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juna

Exhausted...
Mar 4, 2024
189
I quit my first job at 22 years when I decided to kill myself. I wanted to save my friends the pain and quit and go back home far away from my friends.

How old were you when you realized that you would probably ctb in a few years down the line?
 
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Buffy

Buffy

24/7 cold
Mar 17, 2024
109
When I was 13-14 years old I didn't want to live past 18, but here I am, still alive and kicking.

How old were you when you had your first near-death experience?
 
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elvvsie

elvvsie

23F
Jul 18, 2024
13
When I was 13-14 years old I didn't want to live past 18, but here I am, still alive and kicking.

How old were you when you had your first near-death experience?
12 trying to ctb. Just realised I've lived half of my life wanting to end it :///

What's the one film you could watch over and over again?
 
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songsongsong

songsongsong

Member
May 13, 2024
6
I was nine.

How old were you when you first found out about this site?
 
ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,146
I was 13.

How old were you when you dealt with your first death of a family member?
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
14

How old were you when you first realized life isn't worth the effort?
 
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Eternal Eyes

Eternal Eyes

Student
Dec 3, 2023
124
I think by around 11 I realised that unless a biblical miracle occurred my life would absolutely suck.

How old were you when you first went on the Internet and actively posted somewhere? (like a forum or chatroom).
 
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TakeMeToHeaven

TakeMeToHeaven

Member
Jul 25, 2024
96
I was around 10 when I first posted on a MMO forum

How old were you when you first played a video game?
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,317
.
I was around 10 when I first posted on a MMO forum

How old were you when you first played a video game?
If pc games counts then somewhere around 5-6, I'd borrow my mom's pc and play on those online video game sites.

How old were you when you first realized that life is cruel and not worth living?
 
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Bxtra

Bxtra

Member
Jul 27, 2024
9
.

If pc games counts then somewhere around 5-6, I'd borrow my mom's pc and play on those online video game sites.

How old were you when you first realized that life is cruel and not worth living?
Nine.

What is your favourite video game?
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
659
All GTA games.

What's the first song you "fell in love with"?
 
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hawkshorizon

hawkshorizon

Member
Aug 23, 2023
93
This question brought back some very nice memories. Going back into the distant past, I fell earnestly in love for the first time with Crowded House's "Don't Dream It's Over."
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
659
This question brought back some very nice memories. Going back into the distant past, I fell earnestly in love for the first time with Crowded House's "Don't Dream It's Over."

Could you post a question, so we can continue the game?
 
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hawkshorizon

hawkshorizon

Member
Aug 23, 2023
93
How old were you when you became self aware?
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,317
13 I think, maybe older. I was extremely naive as a kid.

How old were you when you experienced your first trauma?
 
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PinballWizard39

PinballWizard39

Experienced
May 3, 2024
219
I don't even know, probably about 4 years old when I accidentally made my baby sister fall into a bath of boiling water.

How old were you when you had your first crush?
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,317
I think around 11-12, I had a crush on a boy two classes bellow me.

When was the last time you didn't feel like you were trapped in an endless darkness?
I think around 11-12, I had a crush on a boy two classes bellow me.

When was the last time you didn't feel like you were trapped in an endless darkness?
Sorry I meant how old were you...
 
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PinballWizard39

PinballWizard39

Experienced
May 3, 2024
219
Below 13? idk.. it's been so long.

How long has it been since you posted a letter?
 
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nobob

Member
Aug 9, 2024
28
One year ago.

When was the last time you talked for more than one hour on the phone?
 
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hawkshorizon

hawkshorizon

Member
Aug 23, 2023
93
I'm not sure I've ever spoken for an hour on a call.

When was the last time you felt butterflies giving someone a kiss?
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,317
Never. Have yet to have my first actual kiss.

When is the last time you felt that your trauma is too difficult to live with?
 
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antihydra

antihydra

nomad
Aug 31, 2024
13
16!

how old were you when you first heard an ABBA song?
 
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indefinitesleep

indefinitesleep

It is what it is
Jun 29, 2024
134
11 I think watching that mama mia film

how old were you the last time you shat your pants?
 
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sick.faery

sick.faery

Mar 18, 2021
288
16. tried unaliving with an overdose...

how old were you when you were allowed to stay at home alone?
 
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Professor K

Professor K

your eyes vacant and stained
Feb 9, 2023
230
15

how old were you when you attempted CTB for the first time?
 
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2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,081
21
How old were you when you first thought you might be "different" from most people?
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

Mage
Jul 25, 2024
505
13

how old were you when you first drank a beer?
 
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Just_Another_Person

Just_Another_Person

Experienced
Sep 16, 2024
203
7-8 if it counts a little of beer diluted in A LOT of soda lol

If not, I think 10-12. Either way I always hated beer, idk how people can like it lol
 

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