When you are not smart enough to function

[katara]

I know what one of my big problems is and I have no way to change it.
I'll never have a degree. I'll never be married. I'll never have anyone who cares about me, so why can't I figure out a way out of this…
My chances at being happy have been sabotaged by my mom, and I have no money to get away from here and experience happiness for once. I just wish things weren't so difficult. I want to be able to do good things, I always wanted to change the world, but my life circumstances have changed the trajectory of my life completely. My biggest fear now is waking up at 30 and still having no degree, no friends, no vacation, never visited any places. It just doesn't seem fair that I should be forced into this kind of life. My mom doesn't care about any of these things no matter how many times I try to explain myself. I feel like a complete idiot for not moving out ASAP. My dad died before I turned 16 so any chance at help I have in my family is gone. My mom's plan for me is to stay here forever until she gets old and I'm supposed to take care of her. I'm never supposed to have a life of my own. Normal moms would want their daughter to give them grandkids, but not my mom. I'm not supposed to want to do or be anything. I might have to delete this bc it's just so stupid and I hate complaining about it over and over because nobody wants to hear it.
Luigi Mangione had a life and he like many others threw it away. I have nothing to throw away and all I do is daydream because the reality of my life is it's nothing. I can't even imagine saying these things with my face attached because I'd just become a laughable meme that everyone would made fun of.

 

[DeadManLiving]

This is heartbreaking. I wouldn't let any of these factors attach to your frame of mind. You're not a loser or failure, that's just the way society has programmed and conditioned people to respond and feel. Millions of college graduates are now being caught in a tsunami of regret with the advent of AI eroding the prestige or merit of a traditional education. It's important to understand where the sources of your feelings of inadequacy are coming from, and whether you're being told this by others (EG abusive demanding or toxic family or other interpersonal relationships), whether they're conditioned through social media use trying to keep up with expectations or comparing, or due to other sources that could explain the reason why you feel this way that you may or may not want to share. But don't believe any of this about being a failure. It's all social programming and conditioning. You're not a failure, you're a wonderful person and you deserve better.

 

[katara]

I feel so much guilt.
I feel so empty then I go online and I'm trying to fill the hole inside but I'm not getting what I'm looking for.
Nothing has been working for me in terms of enjoyment. I try to do something but it all just feels useless and pointless. I'd really like to do SOMETHING before I die. The fear of being tortured in some kind of hell scares me so much. Sometimes I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's not all my fault…