I dont want to be but i have no guts

[downndone2]

Again, I'm just so broken! I threw my life away several years ago. I was living the dream until I ruined my relationship of 10 yrs, spent 6 figures, lost a business, etc, etc, etc. Now I merely exist.
I work to pay debt and bills. If I'm not working, I'm laying around in misery wishing I didn't exist. The thoughts that go thru my mind are dark and sometimes unthinkable. I don't deserve oxygen or space but I have no guts.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Not exactly the same but I can relate to it in some ways! What's your method, any actual / urgent plans? Such a life sucks and is so tiring. I hope you can find peace the one or the other way!

 

[downndone2]

Not exactly the same but I can relate to it in some ways! What's your method, any actual / urgent plans? Such a life sucks and is so tiring. I hope you can find peace the one or the other way!

N or fentanyl would be my preferred but hard to access. SN possibility. Have handguns. Also, have tons of insulin. I just don't think I can do it

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really dreadful being trapped in that situation but anyway best wishes, I find it so cruel how methods like Nembutal aren't available, I believe we deserve the option of permanently escaping from all the suffering in peace.