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AsTheWorldCaves
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- Mar 17, 2024
- 15
I set a date to ctb over a year out since I have some projects I want to see to fruition, and every so often I'll think to myself, "you know, life isn't so bad. There's some cool stuff scheduled for after X day, maybe I could stick around. I'm just gonna die anyway, why rush things?" but then I will experience within 24 hours an acute reminder of why I'm doing this, somehow more painful and more intense than any preceding it. Even just contemplating pushing the date back by a couple months has the same result. If I were a more paranoid person I'd think I was living in a Truman Show-esque simulation. ![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
Anyway, I'm nearing the one year anniversary of when I decided to ctb, and there's less than six months to go. I can at least be happy about that.![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)
![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)
![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)
![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
![Upside-down face :upside_down: 🙃](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f643.png)
Anyway, I'm nearing the one year anniversary of when I decided to ctb, and there's less than six months to go. I can at least be happy about that.
![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)
![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)
![Partying face :partying_face: 🥳](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f973.png)