Method catching that bus! [SN tonight]

[Neverod]

Hope i'm in time, just want to wish you well, and farewell, wish to see you soon.

 

[Moon Flower]

<3 Gonna miss you, you've always been really cool to me and I wish you all good things and safe travels

 

[trynacbt]

Is there any chance you may put this off for this one night?
Perhaps you could ask your sister to watch a DVD or a streaming movie together in your room?
I'm really sorry. but, this is also an option.

Daniela, I'm so sorry, but this is something I need to do. I appreciate your efforts. I really do. I am going to attempt. Whether it works or whether I am stopped will tell me something; if it was meant to be.

 

[Ame]

This is my first time to ever post in a goodbye thread and I have always made a point of avoiding them because of the "feelings" and just never knowing what to say. To be honest, I don't even know if there ever is a right thing to say in this situation.

We haven't spoken all that much and I've not been here for very long, but I am truly going to miss you. When reading your posts, I felt that a lot of of your experiences and inner dialogues ran very close to my own. While it is sad to see someone else suffer in this way, there was a little bit of that "sister from another mister" vibe ha ha. If circumstances had been different, I would have very much liked to get to know you better and maybe one day call you a friend.

You have a lot of insight and contribute far more good to the world than you can possibly know...but therein lies the problem I guess. There is a safety that comes with hating yourself more than anyone else, and I do not think that people acknowledge the benefits we derive from doing things that ultimately cause us harm. I am sure that you understand. You are an intelligent, well-read individual, with a capacity to empathize with others on a profound level. I respect and admire you a great deal...and while you may not feel like you deserve these things from anyone, the fact is that my respect and admiration are mine to give.

Regardless of what I may think, ultimately I wish for you to be okay...whatever okay means for you in the end. Thank you so much for reaching out to me when you did and for sharing a bit of yourself with the rest of us. While this hurts, I don't regret having crossed paths with you, if even for a little while.

I hope that one day you can find it in yourself to love you as much as those whose hearts you have no doubt touched in your life.

To you and your loved ones, please take good care.

 

[trynacbt]

This is my first time to ever post in a goodbye thread and I have always made a point of avoiding them because of the "feelings" and just never knowing what to say. To be honest, I don't even know if there ever is a right thing to say in this situation.

We haven't spoken all that much and I've not been here for very long, but I am truly going to miss you. When reading your posts, I felt that a lot of of your experiences and inner dialogues ran very close to my own. While it is sad to see someone else suffer in this way, there was a little bit of that "sister from another mister" vibe ha ha. If circumstances had been different, I would have very much liked to get to know you better and maybe one day call you a friend.

You have a lot of insight and contribute far more good to the world than you can possibly know...but therein lies the problem I guess. There is a safety that comes with hating yourself more than anyone else, and I do not think that people acknowledge the benefits we derive from doing things that ultimately cause us harm. I am sure that you understand. You are an intelligent, well-read individual, with a capacity to empathize with others on a profound level. I respect and admire you a great deal...and while you may not feel like you deserve these things from anyone, the fact is that my respect and admiration are mine to give.

Regardless of what I may think, ultimately I wish for you to be okay...whatever okay means for you in the end. Thank you so much for reaching out to me when you did and for sharing a bit of yourself with the rest of us. While this hurts, I don't regret having crossed paths with you, if even for a little while.

I hope that one day you can find it in yourself to love you as much as those whose hearts you have no doubt touched in your life.

To you and your loved ones, please take good care.

I am crying. Thank you.

 

[Ame]

I am crying. Thank you.

Oh my God no;;; I'm so sorry!

 

[Daniela]

Also I just gotta say it: I love that my level on here is "Master" because I dropped out of my master's this summer and it just feels like I'm kicking my own ass but in a good way ?

You were getting your Master's!
I've been enrolled for years and never graduated (undergrad)

 

[trynacbt]

Oh my God no;;; I'm so sorry!

It is a good cry. It is gratitude.

You were getting your Master's!
I've been enrolled for years and never graduated (undergrad)

If only it were that simple.

 

[Dystopia]

How long have you got left to go? Not sure of the time zone. Hope you're as okay as possible

 

[trynacbt]

How long have you got left to go? Not sure of the time zone. Hope you're as okay as possible

3 and a half hours... thank you I feel a bit distressed especially as some are asking me to stay but I will try to breathe deeply and find what is right for me.

 

[Dystopia]

3 and a half hours... thank you I feel a bit distressed especially as some are asking me to stay but I will try to breathe deeply and find what is right for me.

