Discussion how many are struggling with addiction?

[asphyxiangel]

how many users of this site are struggling with an addiction of some sort? whats your story?
do you feel like your vice has lead you to be more suicidal or do you see it as a way to cope with the pain and put off your plans to ctb for a bit?


i never thought it could be me . "ill just try it once" famous last words lmfao. im in the beginning stages of a coke addiction, which i probably picked up FROM being suicidal so i dont feel as though it helps me but i dont know if it exactly makes me feel worse either. i kind of just see it as having my bit of fun before going through with my plan and enjoying the last few days/weeks of the life that i want to live before i inevitably end it all. i dont want to be miserable leading up to my death but i guess thats a bit controversial considering the circumstances. does anybody even understand or can relate?

 

[smvrtsa]

yeah, idk i think that's a very valid sentiment and i can relate. like if i stick around for a while it'll just be to keep making money to fuel my addiction and keep numbing myself and if i die from it well good because death was the goal all along. and if i can stick around and keep doing drugs and feeling good then that's okay too. as long as i don't have to be sober and raw dog life i think i can tough it out until however much longer before my body gives out. but maybe im optimistic about how unhealthy i am, ha.

 

[333s]

can relate too although its just nic not drugs
i quitted somewhere in jan and started again not long ago. feels like i started to live not just existing and rotting in bed in my free time. it also helps to socialize somehow =)
i still bit afraid that its a path to nowhere bc addictions tend to worsen eventually but ill prefer to appreciate the moment and leave that for future me (if theyre exist lol)

i also developed a theory that one just cannot be not addicted to something in their life (meaning some sort of things considered "bad" whatever its substances or adrenaline rush from toxic relationships) and that's perfectly normal
it doesnt shows anything significant except that life as a conscious being is fuck

somewhere in this documentary they show a man just smocking in his large ass perfect house with his pretty wife and children and i can feel that
spread of valium addiction in the 60s and the dead end of american dream are also interesting topics to explore (and to discuss with someone who promotes "healthy" everything)

 

[manta]

As a ND person I am hardcore dependent on adderall. I'm not abusing it so maybe I'm not entirely addicted. But it's a substance that I quite literally can't function without.

During ADHD medication shortages I've come close to taking my life because of this. Overall I just hate my entire livelihood being determined by my countries current supply of stimulants.

 

[sserafim]

I'm struggling with Internet addiction. I spend my whole day online on this site. I used to be addicted to video games, but my mom took my console so I can't play them anymore :( I also have a caffeine addiction but it's not harmful per se

As a ND person I am hardcore dependent on adderall. I'm not abusing it so maybe I'm not entirely addicted. But it's a substance that I quite literally can't function without.

During ADHD medication shortages I've come close to taking my life because of this. Overall I just hate my entire livelihood being determined by my countries current supply of stimulants.

I'm also ND. I should probably take my Adderall because I'm not functional right now lol

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

I'm addicted to alcohol, but I wouldn't say that I'm struggling with it. I'd say that it's by far my biggest comfort in life, and I'd probably have killed myself by now if not for the pleasure it gives me.

 

[LaughingGoat]

My situation may not fit what you're looking for, but I can say having been sober for a while that when I was using it made my mental health much worse long term. I feel that once you move past the "honeymoon/early stage" of addiction, it just becomes another major disorder you have to deal with and it ends up consuming every part of your life. I respect someone's right to live however you see fit, but I would advise against it if you plan to live any life at all and aren't set on ctbing very soon.

 

[manta]

I'm also ND. I should probably take my Adderall because I'm not functional right now lol

Take yo meds!

 

[Jorms_McGander]

Dude if it can release dopamine, my behaviour surrounding it can be considered at best severely compulsive and at worst desperately addictive.

My "worst" addiction is alcohol, in that that's the one which has caused the most direct physical, emotional, and financial harm.

Substance abuse is more opportunistic beyond that point. Dealers are hard for a socially anxious and isolated person, but everyone's a dealer to a drunk on the street

Food, pornography, sleep, exercise, everything about life that generally doesn't ruin peoples' lives has caused me to exhibit bizarre behaviour, or I have chosen to allow the behaviour--at this point I'm lost somewhere beneath a big pile of chickens and eggs and no idea which was first. Even self restriction gets a turn in my wild pursuit of unbridled hedonism. I hate myself so fucking bad for this shit lol and that's why it's an addiction or compulsion rather than a hobby

 

[whywere]

I am addicted to nothing. I come from the 1970's where and friend back then, he is long gone, used to have a lot of LSD "postage stamps", they look like postage stamps and on the back instead of glue it was LSD.

After seeing what that chemical did to him, I told myself no to any drug, that is why I have never tried any form of a street drug.

I am on Lyrica, Hydromorphone and Butrans for pain, but I am VERY closely monitored.

Walter

 

[F@#$]

I've embraced my addictions. They're my friends now.

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

Functioning caffeine addiction, but that's true of most people these days (how many of you can function without your morning coffee?). Discovered porn and masturbation at a pretty young age, and have been addicted to it ever since; general internet addiction too. Also now in the throes of a weed addiction; the only thing keeping me out of alcoholism is that I'm even more miserable when drunk, but even that reasoning is starting to fade.

It's funny being part of the last generation to experience the DARE program. I didn't think I'd end up here, but here we are anyway.

 

[numbed one]

Yup ... I am

 

[thenamingofcats]

As a ND person I am hardcore dependent on adderall. I'm not abusing it so maybe I'm not entirely addicted. But it's a substance that I quite literally can't function without.

During ADHD medication shortages I've come close to taking my life because of this. Overall I just hate my entire livelihood being determined by my countries current supply of stimulants.

I think the shortage is intentional. I've been on it for a long time due to extreme executive dysfunction and my psychiatrist thinks it's intentional too. It's like with benzos and opioids. People that desperately need those drugs can't get them now.