I'm really happy to see you back around! Although it's not nice to know that you haven't been doing very well. I hope that life will go easier on you. We're here if you ever need to vent or get anything off your chest, and I'm wishing you all of the luck with uni and getting into the right program. Thank you for checking in with us!
You should take your time catching up with things, I think that we ended up talking about a lot of things these past few weeks so I know that it might be a lot to read.
If therapy helped at all, I'm sorry that you're unable to go right now. Eight months is a long time, too. I hope that things get better financially soon so that you can continue seeing your therapist. Please have my condolences for the passing of your dad as well, I know that beyond the financial issues that may arise, the loss of a parent is one of the hardest things a person can go through.
Did your parents ever come around to understanding your struggles? It's really isolating when they dismiss the things that we may have went through and how we feel about them, I went through that too but my parents unfortunately never came around. Or at least, not yet.
I'm happy it helped at all! I definitely have lots of virtual hugs to give out.
I'm sorry to hear that you had a rough weekend. But it's really great that you found the positive in it all. I don't know why but watching (some) movies with a parent is the best way to watch them when you have a decent relationship with them.
The movie you recommended sounds like something both of my parents could enjoy, which is very rare, so I'm actually going to put it on a list. Thank you for sharing. I'm debating going home for the holidays and that could be something for us to do if I go!
I know this feeling, lol, I trigger myself at least once a month by my lack of discipline. I constantly have to remind myself that objectively I'm doing okay in life, but most of the time, I'm really sad about how much further I could have been if I could have just kept on track, did what I needed to do. So, I definitely get it, but the good news is that discipline is a skill that can be worked on and it's never too late to start!
Are there a lot of things that you've put off? It might be overwhelming, and tempting to just get them all done in a short amount of time so that your life could be together, but maybe you could stick to doing/starting one thing a week? Progress may be slow that way but you could reward yourself every time, and then hopefully create a new cycle of fulfillment instead of frustration. I think that may eventually lead to more consistency, too.
It's the start of a new week, and I hope that it will be a better one for you than this weekend was!
So are you! Thank you especially for fighting for as long as you have and for the things you've done for this community.
I will meet you all in the Discord, for some reason just joining those still gives me anxiety. I'm trying to swallow it and just click "yes" on the prompt when I click to join, I have no idea why things like this scare me so much.
It's okay if you lurk! You're still one of us, and still very much welcome around. Thank you for giving us an update on your day, and I hope that we'll get to hear some more from you even if the updates don't come very often.
I'm very proud of you for setting a goal and meeting it today. Thank you for taking care of yourself, because I know first hand that doing that can be hard when we've fallen so far into our pits. Will this be your first appointment with a new therapist? Either way, I hope that things go well for you! People say that when we perceive ourselves to look better, we feel better, and do better. I definitely believe that's true for me and most people I know, so I hope that you also feel a little bit relieved, too. Your update definitely wasn't pathetic! I hope that this week is kind to you, too.