Finally ready

[casctb]

For so long I've held back on ctb due to fear but now I figured I'm more than ready. Planning all of it out currently is so much but it is not a deterrent. Also might have to lie or sneak out which sucks, ultimately worth it though. I'm going wait a few days to help out someone I admire then leave. If you guys see on the news a suicide in the Letchworth State Park, that's me.

Honestly so thankful for this site, it has given me the courage to go through with this and without it I would probably still live in my own suffering.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm so sorry you feel the need to go through this. I wish you the best.

Just know that you're cared for.

 

[Jblack]

I am so sorry that life has brought you this. I do wish you peace on your journey. I hope that you receive the peace which we all so much deserve and that your suffering is left behind.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry for what has brought you to this. I googled the location... AMAZING !!! I wish I could CTB there too. Maybe you might want to remove the CTB location so you won't be "Saved" ... just a thought.

 

[casctb]

Sorry for what has brought you to this. I googled the location... AMAZING !!! I wish I could CTB there too. Maybe you might want to remove the CTB location so you won't be "Saved" ... just a thought.

Nah I was thinking of surveying the area for like the first day, then find the best place and do it at night. It's the location of my literal dreams to ctb.

 

[Ghost2211]

I hope you have a peaceful journey. If you change your mind we'll be here with open arms.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

you should have never been pushed this far, but i hope you find the peace that you're looking for.

 

[Passersby]

Suffering and Permanent Problems suck! I feel your pain. I'm sure you have tried your best to resolve whatever it is that torments you. I hope you find peace. As far as ctb outside it looks like a great location to be at for the last moments. Which method are you going with ? You can always back out and fight more too. I hope your suffering ends either way and it works out.

 

[Joey]

I hope you find peace

 

[casctb]

Suffering and Permanent Problems suck! I feel your pain. I'm sure you have tried your best to resolve whatever it is that torments you. I hope you find peace. As far as ctb outside it looks like a great location to be at for the last moments. Which method are you going with ? You can always back out and fight more too. I hope your suffering ends either way and it works out.

Thanks but I'm too tired and too broken to want to fight. I was thinking of ODing on fentanyl. Literally dreamt of killing myself in a place like this.

 

[Passersby]

Okay well I totally understand. When you've had enough you have had enough. Well I've never done Fentanyl but can imagine what it would be like and that sounds like a good way to drift off , and a nice place to do it. Do you plan on posting on here when your out there or not?

 

[Myforevercharlie]

This one is for you. I hope it's light will guide you to love and peace

 

[casctb]

Okay well I totally understand. When you've had enough you have had enough. Well I've never done Fentanyl but can imagine what it would be like and that sounds like a good way to drift off , and a nice place to do it. Do you plan on posting on here when your out there or not?

Probably would post here to calm my nerves and pass the time when I do decide to go. Maybe take a few pictures. I want to go out as peacefully as possible.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Looks like a beautiful place I hope its a peaceful journey for you. Best of luck for whenever you decide to go. Hugs