I hope today's the last day.

[a4001]

I've got a vague plan. I have some rope and a railway bridge I'd like to FSH from. It's not too thick but Im like 145lb so I think it'll work. It's maybe the same thickness as bungee cord just not stretchy. I can't handle this world anymore. I relapsed the second I got out of my mental hospital and I feel so insanely bad about it I just want to die. There's nothing else that can help with it. I'll probably chicken out like all my other attempts because I'm such a fucking coward but I hope this one works.
Upd: a friend talked me out of it I might not go just yet. Maybe just wait one more day.

 

[Lost in a Nightmare]

How are you feeling now? You said a friend talked you out of it but how do you feel about today? I wish you didn't feel so bad to where you wanted to go out this way. Makes me so angry sometimes that peaceful methods can't just be freely available to everyone so we could go out that way and do it easily.

 

[a4001]

How are you feeling now? You said a friend talked you out of it but how do you feel about today? I wish you didn't feel so bad to where you wanted to go out this way. Makes me so angry sometimes that peaceful methods can't just be freely available to everyone so we could go out that way and do it easily.

It made me feel a lot better just having someone. I probably can't guarantee my safety over the next week but it's like, at least I have a little bit of time before I can decide