CTB now, thank you for everything

[chiikawalover616]

Hi everyone. This will probably be my last post on here.

I bought measuring cups, and weights. I have everything I need. I've been fasting since for 8 hours and I've taken 5mg of clonazepam (benzo) 45 minutes prior. I've also taken 20mg domperidone, and now I am going to have 25mg of SN in 50ml water. I have another backup cup in case I throw it up.

Thank you everyone for supporting me so far, for all your kind and wonderful messages, and for the advice. This has been so invaluable to me. I'm truly happy to have been a part of this community for a short while. Please take care of yourselves.

If I fail today for whatever reason, I'll update you all
So for one last time, I'm signing off :)

 

[RawRX3]

<3

 

[tokyoboo]

I'm happy to hear this, I hope you have a peaceful cbt, goodluck ma friend

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I hope you find peace .

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I I hope you find peace

 

[Macedonian1987]

Good luck. May you find the peace you were looking for and be freed of all suffering. The movie you made (Suicideland) was beautiful.

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Rest peacefully lovely

 

[100memoryleaks]

safe travels and i hope you find the peace you're looking for <3

 

[geepeedee]

goodbye and good luck. hope you find peace.

 

[AgathaChristieLover]

I really hope you change your mind, but I doubt anything a stranger online could convince you not to CTB. You've probably considering not CTB beforehand, but at least consider aborting before drinking the cup. Maybe the actual SN being in front of you will cause some revelation. I'm not saying you don't have a right to commit suicide, just that the here might be other solutions. Once again I'm sure you have considered these other solutions but as I said before the SN being in front of you might cause a revelation

 

[Die.A.Ria]

I hope you find peace

 

[Myra_Toast]

holy, saw your film when it came out, didnt realise it was you. i hope u find some peace

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Wishing you the best

 

[NotUrDream]

Rest in eternal peace♡

 

[fitoo5999]

Good luck. May you find the peace you were looking for and be freed of all suffering. The movie you made (Suicideland) was beautiful.

Did she made it?

 

[Macedonian1987]

Did she made it?

Yes, she made it all by herself.

 

[pond]

I hope you find peace. Take care.

 

[never mind me]

Safe travels. I hope you find peace.

 

[Neosisyphean]

Your film was beautiful, and I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Endstati0n]

Kinda feel like this is going to hit the news. "Girl who made animation about suicide that millions saw, died of suicide".

Anyways, good luck and i too hope you find peace. We Loved your art.

See you on the otherside!

 

[schrocatparadox]

Hi everyone. This will probably be my last post on here.

I bought measuring cups, and weights. I have everything I need. I've been fasting since for 8 hours and I've taken 5mg of clonazepam (benzo) 45 minutes prior. I've also taken 20mg domperidone, and now I am going to have 25mg of SN in 50ml water. I have another backup cup in case I throw it up.

Thank you everyone for supporting me so far, for all your kind and wonderful messages, and for the advice. This has been so invaluable to me. I'm truly happy to have been a part of this community for a short while. Please take care of yourselves.

If I fail today for whatever reason, I'll update you all
So for one last time, I'm signing off :)

rest in peace

 

[roastedpotato5230]

rest in peace

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I really hope you change your mind, but I doubt anything a stranger online could convince you not to CTB. You've probably considering not CTB beforehand, but at least consider aborting before drinking the cup. Maybe the actual SN being in front of you will cause some revelation. I'm not saying you don't have a right to commit suicide, just that the here might be other solutions. Once again I'm sure you have considered these other solutions but as I said before the SN being in front of you might cause a revelation

I mean… you posted this over four hours after they signed off, so it's very likely they were already resting in peace by the time you wrote this.

 

[ForestGhost]

Thank you for sharing your art with us. I'm sorry, I wish things could have turned out differently for you, but I hope you're resting now.

 

[telekon]

This makes me so sad... You are so amazing and full of talent. You have the ability to make really watchable stuff...Why kill yourself? :( I understand though because life is hard. It's tough to take care of oneself these days. I wish you peace and a heavenly afterlife.

I think I am not condoning suicide for anyone who has not tried everything. If you still have a roof over your head and ways to get your basic needs met, it's not your time please don't do it... You can feel good again and achieve something great for the world like this person did and would have kept doing, to make people's lives better.

I mean… you posted this over four hours after they signed off, so it's very likely they were already resting in peace by the time you wrote this.

Possibly. I seen people offline for longer and then they came back later so I hope she's still with us.

 

[MrMegalomaniac]

I hope you find eternal peace

 

[DignifiedGrave]

Chika. We never spoke, I don't believe you are aware of me. That said, i hope you find peace. I loved SuicideLand, and i want you to know, that your work brought me greater peace and that I think this same peace will find you. From the few post of yours I read you seemed like a incredibly wonderful person and you will be missed. We'll remember you as long as we can.

Kinda feel like this is going to hit the news. "Girl who made animation about suicide that millions saw, died of suicide".

Anyways, good luck and i too hope you find peace. We Loved your art.

See you on the otherside!

God i hope not. I feel its incredibly insensitive when media tries to sensationalize suicide. Its just such a personal decision and thing to do, to make something like that more public than the person intended just seems gross.

 

[suncide10]

Rest in peace

 

[AgathaChristieLover]

I mean… you posted this over four hours after they signed off, so it's very likely they were already resting in peace by the time you wrote this.

Worth a shot