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WantThisToEnd

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Jul 12, 2024
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I have my SN now and tonight is the big night. I'm 3.5 hours into my 8 hour fast and have everything waiting in my closet — including the kitchen scale I stole up to my room. Just have to wait until everyone is asleep.

I'll be doing the stat dose. But taking 40 mg of metoclopramide instead of 30. Also, I'll be doing 33 g of SN in approximately 100 ml of water instead of the recommended 25. I know that a higher quantity might make it more likely that I'll throw up, but I'll be preparing 3 glasses of 33 g SN total in case I throw up.

I want to use up all of my 100 g in this attempt, rather than saving a quarter of the SN or something which would be pretty useless. If it doesn't work this time, I'll just have to find a different method. Although I don't really have any access to any, so I'm really REALLY hoping this works.

I'll post after I've taken it if I can. And I'll definitely post if it wasn't successful.

Wish me luck. And feel free to offer any advice.
 
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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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I have my SN now and tonight is the big night. I'm 3.5 hours into my 8 hour fast and have everything waiting in my closet — including the kitchen scale I stole up to my room. Just have to wait until everyone is asleep.

I'll be doing the stat dose. But taking 40 mg of metoclopramide instead of 30. Also, I'll be doing 33 g of SN in approximately 100 ml of water instead of the recommended 25. I know that a higher quantity might make it more likely that I'll throw up, but I'll be preparing 3 glasses of 33 g SN total in case I throw up.

I want to use up all of my 100 g in this attempt, rather than saving a quarter of the SN or something which would be pretty useless. If it doesn't work this time, I'll just have to find a different method. Although I don't really have any access to any, so I'm really REALLY hoping this works.

I'll post after I've taken it if I can. And I'll definitely post if it wasn't successful.

Wish me luck. And feel free to offer any advice.
I wish you peace and we will be here if anything goes differently than expected. Can I ask what happened last time you attempted with SN?
 
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WantThisToEnd

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Jul 12, 2024
37
I wish you peace and we will be here if anything goes differently than expected. Can I ask what happened last time you attempted with SN?
Thank you! And I've never attempted with SN before. Did I imply I had? I didn't mean to.
 
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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
874
Thank you! And I've never attempted with SN before. Did I imply I had? I didn't mean to.
Oh no I think 'this time' confused me but you just meant this time as in the first time, haha
 
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Kurai

Kurai

Suffering
Jul 23, 2023
241
Good luck and wishing you peace 💜
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,198
Best wishes on your journey!
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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I hope everything goes as you desire and that you find the peace you deserve.
 
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Apr 25, 2023
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Goodluck, hope you find peace.
 
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WantThisToEnd

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Jul 12, 2024
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I have my SN now and tonight is the big night. I'm 3.5 hours into my 8 hour fast and have everything waiting in my closet — including the kitchen scale I stole up to my room. Just have to wait until everyone is asleep.

I'll be doing the stat dose. But taking 40 mg of metoclopramide instead of 30. Also, I'll be doing 33 g of SN in approximately 100 ml of water instead of the recommended 25. I know that a higher quantity might make it more likely that I'll throw up, but I'll be preparing 3 glasses of 33 g SN total in case I throw up.

I want to use up all of my 100 g in this attempt, rather than saving a quarter of the SN or something which would be pretty useless. If it doesn't work this time, I'll just have to find a different method. Although I don't really have any access to any, so I'm really REALLY hoping this works.

I'll post after I've taken it if I can. And I'll definitely post if it wasn't successful.

Wish me luck. And feel free to offer any advice.
Oh, also, I'll be taking 600 mg of ibuprofen an hour beforehand. And the meto 40 minutes before.
 
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LapseInTime

LapseInTime

Top-notch parasite.
Sep 4, 2024
135
Rest easy! Hope everything goes according to plan and I wish that there is 0 discomfort in the process!
 
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DoneWithThisLife

Betrayed and Broken
Apr 30, 2024
73
Good luck. I hope you find peace.
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
339
Wishing you a peaceful journey.
 
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phoebie467

phoebie467

My flame's already gone out
Mar 17, 2024
91
I hope everything goes as planned
 
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Ariii

Student
Oct 29, 2023
151
Good luck! I hope you finally find peace <3
 
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Light_

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Apr 9, 2024
830
🙏🙏🙏
 
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nibbleone

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Oct 14, 2023
112
Good luck. If you can, report the symptoms.
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
I wish you the best of luck 🤍 If you're able to please let us know how it goes for you
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
512
Good luck! I hope the process is not too uncomfortable.
 
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DedCircut303

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Sep 4, 2024
11
I hope things go the way you want and you find peace.
 
vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
599
wish you luck, hope you can finally feel peace :heart:
 
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Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
657
How's it going?
 
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WantThisToEnd

Member
Jul 12, 2024
37
How's it going?
So far so good. Took the ibuprofen, mixed the drinks, took the meto. Now just gotta wait 40 minutes until I take the drink.
 
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MourningDove

Member
Oct 19, 2023
46
So far so good. Took the ibuprofen, mixed the drinks, took the meto. Now just gotta wait 40 minutes until I take the drink.
I have the best of wishes for you :_)
 
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Theresnoescape

Student
May 29, 2024
187
Good luck, I hope you find the peace you're looking for.
 
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WantThisToEnd

Member
Jul 12, 2024
37
Just drank it. Tasted so gross. Might throw up. Heart beating fast.
 
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syde44

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Sep 3, 2024
77
Technically, if everything went well, he should have lost consciousness...
Hoping that peace is the outcome
 
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