 mg propranolol, will see how it goes.
I wish everything is fine with all and each of you no matter what will be your final decision!