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How did you first hear about and/or find your way to this site?

  • Searching for methods

    Votes: 799 35.4%
  • The New York Times

    Votes: 213 9.4%
  • BBC - up to and including Oct 2023 article & podcast

    Votes: 70 3.1%
  • Tantacul's Youtube video

    Votes: 969 43.0%
  • A Youtube video other than Tantacrul's

    Votes: 66 2.9%
  • Wikipedia

    Votes: 79 3.5%
  • Recommended by a friend

    Votes: 76 3.4%
  • Through other forums or social media e.g Discord /Reddit/TikTok (feel free to comment)

    Votes: 306 13.6%
  • Other news outlets or miscellaneous sources - please leave a comment

    Votes: 95 4.2%
  • Fix the 26 or Stop Sanctioned Suicide

    Votes: 14 0.6%

  • Total voters
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DreamyLisa

DreamyLisa

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Jun 30, 2023
20
First heard about it on reddit a loooong time ago and then eventually saw a youtube video which made me remember this site again
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Mage
May 29, 2023
552
Woah! Nearly 500 people came here from Tantacrul's video and that's just those who've voted. It's absolutely wild the amount of people he's brought here and who are being helped by finding safe methods and friends. I wonder if he regrets it 😂
He doesn't have the intellectual honesty to regret it .
 
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Heartaches

Heartaches

Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
May 6, 2021
236
Kiwifarms. I had a nasty obsession to lurk the farms regularly (don't recommend it, I stopped doing it a while ago) and someone jokingly linked this site on a thread asking "where would we go if the farms went down?" or something like that. I hadn't heard anything about SS before even though I'd been looking for sites about suicide/suicide methods, I thought I'd never had a chance. The only valuable thing I found there, really.​
 
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aGoodDayToDie

Arcanist
Jun 30, 2023
461
I found it a long time ago, looking for suicide forums. It seems search engine results have changed, it's almost impossible to find this place now.
 
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RedSpiderLily

RedSpiderLily

Angst Fanatic
Jun 30, 2023
10
Was looking for methods while experiencing a horrible bout of suicidal thoughts last year or so and Google kept doing that BS it does where it just gives you help hotlines instead of anything relevant to your search, and so I delved a bit deeper until I came across some indie article talking about a News Station that got put on blast for mentioning this site by name (they didn't want people coming here), but the article unfortunately didn't mention what this place was called, instead referring to it as a "site that encourages suicide."

It had caught my attention. There was an entire site full of people who didn't just go, "Don't think the way you do. Don't say stuff like that about yourself." I needed in. Over the course of hours and hours of searching —having to be super selective of my choice of words, because if I wasn't google would, as I mentioned before, just give me hotline numbers — a link to this site popped up.

Spent hours more just scrolling through threads once I got here, looking for methods of CTB that were in the scope of possibility for me, and ended up changing my mind about doing it. Not because I suddenly felt less suicidal from the reality of what CTB meant, but because, idk... It was just... It was nice to see people in the same headspace as me.

Recently went back into a bad headspace and came back, having remembered the site address, and decided that I would actually make an account this time around so that I can do more than just watch other talk to each other. So yeah. Hi.
 
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guywiththehair

guywiththehair

Member
Jul 2, 2023
7
I found this place from Tantacrul. I wanted to see the other side of the story because the only "evidence" he had was heavily edited. It's way different than what I thought from his video.
 
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Kkiitteenn

Kkiitteenn

New Member
Jul 3, 2023
1
This forum was mentioned on Reddit. I found I'm about to because there was a discussion about some YouTube video I didn't watch.
 
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pang of joy

pang of joy

Member
May 16, 2023
9
Ironically it was tantaculs yt video. i still felt compelled to join even after watching the entire thing
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
Kiwifarms. I had a nasty obsession to lurk the farms regularly (don't recommend it, I stopped doing it a while ago) and someone jokingly linked this site on a thread asking "where would we go if the farms went down?" or something like that. I hadn't heard anything about SS before even though I'd been looking for sites about suicide/suicide methods, I thought I'd never had a chance. The only valuable thing I found there, really.​
Every user on that forum is a degenerate; projecting their pain as rage and vile words to others. Just a bunch of keyboard warriors who love saying the N word and F slurs in almost every single post because there's no repercussions for it. Just keyboard warriors who turned to that corner of the internet to feel validated; reddit is no different. i.e. idiots who'd never back up their hate in real life since they clearly value their freedom outside of prison; unless they're truly that stupid.
 
piipoo

piipoo

New Member
Jun 29, 2023
2
Searching for methods led me to new york times article. Best day in years
 
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fleshcult

going back to heaven
Jan 24, 2023
4
literally googled suicide forum and found it
 
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wristcutangel

wristcutangel

What value is there to a life that wants to end?
Jul 5, 2023
159
Googling words like suicide forum or pro-suicide, ended up on a Wikipedia page about this and decided to give it a shot.
 
