Method Goodbye Thread.

[VenusOnArrival]

Emails prepped,
Loose ends tied.
Hung around a bit longer than expected.

Attempting tonight leaving some wiggle room for the exact time.
I don't have Meto but do have mirtazapine which acts on the same receptor as meto but not clear on if it's to the same degree or how that shit really works. Will post my method below but would not recommend another follows it. again, plz don't. I'm posting the plan as from previous posts there is so far only speculation on mirtazapine unless I missed one.

Fasting for 18-24 hours.

30mg x Mirtazapine Last night at 23:00

30mg x Mirtazapine this morning

30mg at 14:00

90 MG an hour before

Prepare 3 cups of SN at 22gm each with enough water to dissolve.

I'm sorry for not interacting with you all more, I think I was nervous about the ethics of it but have found this site to be a great solace. Im glad it exists. Thanks

Emotionally SI is up and down. I will feel scared and not know what to expect except for common symptoms. I don't want to live in this cycle anymore.

 

[Yaffle]

What time zone are you and when do you plan to take the SN?

I hope this works perfectly for you

 

[MarsProxy]

I hope you obtain the peace you need. You have my love, for whatever that's worth.

 

[VenusOnArrival]

What time zone are you and when do you plan to take the SN?

I hope this works perfectly for you

Thanks me too, don't really wanna share Timezone but US, or whatever timezone the scarps are in lol

I hope you obtain the peace you need. You have my love, for whatever that's worth.

Thx friend/stranger <3

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for everything going exactly as you wish and hope for. Sleep well, comfortably and peacefully knowing we hold you in our hearts, you're one of us unmet friend.

 

[justcallmeJ]

I wish you the best and peace whatever happens <3

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, i hope you escape peacefully.

 

[Yaffle]

Thanks me too, don't really wanna share Timezone but US, or whatever timezone the scarps are in lol

Fair enough; just wondering how long until you were planning to take it. Hope you have a very peaceful passing.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I wish you all the best. This is even harder because DaSh is had their gb thread earlier today. I hope you find peace.

 

[VenusOnArrival]

Best wishes for everything going exactly as you wish and hope for. Sleep well, comfortably and peacefully knowing we hold you in our hearts, you're one of us unmet friend.

That's really kind, I hope you find what you are looking for as well, be it peace, rest, and/or something other.

I wish you all the best. This is even harder because DaSh is had their gb thread earlier today. I hope you find peace.

Thanks <3 I've seen you around here a lot recently wish you the best in everything you want and need

Fair enough; just wondering how long until you were planning to take it. Hope you have a very peaceful passing.

should be about 8-12 hrs so got some time to face SI directly

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I hope that you find the peace you search for, best of luck with your plans.

 

[user56765567]

Good luck, I hope everything goes smoothly and that you find what you're looking for on the other side.

 

[VenusOnArrival]

Thx, 2nd dose of mirtazapine* down

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Thx, 2nd dose of mirtazapine* down

If you don't mind me asking, how far are you from taking sn?

 

[hi-okbye]

i really wish you the best. i just ordered my SN today, hope i get to join you sooner or later.
good luck and i hope you find peace <3

 

[VenusOnArrival]

If you don't mind me asking, how far are you from taking sn?

7-9 hours

 

[Old Friend]

My time zone's GMT (UTC 0), so I'll likely be asleep; therefore I'll say farewell now.

I'll raise a glass.

 

[Kta1994]

Hope it goes well

 

[notahappygirl]

Hope everything goes as planned <3 please keep us updated if you can

 

[gyul]

one last listening to your fav songs <3 hope u are in peace and everything goes well

 

[VenusOnArrival]

After the most recent dose of mirtazapine I felt drowsy about 30mins later. Feeling less drowsy now but my anxiety is less palpable. The sharp stings of anxiety from SI are there but no longer sharp. I feel borderline euphoric, warm, no racing thoughts. But some apprehension and the anxiety is still detectable. So far no hunger like I usually experience.

My heart rate at the moment seems to be regular. I will hold off on the 90mg an hour before if I am still feeling this drowsy. i don''t want to be super awake for it all or increase the tachycardia.

so far I've taken 90mg total across 14ish hours. My normal dose is 30mg if this is useful information.

https://proceedings.med.ucla.edu/wp-content/uploads/2016/11/Dose-Dependent-Sedating-and-Stimulating-Effects-of-Mirtazapine.pdf

Hope everything goes as planned <3 please keep us updated if you can

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

We're all right behind you.

 

[Unknown21]

Good luck, u will find the peace definitely.

 

[hi-okbye]

good luck again, we're here if you need anything. even if you change your mind <3

 

[Unwr!tten]

I hope things are going well and you find peace on your journey.

 

[VenusOnArrival]

Drinks prepared, apprehension is back. Unsure if I will do this.

 

[hi-okbye]

Drinks prepared, apprehension is back. Unsure if I will do this.

we will support you either way. good luck wishing you much peace <3

 

[VenusOnArrival]

I dont think I have it in me at the moment. Thank you for the support thru this all best of luck on ur journeys.

 

[Erik.t.f]

hope it goes as planned and a peaceful transition, rest in peace

 

[ShatteredSoul]

I dont think I have it in me at the moment. Thank you for the support thru this all best of luck on ur journeys.

And that's okay! My thoughts are with you.