NSFW I ended my life and got resuscitated twice..

[vaguebluur]

Back in November last year I finally decided to end it all with a overkill ctb cocktail, I used GBL (liquid date rape) Xanax and alcohol. I can confirm the death was extremely peaceful and I had a double cardiac arrest and flatlined the chance of surviving that is less than 0.1% I was defibrillated several times and was d.o.a at hospital. 60 ml of GBL was drank with a large cup of pink gin, Xanax and domperidone had already been taken, last memory is laughing with a spliff in my mouth then waking up in resus 12 hours later. Currently homeless having a complete breakdown waiting till I get paid to do the same again...sorry for venting

 

[orca87]

Back in November last year I finally decided to end it all with a overkill ctb cocktail, I used GBL (liquid date rape) Xanax and alcohol. I can confirm the death was extremely peaceful and I had a double cardiac arrest and flatlined the chance of surviving that is less than 0.1% I was defibrillated several times and was d.o.a at hospital. 60 ml of GBL was drank with a large cup of pink gin, Xanax and domperidone had already been taken, last memory is laughing with a spliff in my mouth then waking up in resus 12 hours later. Currently homeless having a complete breakdown waiting till I get paid to do the same again...sorry for venting

And I am complaining about how disappointed I am waking up.

That sounds miserable. Sorry that this has happened to you!

 

[vaguebluur]

And I am complaining about how disappointed I am waking up.

That sounds miserable. Sorry that this has happened to you!

Thanks bro Im in hell right now

 

[orca87]

Can imagine! feel free to reach out in my PMs if you want to talk

Edit: sorry just noticed you have a new account and can't. Get some posts here and you can tomorrow

 

[TimetoGo!]

Back in November last year I finally decided to end it all with a overkill ctb cocktail, I used GBL (liquid date rape) Xanax and alcohol. I can confirm the death was extremely peaceful and I had a double cardiac arrest and flatlined the chance of surviving that is less than 0.1% I was defibrillated several times and was d.o.a at hospital. 60 ml of GBL was drank with a large cup of pink gin, Xanax and domperidone had already been taken, last memory is laughing with a spliff in my mouth then waking up in resus 12 hours later. Currently homeless having a complete breakdown waiting till I get paid to do the same again...sorry for venting

that is brutal man.........its actually disgusting that you go that far and yet they still dont let you keave this world.

where and how did you get all those drugs? jealous

 

[vaguebluur]

that is brutal man.........its actually disgusting that you go that far and yet they still dont let you keave this world.

where and how did you get all those drugs? jealous

I have chronic health issues as well I'm puking up from being in agony all the time. GBL is actually legal and Xanax can be got easily from tor so I hear.
I'm living in a fucking tent with severe health issues physical and mental

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

That's just awful they couldn't let go of you, you have reached peace from your agonizing situation but it got reaped from you

 

[TimetoGo!]

I have chronic health issues as well I'm puking up from being in agony all the time. GBL is actually legal and Xanax can be got easily from tor so I hear.
I'm living in a fucking tent with severe health issues physical and mental
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thats awful man, you should'nt be in that position. Fair play to you for battling this far. wish we could all help you out

 

[vaguebluur]

thats awful man, you should'nt be in that position. Fair play to you for battling this far. wish we could all help you out

Just in straight survival mode rn, really want to hang myself but my body won't let me after I almost died last time I did it like literally I've stood with the noose round my neck shaking n couldn't do it. Thanks for Ur kind words

 

[6MillionWaystoDie]

Thanks bro Im in hell right now

Why not check out the thread by @Proper Overdoser this method failed once and maybe you need something more foolproof. Your tolerance may have gone up since.

 

[vaguebluur]

Why not check out the thread by @Proper Overdoser this method failed once and maybe you need something more foolproof. Your tolerance may have gone up since.

I got it covered Ty. I only survived due to a random welfare check and they were trained in CPR which is all a bit spooky. This time Xanax, bromazolam 140ml of GBL and more are on the cards I have no current tolerance to GBL and can also source phenobarbital so when I get paid 1100 in a month I'm going all in x

 

[hungry_ghost]

Who found you/called 911?

I feel like whoever that was should be responsible/help out.

Like they saved you just for you to be in a shitty situation?

