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ButterflyWings

Member
Jul 3, 2022
11
Sad.
 
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Going Out Soon

Member
Jul 6, 2022
12
Both.

But its more of a relief than it is sad. What's sad is my pathetic existence. When things are REALLY bad, the only comforting thought I can conjure is that I can choose to end it.
 
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Parnate

Experienced
Dec 16, 2021
259
It makes me sad and relieved both.
Sad that in this life I lacked all the basic things. A good brain, genes mindset, which If I had got I would have had a fulfilling life. A life I deserve
I feel relieved as I believe in rebirth cause it gives a satisfaction that all the good deeds I have done I this life will pay off in the next one,
hopefully. Hopefully in next life I won't have hairloss, hyperhidrosis, avpd.
 
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FallenRose

Member
May 18, 2019
14
The thought of death brings me relief I feel glad to know that it can all be over when I choose to go. The only thing that I'm sad about is the life I could have lived if certain things didn't happen to me that led me down this path.
 
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yıη

So if I escape, will my pain go away?
Jun 22, 2022
71
It used to make me sad. I used to play that "why me?" shit.

Now it gives me hope. With each passing day, being alive becomes more and more painful.

I've never been religious, but I hear they say God takes away all your pain in Heaven. I hope my sentience is erased when I CTB.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,460
It's going to be both sad and a relief for me at the same time. I'm already beyond sad, and contributing to that sadness is that I wasn't able to be better in this life, couldn't make more of it, wasn't able to overcome the obstacles, real or imagined, that always seemed to get in my way. I know others have had hard roads in their lives and they've managed to overcome their difficulties. Why not me, too? I hope to get some relief from this daily, even hourly, profound sadness that I know not how to escape. It isn't like I haven't tried in the past. I have, just to no avail. Eventually, I just gave up, though. Man, I hope there's relief from my mind that never gives me a break.
 
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chyme

churning, churning
Jun 5, 2022
30
Life and death are equally oppressive in my mind.
I view dying as the ultimate catharsis, it's all I look forward to. Everything else is bleak.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,713
The thought of other people dying makes me feel sad. The thought of death as a thing makes me sad and also angry- if there is such a thing as a God. I guess there has to be such a thing as death- the world can't fit an ever expanding population- it's struggling with the one it has. Still, it seems such a cruel thing without really knowing what happens afterwards.

I mainly feel this massive relief when I think about it for me. On the opposite end of the scale, I've never understood people who want to live forever. To live at all I suppose! It's weird because I used to hope there was a heaven but now, I'm kind of hoping there's nothing. Any form of existence is feeling very unappealing now.
 
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Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
A little bit of both. Sad in the sense that if I had been given the right hand of cards, my life could've been better, but also relieved because my pain would be over
 
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DearDiary

New Member
Apr 2, 2022
1
When I think of death I feel relieved but I'm afraid to survive
 
Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
A huge, monumental relief.

While my mind and brain are rotten and I could write a novel about mental illness, my body is very healthy; I'll probably live another 40 years if I don't do anything about it.

And that's exhausting. Just thinking that I'm less than halfway through life is depressing. I didn't enjoy the first half...how can the second half be any better?
 
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picklemick

Specialist
Jun 28, 2022
320
I'm really close to my next attempt. I just wish it wasn't so hard. Anxiety for failing only. The thought of being done is so soothing
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
283
Relief! No pain, no suffering, just gone.

The only things I really get sad about is leaving my babies (cats) even though I know they'd continue to be loved and cared for. One of them only likes me and the outdoor previously feral guy trusts me the most.
 
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nohopeleftanymoreno

Member
Jul 9, 2022
34
Nothing calms me down more than the fact I will die.
 
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2dietmrow

Member
Jul 9, 2022
13
If i can move past the uncomfortable process of the body dying, death will be a great joy and relief
 
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Hollowmon

Sad Girl
Jul 4, 2022
20
It makes me feel both sadness and relief. Sad about the life I never had, even though staying alive wouldn't make the life I wish I could've had possible I'm still sad about everything I never got to experience. Relieved it'll be over and I won't have to think about this sort of stuff anymore, no more envy or shame or mourning a self that never could have been, as long as there's no afterlife, I really hope there's no afterlife.
 
WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,038
It does make me sad. I sometimes wish I could be a child again. That isn't a healthy mindset obviously but would the child version of me have wanted this? I certainly don't think so.
 
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Suspect_Device

Student
Jul 10, 2022
139
It makes me feel sad and angry, I've put so much time and energy just to end up at this point where life is unlivable.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
606
Sad. Relief. Fear all lump up. Lost dearest one, im spiritual child. I pray for all the be reincarnated and i cruxified on a cross for all the sins and all of u. Then i crosss over to gehenna for eternal sleep. But i just want to see mum one time.
 
lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,470
Relief because soon all this shit will be over. However I am anxious about the manner of my death.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Relieved I'll be free from this depressing shell.
 
☆AwaitingEntropy☆

☆AwaitingEntropy☆

Snuffing the Light Out
Nov 6, 2021
208
More of a relief, but there is some sadness.

I wish the world was kinder. But as they say, you can't change the world. So, I'm glad to be leaving this one, and I look forward to nonexistence. Maybe someday after the universe has broken and reassembled itself once again, the particles and atoms that were me will form to be sentient again one day, but I do not wish to return.
 
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lifeisbutadream

Warlock
Oct 4, 2018
798
"Does the thought of dying make you feel sad or is it a relief?"

The thought of dying always makes me smile, and i don't otherwise smile much anymore...but i believe that what we call death here on earth is really an awakening into a wondrous universe.
 
freevoid

freevoid

Student
Jul 11, 2022
137
It's the only thing that I feel genuine happiness about anymore.
 
HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
247
It is quite strange how petrified we all are of dying, and how CTB is seen as such a significant thing, such a shame and a TRAGEDY, when death is something that happens to ALL of us sooner or later. It's really weird how we view it this way, when we will all, 100% guaranteed, die anyway. We all have already experienced 'not being alive' for the last 14 billion years, so what are we all so petrified of, and why do we view it as such a tragedy when it happens to someone else, especially when they do it to themselves?! It's just so odd.
 
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Hangnail

Member
Jul 14, 2022
85
It's a source of comfort for me knowing that there's an escape plan, but thinking how the people I leave behind must feel makes me sad. I know my parents tried their best, and I know my bf would be devastated. But unfortunately, I've failed myself.
 
Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,446
I overcome my daily problems in life by thinking that someday I will CTB.

When I'm happy, I fantasize about being dead; When I'm sad, being dead is my only hope.

May be I'm sad person, may be I'm both of these two sides of the bus, may be it's "Penn Face", or may be not, may be I'm in love with suicide because it's a relief.

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Disperato

Member
Jul 13, 2022
7
The thought of Dying makes me sad because I would have loved to have had a better life. However, I know I never will have that, too much time has passed and I am far too broken to try to rebuild. I am now in the process of tying up a few loose ends like getting my will witnessed, decluttering and organising the things around me. The Swedish call it death cleaning. I still don't know whether to die at home (I don't like it here) or find a hotel or cottage nearby with some nice scenery. So much planning has went into this over the years. I am slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of dying. It is a natural part of life anyway, still, I would rather do it on my own terms, than by: accident, old age or disease. I guess I am sad and relieved. I am sad that I never got the life I wanted, but relieved that I have a peaceful way out at the time and place of my choosing.
I feel the same way.
What is your peaceful way out, if I may ask?
Similar to what many have said... I am sad because things could have been better, had I been more fortunate. At this point, a peaceful death would be the biggest relief.
 
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jitendrabagaria786@

Student
May 19, 2022
161
Wow I too am in the same boat, what's your method?
The thought of Dying makes me sad because I would have loved to have had a better life. However, I know I never will have that, too much time has passed and I am far too broken to try to rebuild. I am now in the process of tying up a few loose ends like getting my will witnessed, decluttering and organising the things around me. The Swedish call it death cleaning. I still don't know whether to die at home (I don't like it here) or find a hotel or cottage nearby with some nice scenery. So much planning has went into this over the years. I am slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of dying. It is a natural part of life anyway, still, I would rather do it on my own terms, than by: accident, old age or disease. I guess I am sad and relieved. I am sad that I never got the life I wanted, but relieved that I have a peaceful way out at the time and place of my choosing.
 

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