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AloneGunManTheory

AloneGunManTheory

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Jul 21, 2026
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i hate having autism. It makes finding love a million times worse. Not to mention I am conventionally unattractive. I have buck teeth and I'm growing a unibrow, not to mention I'm also growing a pedo-stache and neckbeard. I can't connect with anyone, I just don't feel any sort of spike with anyone I find. Any time I try to make a move with somebody I end up coming off too hard and scaring them away, I'm a total creep. I feel like a sort of creature, like a wendigo in public. Everyone sees me and thinks I am hideous and putrid. I don't deserve to taint the outside world with my presence. I've only found three people in my entire life who I felt any sort of connection with, and only got to date one of them for about one year, and it was entirely online. I'll never find someone like them again, they were perfect. I'm a pathetic loser and I'll never know the feeling of holding someone I genuinely care about in my arms. One more month and it'll all be over.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
198
i hate having autism. It makes finding love a million times worse. Not to mention I am conventionally unattractive. I have buck teeth and I'm growing a unibrow, not to mention I'm also growing a pedo-stache and neckbeard. I can't connect with anyone, I just don't feel any sort of spike with anyone I find. Any time I try to make a move with somebody I end up coming off too hard and scaring them away, I'm a total creep. I feel like a sort of creature, like a wendigo in public. Everyone sees me and thinks I am hideous and putrid. I don't deserve to taint the outside world with my presence. I've only found three people in my entire life who I felt any sort of connection with, and only got to date one of them for about one year, and it was entirely online. I'll never find someone like them again, they were perfect. I'm a pathetic loser and I'll never know the feeling of holding someone I genuinely care about in my arms. One more month and it'll all be over.
You are built different, doesn't mean you are a creep. I also haven't found many people i could connect with heart to heart. And my last two relationships were pathetic af.
What I can suggest you, try this attract love audio of brain sync on YouTube, it works. It programs your mind to be attuned to find love
 
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violetforever

violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
1,157
neither will i. its easier and more realistic to find the site for SN and ctb at this point.
 
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WirelessConnections

WirelessConnections

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Aug 8, 2026
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I'm also autistic and it's really difficult for me to talk to new people as well. I really relate to how you said you feel like a creature. That's what I always call myself in my head too. I feel like I'm so off putting to most people, the way I walk and talk and move. I feel disgusting.
 
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swankysoup

swankysoup

Experienced
Feb 12, 2024
218
I know it won't happen for me and i don't even talk about it anymore, no one cares and talking won't change anything anyway. If you open up about this it will just be used against you in the end.
 

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