Ive thought about death a lot everyday for years now and it’s peaceful

[rosesdying666]

i constantly write about dying and talk about it a lot and im constantly thinking about it, death makes me feel safe and comforted knowing theirs a ending to my hurt.

Death is the only thing that soothes my bad thoughts and hate for life, it makes me feel like it's waiting for me whenever i truly can't do this anymore. the only thing that's there for me and left for me to do.

im honestly kinda surprised i haven't manifested my own death yet with how much i center my entire life around it. I hate my instinctive urge to keep going despite how hard it gets, it makes me feel trapped.


Because i know i want it, but i clearly don't want it enough to do it already. As time goes on, i wonder how much worse this will be till i have nothing to do but end it.

Regardless, i know death will be there with open arms. Life wasn't as welcoming.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

It's been very peaceful planning it. Was writing down passwords today for my accounts and I felt quite happy and at peace.
Walking around cemeteries puts me at ease too.

 

[PersonBeforeLife]

i constantly write about dying and talk about it a lot and im constantly thinking about it, death makes me feel safe and comforted knowing theirs a ending to my hurt.

Death is the only thing that soothes my bad thoughts and hate for life, it makes me feel like it's waiting for me whenever i truly can't do this anymore. the only thing that's there for me and left for me to do.

im honestly kinda surprised i haven't manifested my own death yet with how much i center my entire life around it. I hate my instinctive urge to keep going despite how hard it gets, it makes me feel trapped.


Because i know i want it, but i clearly don't want it enough to do it already. As time goes on, i wonder how much worse this will be till i have nothing to do but end it.

Regardless, i know death will be there with open arms. Life wasn't as welcoming.

Yeah I sleep next to a rope just so I don't feel trapped and can actually sleep at night.

I know it well. I guess for me... I'm just still looking for closure... Which hopefully isn't far away... Where I can say to myself... I did my realistic best and life still had nothing worth staying for.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

No wonder I have always loved a funeral. I don't go to other social occassions but love a funeral.