Here is my thread i will be write about whole process i experience today ( CTB today)

[Hans Voralberg]

please if you want you can talk with me and comfy me by your company. Just without any negativity ok. I appreceate any kind soul.
Caffeine is so bitter there is ris i will have to postpon it just because thhnical issues. I open a container It is sticki white powder consistence of potato flour. Hella bitter. This feeling of bitternes is overwhelming and last very long in mouth.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I'm sorry something has brought you to this point. But I hope you can find peace.

What's your method?

 

[Hans Voralberg]

After 12 small spoons of substance dissolving process in water after boiling is stopped i need another bottle. Caffeine Od is my method
I document whole process just because i have something from scientist inside me still.there is needed more than 500 ml to dissolve 20 g of powder
Small correct 1,5 liter of water is enough for 20 g of caffeine powder.

 

[Graytaichi]

Never heard of it. But anyways gd luck and blessing to u . Remember desision is yours , there is zero shame aborting the miasion

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Never heard of it. But anyways gd luck and blessing to u . Remember desision is yours , there is zero shame aborting the miasion

I know
I dissolve it it is Real mess to do it that is how it looks nearly invisible in liquid
I have also 2g of aspirin to liquify my blood and accelerate the process
Im packed i choose beautifull lake as a finall destination im nervous but calm after all.

 

[Niko66]

It sounds like you did your research and still settled for this. Best of luck and I hope you find peace.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I will buy some of these big chocolate to reduce bitterness i will go without antimetic vomit because it wouldn't help in this case
When i hold this smaller bottle i am thinking about this scene. Johny deep is a legend and like really pirates of the carabean films are my happiness memories ever.
Ok im heading toward the lake
I will log on later

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I have change place i am in my city park now i have 5 to 6 hours to proces it is lovely place but people walking nearby. Im ok with this i don't havetime to go to łąkę by bus
Lake
I will take aspirin now
I took 4 tablets of aspirin 500 mg each

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry about your situation. Not sure if I heard about this method before. OD by caffeine. I assume this is pure caffeine powder. I would think it has a similar effect to amphetamines or speed, basically inducing hearth attack if I'm not mistaken. Be careful, you don't want to make things worse.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I know that is way i took only four tablets of aspirin to not liqufy my blood too much i literally experiment now by my accumulated knowleadge i literally rediscover method at this point on my own risk
I took also four pills for stres with hops melisa and crocus it sedate me amazingly well it is called positivum tabs in Poland
I took next four pills for stres now
I wil start drinking caffeine in ten minutes
Im a little nervous i take a bit of chocolate and warm up it in my mouth now. Thank you friends that you are with me during all of this
No fucking way it is a mirracle liquid in my first bottle turn into solid mass look
I have to dissolve it and force myself to eat this fuck i will do this
I can't do this most of my caffeine is in still form now and i can't use it. Fuck it is too bitter to be drink plan b i use tabs and the rest of solution. god probably exist at this point i made four attempts in my life and being saved in miraculous way each time
Never make a solution of caffeine remember kids only tabs
I can't do this i will live

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Graytaichi]

Never heard of caffine od. U are prob the 1st in the last 12 decades.

 

[WitheringAway]

I hope you find peace in whatever path you choose to walk. Thinking of you..

 

[MatthewV3]

Powodzenia.

 

[freelifexit]

Please don't do it. It could be really painful.

 

[myopybyproxy]

you can purchase empty capsules online and fill them with the powder

but if you have no contingency to prevent vomiting, it's likely the caffeine OD will fail - mine failed because i vomited

 

[Cathy Ames]

@Hans Voralberg how are you doing? Do you think maybe this happened because it is not supposed to be your time yet? It's such a very strange thing.

 

[Judy Garland]

I know that is way i took only four tablets of aspirin to not liqufy my blood too much i literally experiment now by my accumulated knowleadge i literally rediscover method at this point on my own risk
I took also four pills for stres with hops melisa and crocus it sedate me amazingly well it is called positivum tabs in Poland
I took next four pills for stres now
I wil start drinking caffeine in ten minutes
Im a little nervous i take a bit of chocolate and warm up it in my mouth now. Thank you friends that you are with me during all of this
No fucking way it is a mirracle liquid in my first bottle turn into solid mass look
I have to dissolve it and force myself to eat this fuck i will do this
I can't do this most of my caffeine is in still form now and i can't use it. Fuck it is too bitter to be drink plan b i use tabs and the rest of solution. god probably exist at this point i made four attempts in my life and being saved in miraculous way each time
Never make a solution of caffeine remember kids only tabs
I can't do this i will live

Ugh, I don't know how you are going to swallow all that. I can't even imagine.