I'm sorry, man.

 

[vaguebluur]

Who found you/called 911?

I feel like whoever that was should be responsible/help out.

Like they saved you just for you to be in a shitty situation?

I'm sorry, man.

My ex landlord who destroyed all my property after it happened

 

[orca87]

My ex landlord who destroyed all my property after it happened

What a nightmare. And these are the people getting praised for "saving" your life.

If you get paid you should consider not another attempt but sending them flowers and be more grateful for the gift of life!

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a horrible experience, those who want to be gone should just be able to die in peace and other people shouldn't have any right to interfere. It's extremely cruel to prolong someone's suffering against their wishes.

 

[ctb7767]

sounds like a nice way to go tbh

 

[vaguebluur]

sounds like a nice way to go tbh

It was like falling into a peaceful sleep no discomfort whatsoever

 

[Sparx]

It's strange how many times people randomly decide to check in on someone when they're in the middle of an attempt & 'save' them.

That's why I'm going to attempt in an isolated forest. No one will even notice I'm missing for at least two days by which time I should be very dead.

 

[ctb7767]

I'm trying to search the site to find any reports of GHB CTB but am not finding anything..anybody got any links?

 

[vaguebluur]

I'm trying to search the site to find any reports of GHB CTB but am not finding anything..anybody got any links?

GBL is a lot stronger

 

[ctb7767]

ok, or GBL then

 

[vaguebluur]

ok, or GBL then

I have seen a few about but not as many as you would expect given the insanely low lethal dose, I'm talking 10 ml would kill any normal person

 

[ctb7767]

do you mind linking them

 

[qwerty1969]

Maybe this is of interest

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2789020/

 

[vaguebluur]

Maybe this is of interest

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2789020/

There's actually a lot of GBL overdoses but they all go unreported because ghb and GBL naturally occur in the body and normal testing doesn't test for G it can be tested for but leaves the body extremely quickly. To a coroner it would look like a stroke and heart attack not GBL overdose unless something made them inclined to do rapid specialist testing.

 

[Pink Fluffy Cat]

What a nightmare. And these are the people getting praised for "saving" your life.

If you get paid you should consider not another attempt but sending them flowers and be more grateful for the gift of life!

What else would you expect from a "pro lifer" lol, it's the same reason why you rarely, if ever, see any anti abortionist actually does anything substantial for parents and childrens who shouldn't be born in the first place.
For OP, have you ever thought of making the landlord pay for taking away your well deserved peace and treating you like shit afterwards? I won't give any advice explicitly since it's against the rule but you should be able to catch him by surprise without too much problem.

 

[vaguebluur]

Im sorry for you.. I know a way to fix the doctors resuscitating thing if i were found. But i wont state it here, unless you pm, or you just figure it out on your own.

DNR?

What else would you expect from a "pro lifer" lol, it's the same reason why you rarely, if ever, see any anti abortionist actually does anything substantial for parents and childrens who shouldn't be born in the first place.
For OP, have you ever thought of making the landlord pay for taking away your well deserved peace and treating you like shit afterwards? I won't give any advice explicitly since it's against the rule but you should be able to catch him by surprise without too much problem.

I hear that but I'll just go back to jail and I want to ctb the same way again cos it's so peaceful, I tried hanging myself again but my body won't let me anymore x

DNR?

I hear that but I'll just go back to jail and I want to ctb the same way again cos it's so peaceful, I tried hanging myself again but my body won't let me anymore x

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[vaguebluur]

Yes, DNR. Its not just for people who dont want to live, theres a lot of reasons why people choose DNR.

Would my chronic pain count?

 

[vaguebluur]

Im sorry for your chronic pain and everything you have to go through from all that. I hope you dont have to choose death.
I dont know how it works in your country but this is the info in my country:

https://www.rightathome.com.au/images/pdfs/Do_Not_Resuscitate_-_Who_Decides.pdf

Thanks bro

 

[6MillionWaystoDie]

Yes, DNR. Its not just for people who dont want to live, theres a lot of reasons why people choose DNR.

It is widely known that many doctors will ignore DNR if they suspect suicide is the cause; for the same reason many are put in involuntary holds. They all have the savior complex. At least that's how it is in North America.