Idk. I previously thought the best way to ctb (for me) would have to be violent and quick. I was leaning towards hanging from a height with nothing to grab hold of, and jumping down with the knot infront (by my adams apple) as opposed to kicking a chair out from underneath or something, to hopefully break my neck. That way if SI kicks in it won't do anything. But I've been there before with the rope around my neck and it kicked in hard anyways and I climbed down. I think I was close at that time. Everything was wet from rain and I could've slipped on my way down. I think I was mostly testing out my method so that when the time does come that I'm sure I'm ready and want to do it, I knew I could go there and knew I could make the climb. But maybe if I were to follow through with it I should try to be empty minded and just do it without much thought.
I've also tested out using excercise bands. Idk I think that it's too slow of a method because once again, SI kicked in when it was tight and I began to feel hazy. So my new idea is to force myself to faint with it around my neck. But I still like the idea of jumping from the height because that way it wouldn't be family who finds me, it would be some poor soul going for a walk in the woods.
