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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
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I was 18 when I first drank beer.

How old were you when you learned about SanctionedSuicide?
 
(in)sane

(in)sane

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself"
Jun 9, 2024
60
How old were you when you learned about SanctionedSuicide?
16, if I remember correctly. I didn't join the forum until a lot later since privacy was not acceptable back home.

How old were you when you first hated someone?
 
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a-way-out

The path is coming to an end
Aug 30, 2022
23
If I'm being honest probably eight when my sibling was born. I was left alone to be used by someone who was supposed to protect me.

How old were you when yo said your first lie?
 
hawkshorizon

hawkshorizon

Member
Aug 23, 2023
93
Hmmm … I started trying to cover my insecurity pretty early on, so maybe at four or five?

How old were you when you had your first real break up with someone you really cared about?
 
lxci

lxci

Life lover
Sep 9, 2024
34
15. Looking back i was super overdramatic, but hey so was she lmao.

How old were you when you first started to really process your own mortality?
 
indefinitesleep

indefinitesleep

It is what it is
Jun 29, 2024
134
7-8 I remember fearing death and the void that sits on the other side

How old were you when you started to function independently?
 
BasePl27

BasePl27

Member
Oct 23, 2023
26
Pretty late, 22

How old were you when you cooked something that tasted delicious and were proud of?
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,205
14, I made a fruit desert.

How old were you when you thought about consequences?

Walter
 
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no_choice

Member
Nov 6, 2024
12
7 years old after I stole a candybar

How old were you when you learned to ride a bike?
 
Yurin

Yurin

Member
Nov 6, 2024
24
I've never ridden a bike
How old were you when you saw the ocean
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,205
31 years old.

How old were you when you paid payroll or regular taxes to a government?

Walter
 
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emptyh

Member
Sep 30, 2024
7
17 years old.

How old were you when you first voted?
 
Hojag

Hojag

But only for you.
Jan 11, 2025
80
16.

How old were you when music was introduced to you/when you discovered music?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,274
In a big way at least- around 9 or 10. Obviously, I'd heard it before! But, I began to take an interest then.

How old were you when you learned to swim?
 
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lilichka

lilichka

Superfluous Man
Jan 17, 2025
29
15? but i dont really know how to swim lol

how old were you when you first got into real trouble?
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

No existence, no problem
Jul 1, 2024
152
20, though there has never been legal or interpersonal trouble. Not quite sure what is meant by real trouble.

How old were you when you revealed a secret about you?
 
deleteduser853695

deleteduser853695

I swear I tried my best
Feb 26, 2024
128
Just happened yesterday. I'm 23. Finally told my parents that I spent half my childhood feeling suicidal, and we've been fighting nonstop ever since. I've never told anyone that before, IRL.

How old were you when you got into a car crash for the first time?
 
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milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
70
I think I was 3? Something like that.

How old were you when you played in the snow for the first time?
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

No existence, no problem
Jul 1, 2024
152
15

How old were you when you when you were strongly disappointed in someone close to you?
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,163
I was so young I don't remember. I've ALWAYS been disappointed my mother didn't love me. The only thing I did wrong was being born -- and that was not my fault, no matter how many times she blamed me. Sigh. That was a tough one. Haven't thought about just how much she hurt me in a long time.


When is the last time you laid in the green grass and watched the clouds in the sky??
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,205
About 6 weeks ago when I was in Hawai'i.

When was the last time that you watched a beautiful sunset?

Walter
 
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One day too late

One day too late

Idle mind fills with uneasy thoughts.
Aug 14, 2020
4,245
15

How old were you when you when you were strongly disappointed in someone close to you?

22

How old were you when you first ordered take out?
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,163
About 6 weeks ago when I was in Hawai'i.

When was the last time that you watched a beautiful sunset?

Walter
This evening, as a matter if fact. With my bestest best buddy, my nine-year-old neighbor. She is absolutely adorable and her favorite thing in the world is "being nice to people". I am gonna be crushed when she realizes how cruel this world will be but until then I will pretend with her that the world is a wonderful place, full of wonderful people, all who want to be her friend and be nice to people. 🥰 God, I couldn't love this kid more if she were my own. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

When's the last time you got in the middle of the bed, with all the covers and slept 'til noon??
 
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One day too late

One day too late

Idle mind fills with uneasy thoughts.
Aug 14, 2020
4,245
This evening, as a matter if fact. With my bestest best buddy, my nine-year-old neighbor. She is absolutely adorable and her favorite thing in the world is "being nice to people". I am gonna be crushed when she realizes how cruel this world will be but until then I will pretend with her that the world is a wonderful place, full of wonderful people, all who want to be her friend and be nice to people. 🥰 God, I couldn't love this kid more if she were my own. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

When's the last time you got in the middle of the bed, with all the covers and slept 'til noon??
This is not the game 'When was the last time.' this is the game 'How old were you?'
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,504
22

How old were you when you first ordered take out?
18 actually. Yes I very sheltered and this happened cus I sneaked out of my house with my partner at the time to go to Mac Donald.

how old were you when you played a video game?
 
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One day too late

One day too late

Idle mind fills with uneasy thoughts.
Aug 14, 2020
4,245
6-7ish 🤷‍♂️

How old were you when you first cheated on a test?
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

No existence, no problem
Jul 1, 2024
152
Never done it

How old were you when you walked away from someone talking to you?
 
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One day too late

One day too late

Idle mind fills with uneasy thoughts.
Aug 14, 2020
4,245
20 something

How old were you when you started playing this game?
 
Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,504
19, just only did my first post on here yesterday

How old were you when you started to think you had a mental illness?
 
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