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ButterflyWings
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- Jul 3, 2022
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Life is beautiful but ive made it terrible. Envious of othe
I feel the same way.The thought of Dying makes me sad because I would have loved to have had a better life. However, I know I never will have that, too much time has passed and I am far too broken to try to rebuild. I am now in the process of tying up a few loose ends like getting my will witnessed, decluttering and organising the things around me. The Swedish call it death cleaning. I still don't know whether to die at home (I don't like it here) or find a hotel or cottage nearby with some nice scenery. So much planning has went into this over the years. I am slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of dying. It is a natural part of life anyway, still, I would rather do it on my own terms, than by: accident, old age or disease. I guess I am sad and relieved. I am sad that I never got the life I wanted, but relieved that I have a peaceful way out at the time and place of my choosing.
The thought of Dying makes me sad because I would have loved to have had a better life. However, I know I never will have that, too much time has passed and I am far too broken to try to rebuild. I am now in the process of tying up a few loose ends like getting my will witnessed, decluttering and organising the things around me. The Swedish call it death cleaning. I still don't know whether to die at home (I don't like it here) or find a hotel or cottage nearby with some nice scenery. So much planning has went into this over the years. I am slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of dying. It is a natural part of life anyway, still, I would rather do it on my own terms, than by: accident, old age or disease. I guess I am sad and relieved. I am sad that I never got the life I wanted, but relieved that I have a peaceful way out at the time and place of my choosing.