The law here makes it impossible to acquire it unless you have a business of some sort that requires it. N is also out of the question as customs here is very strict. I'm not too sure on what the stance is on SN being imported into NZ but am unsure about what customs would think of it since it is deemed a 'dangerous good' here, as well as if the long trip here from overseas would affect the condition of the SN maybe making it less potent or something along those lines.
It's as if countries with these very strict laws want you to enact a painful method which may not even kill you fully in the first place and leave you with brain damage. I'm more afraid of 'dying' before I die, in the sense of not being able to have a adequate functioning self as with frontotemporal dementia, anosognosia (eg. Antons Syndrome, alien hand syndrome (loss of agency, my limbs are moving their own, it has nothing to do with me), etc. and really do not want to be alive with brain damage that affects me in a paradoxical way where 'I' can no longer be aware of my own deficits. Living with brain damage seems to me to be far scarier than death.
It's as if countries with these very strict laws want you to enact a painful method which may not even kill you fully in the first place and leave you with brain damage. I'm more afraid of 'dying' before I die, in the sense of not being able to have a adequate functioning self as with frontotemporal dementia, anosognosia (eg. Antons Syndrome, alien hand syndrome (loss of agency, my limbs are moving their own, it has nothing to do with me), etc. and really do not want to be alive with brain damage that affects me in a paradoxical way where 'I' can no longer be aware of my own deficits. Living with brain damage seems to me to be far scarier than death.