 

[Fengshuiside]

I wonder what happened?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I wonder what happened?

We usually never know.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

He said he can't eat the crap and will live. I take him at his word. Probably back to the drawing board, as it were.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I am not a pussy i did it and endure my own death. I used pills. I absorbed 4 pills of aspirin 500mg each. I used gulp of liquid caffeine I had and 8 caffeine pills over 1000mg in one shot. I felt very dizzy caffeine was bitter as hell. I thought that i can t absorb more and about my mother. She told me that she wish spend with me Xmas more than anything i ran to mu university i was like Mark Hoffman in Saw franchise. My SI was in ultimate form. I puked in toilet in my Uni using my fingers and run ti secretary of Law department. The pain was enourmous i was slowly getting blind oversensitive from light and noises. I told them to call ER what i took in mg and politely asked to give me a trash bin. I enter into pre death agony and start to puke tablet mass mixed wuth blood. I started to recite Lord Prayer as i knew i was daying and pain will end i was half conscious when they took me to toxycology. They made me EKG abd gave me antidotum and Sertalin next Trittico with Benzo. I was on toxycology in pre mort agony screaming and barking like hell for 7 hours. Meds are working. Im currently on psych ward. First i was taken to 6 ward of psych ward. I spent 2 days with deviants, narcotic users and ex prisoners. I was afraid the will rape me but i was taught and know prison sub culture as law student so i was git man a man who is worth of respect there was some fights on corridors. Now i am in new part of hospital. I am save. Meds are working i am free of pain and reconcile with my mother. I love you all im so happy know Thank you. I was sick for over 10 years of my life know i am free..
I write more when i will be realised from hospital.

 

[rationaltake]

I am not a pussy i did it and endure my own death. I used pills. I absorbed 4 pills of aspirin 500mg each. I used gulp of liquid caffeine I had and 8 caffeine pills over 1000mg in one shot. I felt very dizzy caffeine was bitter as hell. I thought that i can t absorb more and about my mother. She told me that she wish spend with me Xmas more than anything i ran to mu university i was like Mark Hoffman in Saw franchise. My SI was in ultimate form. I puked in toilet in my Uni using my fingers and run ti secretary of Law department. The pain was enourmous i was slowly getting blind oversensitive from light and noises. I told them to call ER what i took in mg and politely asked to give me a trash bin. I enter into pre death agony and start to puke tablet mass mixed wuth blood. I started to recite Lord Prayer as i knew i was daying and pain will end i was half conscious when they took me to toxycology. They made me EKG abd gave me antidotum and Sertalin next Trittico with Benzo. I was on toxycology in pre mort agony screaming and barking like hell for 7 hours. Meds are working. Im currently on psych ward. First i was taken to 6 ward of psych ward. I spent 2 days with deviants, narcotic users and ex prisoners. I was afraid the will rape me but i was taught and know prison sub culture as law student so i was git man a man who is worth of respect there was some fights on corridors. Now i am in new part of hospital. I am save. Meds are working i am free of pain and reconcile with my mother. I love you all im so happy know Thank you. I was sick for over 10 years of my life know i am free..
I write more when i will be realised from hospital.

Thanks for letting us know. I'm sorry it's been so bad. I hope it gets better. Take care.