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eccram

Member
Jul 4, 2023
6
Reddit, /r/sanctionedsuicide
But it really started with alt.suicide.holiday
 
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Elliana Berriana

Member
Jun 10, 2023
23
I first heard of it from Tantacrul's video, but I first went on the forum a while afterwards when I was searching for methods for self harm and suicide, and came across an article talking about this place, so I came here.
 
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zipperstuck5171

zipperstuck5171

Member
Jul 7, 2023
16
I am beyond broken and think I have a way out. I'm not sure exactly if my method will work but tomorrow I attempt to pull the plug. At 52 I think I have gone as fast as I can. Hopefully there is an afterlife. I just hope if there is reincarnation that I hope I don't get brought back as a three legged, one patch over the eye goat named Ramen
 
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Gibbygobster

New Member
Jul 7, 2023
3
I heard of this site but found it hard to search for since no one would mention the name. The NY article was behind a paywall so I couldn't read it. Other articles did mention Serge and Marquis, so I googled that and "suicide". I followed the bread crumbs, lead me to the wiki. The wiki actually names the site and that's how I found it.
I heard of this site but found it hard to search for since no one would mention the name. The NY article was behind a paywall so I couldn't read it. Other articles did mention Serge and Marquis, so I googled that and "suicide". I followed the bread crumbs, lead me to the wiki. The wiki actually names the site and that's how I found it.
 
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tazzmaniandevil

tazzmaniandevil

Member
Jul 7, 2023
7
Tantacul's Youtube video. his video seemed really one sided, and i didnt like the attitude he held towards suicidal people. seemed like he was telling a scary nexpo-type creepypasta to make himself feeling better rather than talking about forum posters who want to die

i hope this site can be comforting to me. i was really suicidal a few years ago, got better, and now im back. i dont want to ctb, but i have this feeling that its going to happen and im going to die. im really glad theres a place to talk about it
 
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ctb★prince

ctb★prince

villain otd
Jul 7, 2023
102
i watched that guys entire video and as much as the things he talked about made me sad there was also a part of me that got curious because something felt of, im so glad i did because this place is like paradise, ive never felt so welcomed and understood before
 
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mare

Member
Jul 7, 2023
5
Searching for methods I found a news item about a boy committing suicide thanks to this page.
 
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Shaylla1998

Shaylla1998

Member
Jul 9, 2023
88
I found this website yesterday after randomly stumbling upon and watching Tantacrul's video, the way he talked about this website got my hopes high and after a long period in which I had not thought of harming myself, I am finally back to questioning my insignificant conscious existence again.
Since D4's launch, I have practically lived in Sanctuary and didn't have time to even think about suicide, I am happy to have found his video and more so this website.

I just hope that I can find the method that works best for me.
 
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Elle

Elle

Specialist
Jul 9, 2023
335
Tantacul's video got me interested in this site - reading lots of threads and comments, has made me realise he just talks rubbish! But yeah that's how I found out about this website
 
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WaveringLight

WaveringLight

pReTtY cOlOrS
Nov 7, 2022
85
I guess the inception point for me would be when I found an article in my news feed relating to the lawsuit against Amazon that some parent(s) filed for having 'suicide kits' on their website. I learned what was used in those kits (SN), and then i researched more into the method, which lead me here.
 
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lament.

lament.

the Immortal
Jun 28, 2023
157
I'm so glad Tantacul's video was recommended to me, without this site I would have almost definitely tried stabbing myself in the heart. Hopefully I can get the opportunity to have a peaceful death with the resources provided on this site.
 
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jbear824

jbear824

trapped & scared
Jul 4, 2023
328
It was mentioned in a reddit thread I was on
 
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lsssrrr

lsssrrr

Member
Jul 10, 2023
12
I was looking for information about assisted organizations. Everything that comes up on Google is like "noo! help is available! don't do it!"

When I stumbled onto this forum where people just talk openly and honestly about it, it was like a breath of fresh air
 
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Minsu

Minsu

Suicidal korean girl 🇰🇷🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
386
I was searching for methods, but results on Google are filtered so I had to use DuckDuckGo to find this site
 
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