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weedico

weedico

six's herald
Jun 8, 2023
30
My SN's stashed, I've started my antiemetic protocol, i've got everything ready.
Thank you to all of you for giving me this amazing place to be in the end, especially to the late Vizzy for writing the SN bible. My story isn't all that important, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. It's funny how some people's reasons to ctb hinged on some marginal amount of time, for me it was stepping away from somewhere for 20 minutes, I've got a field I'm going to (which after scouting yesterday I've discovered the locals use as a shooting range lol), will make myself comfortable in my car and lay back. It's a quiet place with little light pollution so I'll see some stars. I've set up a message that'll automatically send to nearby authorities with the location of my body after the whole thing, don't wanna traumatize any poor sop.
Finality is a hell of a thing huh. Got this weird feeling in my stomach, the type you get when your flight lines up on the runway before takeoff.
If I can ask a small favor from you, please wish me a happy ending. Just a passing thought will do. Wanna increase my chances of whatever the other side is being good,
I'm afraid, anxious, and all the other emotions that come before such a journey, so I'll stop writing before I go off on too much of a tangent lol. Thanks for reading this far if you have.

It's approximately T-12 hours to when I plan to be at the spot and taking the SN. I'll try to keep this updated but once I ingest the SN I'll go radio silent, I hope yall understand.

I had a mentor figure in my life 3 years my senior who ctbed 2.5 years ago. He always used to say "patience is a fool's game". I'll see you soon, six.

weed :)
 
love_peep

love_peep

Specialist
May 26, 2023
313
support is always needed at such moments. And I hope and wish that everything worked out for you and you finally found peace. I know this feeling of excitement before the approaching ctb. But remember that it will all end if everything succeeds. So I wish you all the best and good luck to you in general.:hug::hug:
 
_Alfarooq_

_Alfarooq_

Useless bastard almost making the decision to CTB.
Jul 24, 2023
282
My SN's stashed, I've started my antiemetic protocol, i've got everything ready.
Thank you to all of you for giving me this amazing place to be in the end, especially to the late Vizzy for writing the SN bible. My story isn't all that important, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. It's funny how some people's reasons to ctb hinged on some marginal amount of time, for me it was stepping away from somewhere for 20 minutes, I've got a field I'm going to (which after scouting yesterday I've discovered the locals use as a shooting range lol), will make myself comfortable in my car and lay back. It's a quiet place with little light pollution so I'll see some stars. I've set up a message that'll automatically send to nearby authorities with the location of my body after the whole thing, don't wanna traumatize any poor sop.
Finality is a hell of a thing huh. Got this weird feeling in my stomach, the type you get when your flight lines up on the runway before takeoff.
If I can ask a small favor from you, please wish me a happy ending. Just a passing thought will do. Wanna increase my chances of whatever the other side is being good,
I'm afraid, anxious, and all the other emotions that come before such a journey, so I'll stop writing before I go off on too much of a tangent lol. Thanks for reading this far if you have.

It's approximately T-12 hours to when I plan to be at the spot and taking the SN. I'll try to keep this updated but once I ingest the SN I'll go radio silent, I hope yall understand.

I had a mentor figure in my life 3 years my senior who ctbed 2.5 years ago. He always used to say "patience is a fool's game". I'll see you soon, six.

weed :)
I want a portion of that sodium nitrite.
 
ChesterCopperpot

ChesterCopperpot

disheveled cuss
Jul 11, 2023
17
hey dude good luck. i hope you find the peace and closure you need. life can feel like you're stuck in a liminal place. i don't personally subscribe in another side after this, but i do hope you find what you're looking for and get to where you're going.
 
020x

020x

Suffering will end when the existence does.
Jul 6, 2023
249
Got home safe, spending time with family. Seeing all your kind words is amazing, thank you so much.

T-5:15 hours
might have to move T+0, originally was planning for it to be midnight but likely gonna be closer to 1am
I hope your courage will make it a peaceful journey in your last moments. Wishing the best time with your family as well! Goodluck
 
BornHated

BornHated

God may judge, but his sins outnumber your own.
Nov 19, 2022
96
I hope everything goes smoothly. Honestly, being in the car alone was one of my few comfort moments in a day back then. If I had my own car I think I'd go the same way.
May you be free from pain.
 

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