asphyxiangel
bpd baby
- Aug 6, 2023
- 28
does anyone else have an issue with overthinking the "afterlife" that it seems like that's the only thing holding you back from actually doing it?
what happens after? is there even such thing as an afterlife? is heaven or hell real? will i get to "look down" on my loved ones and see how they're dealing with the loss of me? will i be sentient and able to feel regret for my decision? or will i just simply not exist anymore?
how long will it take for me to be dead after i pull the trigger? will i feel anything at all? what if i fail? what happens with my body? my belongings?
i wish there was a way that these things were known. especially about what happens to your "spirit" when you die.
i'm not scared to die. i'm just scared of what comes after.
what happens after? is there even such thing as an afterlife? is heaven or hell real? will i get to "look down" on my loved ones and see how they're dealing with the loss of me? will i be sentient and able to feel regret for my decision? or will i just simply not exist anymore?
how long will it take for me to be dead after i pull the trigger? will i feel anything at all? what if i fail? what happens with my body? my belongings?
i wish there was a way that these things were known. especially about what happens to your "spirit" when you die.
i'm not scared to die. i'm just scared of what comes after.