I think i'm considered "well off." Upper middle or lower upper - who cares? My family has money and, when I'm not unemployed, I make good money. I had nannies as a child and had a good life growing up, materialistically.
But I was abused by a family member as a young child and no one did anything about it after I told. I grew up a miserable teenager (everyone just thought I was spoiled and whiny) and developed eating disorders at 10. When I went into hospital for three months, no one talked about it. It was the 80s and reputation was everything. No one asked about abuse in all of the therapy I went through so eating or not eating was always the issue. I even had one pdoc say to us in a family therapy session, "it seems that shopping brings you together and you don't fight as much. You should shop more."
Bravo, doc!
Right now I could phone my family, tell them how low I am and they would bail me out and pay for therapy or anything else. But that's not fair to them. I would be using them and I like that they're in a place where they don't think twice about how I'm doing - they think everything's great.
I'm waiting for SN from eastern europe (not very patiently haha). I was shocked how cheap it it, relatively speaking, and the more I read on here the more I know that I want to go. Money means nothing leading up to my ctb. My family will have to deal with my money and pay for a funeral and burial. I hope there's enough. Money meant I never wanted for anything, and I've always been grateful for that. I know that most people in the world don't live like I did. I'm not talking limos and maids; I've lived in different countries and saw how poor people are. I had a bed, safety, and never went hungry (I was able to waste food in the eating disorders). Mentally and emotionally, I was in trouble and no one knew.
None of it will be a part of my ctb.
I hope this isn't too far off topic...!