Shame about the diazepam.
Propranolol will also speed up death if used at the same time as sn, death is around 1 hour compared to 1-4 hours without.
I have also read about heart issues but only when taking huge amounts like 2-3 grams, rather than the recommended 400mg.
I personally will use it as it will help me with anxiety, but it is your choice.
Thanks! I haven't heard of anyone being awake for longer than about 20 mins so not too worried about the time to death,
I do have it with me so I could take it. I considered taking a small dose for anxiety, not 400 mg but maybe 10-40
Hi guys,
Just a quick update.
Decided to leave it until tomorrow (room is booked for another night).
My reasoning is as follows:-
1. I don't think it will make a HUGE difference to the chances of being found if this is done at night or day, really.
2. I'm really tired. It's been a long and heavy day. I suffer from anxiety anyways, so it's exhausting.
3. Although I would prefer not to do it with the TV on, I feel like realistically, that would mask any sounds well.
4. It is now quite late and the TV may attract attention.
5. If I do it tomorrow at around 10 am say, that's before check-ins and outs, and cleaning staff coming. Even if people do move about, e.g. everyone leaves, the TV will be on, so it should mask noises from inside the room.
6. If I do it now at night, and make a noise, it's more likely to be heard.
7. It'll be a bit warmer and more comfortable
My only qualm is that the 'ideal' time is probably something like 6 pm.
In any case it is all a bit of a risk. One could say it's empty-ish anyway, or maybe everyone's sleeping with earplugs in, and wouldn't hear. Or that in the day, everyone would walk past my room. Or, that the noise would be really well masked in the day, and that at night, it wouldn't be. And so on.
To be honest, my mind is wrecked anyway. In some ways I get scared it's "too late" because I can't even CTB properly.
I am annoyed that even planning this, I have to think about other people first. That sounds mean, but I wish I could do it just in a way I'm comfortable with, not always worrying about other people's reactions.
In any case, I have all of tomorrow day and eve.
Please let me know if you have thoughts. Thank you.
I'm going to get ready for bed now.