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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Autophagic Loneliness
Feb 12, 2025
291
The only thing I ever wanted with all my life force was to have someone to love. I desired that above anything else in life. To feel the pleasurable physical touch and presence that would make me whole was what I was always searching for. But I had to overcome all the cursed pain in my life, the depression, the self-loathing, the enslavement to money, and other disorders alone in every situation. I deserve more than anyone to be loved completely by someone. I said yes to life even when it was terrible, and despite everything, I never had a lap to rest on or a hug to comfort me. Through the years I exist yearning for human touch that will never come. I got used to being alone and living with loneliness; I got used to moving forward amidst the pain; I learned to be the only one to wipe away my own tears in moments when I have no support. I carry the burden of existing in this world that never offered me love or any form of deep affection. Another night I survive, in the darkness of my room, after facing the reality of the world.
 
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Feb 28, 2026
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The only thing I ever wanted with all my life force was to have someone to love. I desired that above anything else in life. To feel the pleasurable physical touch and presence that would make me whole was what I was always searching for. But I had to overcome all the cursed pain in my life, the depression, the self-loathing, the enslavement to money, and other disorders alone in every situation. I deserve more than anyone to be loved completely by someone. I said yes to life even when it was terrible, and despite everything, I never had a lap to rest on or a hug to comfort me. Through the years I exist yearning for human touch that will never come. I got used to being alone and living with loneliness; I got used to moving forward amidst the pain; I learned to be the only one to wipe away my own tears in moments when I have no support. I carry the burden of existing in this world that never offered me love or any form of deep affection. Another night I survive, in the darkness of my room, after facing the reality of the world.
thats rough buddy
 
Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Autophagic Loneliness
Feb 12, 2025
291
thats rough buddy
There is no place for me. There is no one waiting for me in the future or who needs to be discovered by me. I am tired of this life, of knowing that in the lives of normies, the absence of affection wasn't even a complaint.
 
kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
676
Loneliness is the most painful feeling. I wish you could have someone to love you completely and to hold you. You do deserve it. I don't think love is real, but it's also the only thing I desire.
 

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