K
Kavka
Student
- Jun 11, 2024
- 139
Here is my analysis on how suicidal I am right now.
- I've been passively suicidal throughout (most of) my life and I'm actively suicidal for months now. + 60%
- I'm actively planning for it and I have the means. + 20% (80%)
- I'm not really interested in preventing CTB as an end in itself and trying to live at all cost. + 10% (90%)
- The future doesn't play a major role anymore in my decisions. I often wonder if I'd still be there when thinking about the (near) future. + 20% (110%)
- I think resignation, which slowly changes to acceptance, best describes my average mood these days. + 10% (120%)
- I'm don't think that I and (my) life is ever going to fundamentally change (for the better). + 30% (150%)
- I'm not in a hurry though and I don't have a specific date set. - 20% (130%)
- Small changes and improvements may statistically still be possible and I'm still open to try new things if they have a reasonable expected ROI. - 10% (120%)
- I'm still curious, interested in things and able to enjoy (some) things in life. It's getting harder though, as my appetite for life has dwindled. - 15% (105%)
- I have never been so suicidal, but I've definitely felt (much) worse in the past. I can't hold on like this forever, but I can hold on a little longer. - 20% (85%)
- I love people in my life and I'm pretty sure they love me too. I'm not sure if my life is bad enough right now to justify the negative impact it will have on them. - 30% (55%).
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