Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
I can't stand this anymore. I thought I was making progress since I was leaving the house recently, so I went to the grocery store. I felt panicked the whole time, and almost curled up into a ball and cried in the middle of the store. Pathetic.
I've been on meds for ages for this. Nothing's helped. At the end of the day, I'm stuck like this.
I'm going to try and run out in front of a car again tonight. Cars speed through my neighborhood all the time, so it should be easy. I just have to power through my guilt and S.I. and whamo. No more being a worthless burden.
I know my death is going to traumatize some poor driver, but I'm out of options. I hope that they just don't manage to see it somehow.
I want to thank everyone on this site. You've all been extremely kind to me, and each other. I hope you all accomplish what you want to do.
I've been on meds for ages for this. Nothing's helped. At the end of the day, I'm stuck like this.
I'm going to try and run out in front of a car again tonight. Cars speed through my neighborhood all the time, so it should be easy. I just have to power through my guilt and S.I. and whamo. No more being a worthless burden.
I know my death is going to traumatize some poor driver, but I'm out of options. I hope that they just don't manage to see it somehow.
I want to thank everyone on this site. You've all been extremely kind to me, and each other. I hope you all accomplish what you want to do.