CBT attempt tonight with SN

[nir]

Fuck the Canadian health and social system. They failed you beyond words can say.

So many people are getting fucked over by the systems here in Canada. It breaks my heart. I hope she's at peace now. I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[Dida]

Rest in peace. Hopefully it'll be me next.

 

[Fakefriendhate_Maxx]

The only thing that makes me the saddest in all of this is that it is on this forum that I find the most humanity and compassion, which confirms the legitimate fears we have regarding the state of the world we want to leave

These are true words syde. I'm coming here when I'm feeling so bad and in my darkest moments. Members here understand me, although we don't know each other. Great community!

I have my SN now and tonight is the big night. I'm 3.5 hours into my 8 hour fast and have everything waiting in my closet — including the kitchen scale I stole up to my room. Just have to wait until everyone is asleep.

I'll be doing the stat dose. But taking 40 mg of metoclopramide instead of 30. Also, I'll be doing 33 g of SN in approximately 100 ml of water instead of the recommended 25. I know that a higher quantity might make it more likely that I'll throw up, but I'll be preparing 3 glasses of 33 g SN total in case I throw up.

I want to use up all of my 100 g in this attempt, rather than saving a quarter of the SN or something which would be pretty useless. If it doesn't work this time, I'll just have to find a different method. Although I don't really have any access to any, so I'm really REALLY hoping this works.

I'll post after I've taken it if I can. And I'll definitely post if it wasn't successful.

Wish me luck. And feel free to offer any advice.

Does anyone know anything about his/her whereabouts? Was he/she successful?

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Does anyone know anything about his/her whereabouts? Was he/she successful?

Sadly, we rarely know anything about anyone. If the person hasn't logged in for a long time then it is probably safe to assume they succeeded (or became a veggie, etc - we'll never know, unfortunately). Also, some people seem to not update us if they fail which is too bad. But it seems like OP was going to update us if something went awry, which hasn't happened.

Hope you are at peace, OP.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I think about you often, I'm sorry this world failed you.
I hope you are at peace

 

[yunzzzk]

These are true words syde. I'm coming here when I'm feeling so bad and in my darkest moments. Members here understand me, although we don't know each other. Great community!

Does anyone know anything about his/her whereabouts? Was he/she successful?

I was with them online during that time. We last chatted on the same day talking about family and each step. They last read my message on 00:11 and it was peace…