 

[outrider567]

I am not a pussy i did it and endure my own death. I used pills. I absorbed 4 pills of aspirin 500mg each. I used gulp of liquid caffeine I had and 8 caffeine pills over 1000mg in one shot. I felt very dizzy caffeine was bitter as hell. I thought that i can t absorb more and about my mother. She told me that she wish spend with me Xmas more than anything i ran to mu university i was like Mark Hoffman in Saw franchise. My SI was in ultimate form. I puked in toilet in my Uni using my fingers and run ti secretary of Law department. The pain was enourmous i was slowly getting blind oversensitive from light and noises. I told them to call ER what i took in mg and politely asked to give me a trash bin. I enter into pre death agony and start to puke tablet mass mixed wuth blood. I started to recite Lord Prayer as i knew i was daying and pain will end i was half conscious when they took me to toxycology. They made me EKG abd gave me antidotum and Sertalin next Trittico with Benzo. I was on toxycology in pre mort agony screaming and barking like hell for 7 hours. Meds are working. Im currently on psych ward. First i was taken to 6 ward of psych ward. I spent 2 days with deviants, narcotic users and ex prisoners. I was afraid the will rape me but i was taught and know prison sub culture as law student so i was git man a man who is worth of respect there was some fights on corridors. Now i am in new part of hospital. I am save. Meds are working i am free of pain and reconcile with my mother. I love you all im so happy know Thank you. I was sick for over 10 years of my life know i am free..
I write more when i will be realised from hospital.

What a nightmare you went thru--Glad I'm going to use the Nitrogen exit way

 

[Bedrock48]

Caffeine was too painful of a method for me too so I'm sorry you went through that, hope you're healing well

 

[Shu]

That sounds really painful. Glad you are doing better now bud.

 

[may13]

I can't even drink 2 cups of coffee without having a wildly aggressive anxiety attack.

I am sorry you went through that.

 

[whatevs]

I am not a pussy i did it and endure my own death. I used pills. I absorbed 4 pills of aspirin 500mg each. I used gulp of liquid caffeine I had and 8 caffeine pills over 1000mg in one shot. I felt very dizzy caffeine was bitter as hell. I thought that i can t absorb more and about my mother. She told me that she wish spend with me Xmas more than anything i ran to mu university i was like Mark Hoffman in Saw franchise. My SI was in ultimate form. I puked in toilet in my Uni using my fingers and run ti secretary of Law department. The pain was enourmous i was slowly getting blind oversensitive from light and noises. I told them to call ER what i took in mg and politely asked to give me a trash bin. I enter into pre death agony and start to puke tablet mass mixed wuth blood. I started to recite Lord Prayer as i knew i was daying and pain will end i was half conscious when they took me to toxycology. They made me EKG abd gave me antidotum and Sertalin next Trittico with Benzo. I was on toxycology in pre mort agony screaming and barking like hell for 7 hours. Meds are working. Im currently on psych ward. First i was taken to 6 ward of psych ward. I spent 2 days with deviants, narcotic users and ex prisoners. I was afraid the will rape me but i was taught and know prison sub culture as law student so i was git man a man who is worth of respect there was some fights on corridors. Now i am in new part of hospital. I am save. Meds are working i am free of pain and reconcile with my mother. I love you all im so happy know Thank you. I was sick for over 10 years of my life know i am free..
I write more when i will be realised from hospital.

So you are happy now or what? What a turn of events. Anyway thanks for the story, it was entertaining.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Antidepresants works i am happy first time since i was 12 i will receive theraphy and helpThe girl i love also will receive help because i informed Dean about her situation she was on the edge of suicide too. She said that i litterally move earth and heaven to help her (this is our Polish idiom) and that i should be psychologist not a lawyer and that she is so gratefull and happy and she know i love her and i think she intellectually accepted it in her mind and slowly start to open for love.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

You won't believe i met a girl on psych ward she is hypersexual as me and have c ptsd and depression. I start talk with her she said she will help me understand what is going on in my psyche and that i can use her experience but in the end i helped her understood how her sexuality is bound to her past and abussive father. I unlocked and vented her emotions. Literally i entered her psyche and beat the shit out of her inner critic. I slowly reversed her depression and restored her self esteem and stop her suicidal thoughts. We have a lot in common like a lot really and she said i am wonderfull Man and nie she told me she slowly falling in love with me this is reciprocall. I literally have two girls i love in my life. Plan is that i will confront with the first one if she wants be with me after all support and love i have her during 2,5 Years i will go with her she is 23 so i have chance to have children with her and be father and if not i will go with a girl from psych ward she agree to give me time to recognize my situation after leaving hospital She is 29 i won't be a father but i will be happy too. What a life...