Don't feel pressured either way; definitely decide what's right for you. I should still be around to comfort you as I messed up my sleep pattern again

 

[Darkhaven]

Well it's 01:32 am and i gotta go to sleep.
It's kinda depressing knowing that when i wake up in the morning you may not be around anymore.
But it is as i said in my first post: it's your choice.
That's what this site is about: pro choice.
With that being said, if i happen to see you around tomorrow i will be very happy, no doubt about that.
Hugs friend!

 

[Are you lost too?]

Whatever you decide, whatever you think it's best for you, we support you and we'll be here !

 

[Jean4]

3 and a half hours... thank you I feel a bit distressed especially as some are asking me to stay but I will try to breathe deeply and find what is right for me.

Look at it as a break up. Your partner may want you to stay, but you have to do what is right for you.

We are here to support you no matter what your choice is.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'm gonna miss you. That avatar picture is the best. I'll be getting on that bus soon ;) wish you the best

 

[Time]

Well said. Thanks for sharing this with us. I wish you the best & I hope that you find peace. ✌

 

[Stan]

Wish we could sooth you in your last hours. Just hope our company and compassion will help you in a small way.

 

[WhiteDespair]

I just realized your avatar is a VW bus. It took me this long to figure that out. Made a fool out of me.

Heh, never woulda thought a little picture of a bus would cause me to feel this much sorrow and compassion. Well, if you can stab a flaming ice pick into my cold heart, yeah, I guess you could say you made an impact.

Woulda been neat to know you a bit more. Alas, that's not the case.

I'm glad that you can get such a great send off. You deserve it.

Whatever road you happen to take
By twilight's glow or new dawn's break
Through some miracle of devious fate
May we meet again.

Be well.

 

[trynacbt]

I just realized your avatar is a VW bus. It took me this long to figure that out. Made a fool out of me.

Heh, never woulda thought a little picture of a bus would cause me to feel this much sorrow and compassion. Well, if you can stab a flaming ice pick into my cold heart, yeah, I guess you could say you made an impact.

Woulda been neat to know you a bit more. Alas, that's not the case.

I'm glad that you can get such a great send off. You deserve it.

Whatever road you happen to take
By twilight's glow or new dawn's break
Through some miracle of devious fate
May we meet again.

Be well.

Thank you so, so much.

 

[hopefullysoongone]

I've been lurking the forums for the past few months and always enjoyed reading your posts. Your story very much resonates with me.

Best wishes, I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Thank you so, so much.

You are most welcome.

 

[deathbyginger]

You will be well missed, @trynacbt. I haven't gotten a chance to speak to you much on this forum but I have always found pleasure reading your posts. You're truly intelligent.
I hope you peace as you make your transition

 

[trynacbt]

What's most difficult for me is the thought of how this will affect my family.

I am having trouble sending those schedules texts.
I am having trouble with the thoughts and images of the morning after.
I do not want to do this to them.
But I don't see what else I can do.
Emotional support would be appreciated right now. I have two and a half hours.

 

[Dubs]

What's most difficult for me is the thought of how this will affect my family.

I am having trouble sending those schedules texts.
I am having trouble with the thoughts and images of the morning after.
I do not want to do this to them.
But I don't see what else I can do.
Emotional support would be appreciated right now. I have two and a half hours.

Did you rule out a hotel? Seems to make it easiest for everyone.

 

[trynacbt]

Did you rule out a hotel? Seems to make it easiest for everyone.

Not an option for me unfortunately. Too suspicious as I am being eyed like a hawk.

 

[Willow]

I'm truly sorry you are in such a difficult place. I think I can relate to it somewhat in remembering how I felt when I bought a gun and tried to shoot myself (ultimately I couldn't bring myself to do it). Dealing with this can be really scary. I wish I could say something that would bring you some comfort. I support your right to make whatever decision is right for you, but would encourage you that if there is any doubt it doesn't have to be tonight

 

[Stan]

With your sister outside the door, is tonight the best night?

 

[trynacbt]

With your sister outside the door, is tonight the best night?

The only alternative is her in the room with my dad, which I don't see happening soon. I'm afraid that if I wait longer, my SN may be found. And I wanted to go tonight because my family will visit my mother's grave this weekend. This way, I could be taken on just one trip.

I know you cannot give me the definitive answer, but do you believe she may not hear me?

 

[lizinha]

love u too

 

[Stan]

I know you cannot give me the definitive answer, but do you believe she may not hear me?

I could not even guess. I know that is not what you want to hear.