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Have_a_nice_Life

Have_a_nice_Life

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According to her report she took SN at 3:59 pm and started panicking at 4:03 pm. It takes an average of 10 minutes to fall unconscious with SN so it's likely that he/she called for help.
According to her report she took SN at 3:59 pm and started panicking at 4:03 pm. It takes an average of 10 minutes to fall unconscious with SN so it's likely that he/she called for help.
Also i think it's normal to feel regretful to an extent. It's SI, i personally don't think we can ever be truly ready for ctb.

Whatever happened of course i hope he/she called for help. In her last messages she seemed coherent. If you've followed some others SN threads you know that people write in an unintellible way at the end. This user write with a translator so had the time to formulate a coherent sentence then translate it then send it.
It seems like he/she was in a good state to call for help even after her/his last message.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

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Dec 14, 2023
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According to her report she took SN at 3:59 pm and started panicking at 4:03 pm. It takes an average of 10 minutes to fall unconscious with SN so it's likely that he/she called for help.

Also i think it's normal to feel regretful to an extent. It's SI, i personally don't think we can ever be truly ready for ctb.
I agree. Most of us are wired for survival, even if we don't want to. It's an autonomous reaction, just like other anxieties and we certainly don't want those either.

She mentioned earlier that she was afraid that she'd regret it and call for help so hopefully what ended up happening was what she truly wanted. If it was her CTB, it's heartbreaking but at least she'll find peace. If it's wasn't, I genuinely hope her situation improves.
 
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Christopher Reeve

Christopher Reeve

Ein wunderschöner Baum um sich zu erhängen
Mar 27, 2024
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I wanted news if she is alive and if she is ok...
 
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NSA

NSA

Your friendly neighborhood agent
Feb 21, 2022
262
I wanted news if she is alive and if she is ok...
If she is, we likely won't hear about it for awhile. She'd be in the hospital and may not have the ability to get on here, assuming she even thinks to tell us.
 
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lita-lassi

lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
566
@2ndme i never interacted with you but i wish you all the best and peace whatever the outcome was 🖤
 
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Yuki_03

Yuki_03

I really can't take it
Aug 9, 2023
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@2ndme a bit late, but goodbye, idk if you'll see this.
you are much braver than me, so lots of luck in your choice
 
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needsomeoptions

needsomeoptions

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Mar 31, 2024
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I truly hope the right outcome for you has occurred. I'm not sure what that would be. All the best
 
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Demian

Demian

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Mar 25, 2024
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The same thing happened to me.

I took 21 grams of phenobarbital and 3 grams of morphine. I had read that in about two minutes I would lose consciousness. I was in the bath to drown, because I wanted to die quickly.

I have no tolerance to opioids (morphine) and barbiturates (phenobarbital).

But that's not what happened. About 10 minutes had passed and, unfortunately, I panicked and called for help. I don't know what happened. After about 30 minutes I was in hospital and I blacked out.

The next attempt will be with a gun, in one click everything will work out. I just have to buy one, which is going to be very difficult.
 
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Untimely

Untimely

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Apr 21, 2023
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Wow. Reading this thread really hit me hard.....I hope that she found help if she wanted it
 
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colourfulmai

colourfulmai

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Feb 17, 2024
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I hope you passed peacefully, goodbye.
 
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colourfulmai

colourfulmai

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Feb 17, 2024
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I hope what you wanted in the end happened, if you survived I hope one day we can hear back from you. If you passed I hope you have peace now. This was so heartbreaking you got me in tears. You're so brave. Thank you. Thank you so much.
 
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wemissyou2

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Apr 3, 2024
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i will miss you forever buddy.
 
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casandranova29

casandranova29

Lone robot in abandoned realm
Mar 29, 2024
67
I'll do my second attempt today. But I am going for Partial
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,753
Love and peace and if second thoughts always around.

Walter
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
874
I still think of you, I hope what you wanted happened.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
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We miss you
 
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Kta1994

Kta1994

Experienced
Apr 25, 2019
254
I hope she is comfortablr now.
It was hard seeing her state that it was hard to breathe, im going with sn too and i dont wanna go gasping for air
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

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Mar 8, 2024
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Please let us know how you are and if you're OK
 
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Tears in Rain

Tears in Rain

..............
Dec 12, 2023
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If you're gone, R.I.P.
 
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CheekyPhobia

CheekyPhobia

Reasonless, well it stands to reason...
Aug 1, 2022
141
It's been nearly a day since your last post and i can't stop thinking about it. I guess I'm just wishing that you called for help in the end. It didn't sound like it was comfortable or like it was what you really wanted once you'd ingested the SN. And to die gasping alone in a dark forest just sounds too bad of a way for anyone to go. But if you are gone, then rest well; no more troubles await you anymore.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Been looking for any news reports from her area for any update but I guess it could be too early?
 
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bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
166
Been looking for any news reports from her area for any update but I guess it could be too early?
How do you know which area she is in?
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
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I hope you're good, wherever you are now.... 🤍
 
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greatblueheron

greatblueheron

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Feb 24, 2024
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If other people's comments don't matter, then what was the point of even writing your comment? Bored at home with nothing to do?
Someone commenting "are you absolutely sure you want this?" isn't going to stop someone who is sure from CTB, people are commenting because there are plenty of users on this website for whom CTB is not the only or final option. Ok, so they've gone through all the preparation steps... this user is 20 years old (if they're telling the truth, rather than easily bypassing the age verification), they presumably found a source to purchase a lethal substance here on this website after less than a month's activity, and they actively posted about regretting their choice post-consumption. Do you feel good, as a middle aged man, about rage-posting over people trying to save their life, creating threads of your own trying to ban the spaces where that was available even after their potential death, knowing that they may have spent their final moments in fear, suffering and regret? Knowing that they may have had a potentially fulfilling life had they ever made it to adulthood? You, alongside FC, are the type of user that gives fodder to people who view this website as a death-cult. You and them are the type of user that make me question whether the criticisms of this space are founded. This isn't a platform exclusively for people who have long decided and made all the preparations for CTB, depressed teenagers with no where else to turn for support join the site every day, and the number of people just casually accessing these threads is increasing with the publicized controversy. If this kid's parents ever get a chance to look through the thread, the way some others have, they will see support and well wishes in making a difficult choice, encouragement to call for help in even a moment's regret... but they'll see it alongside users insisting that this young girl's decision is long-since made and we're all wasting our time to try and offer her alternatives, that even suggesting she should call for help if she's uncertain is somehow infringing on her autonomy. They will see that and they will be justified in their anger toward this community, because of you.
 
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INTJme

INTJme

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Mar 22, 2024
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Someone commenting "are you absolutely sure you want this?" isn't going to stop someone who is sure from CTB, people are commenting because there are plenty of users on this website for whom CTB is not the only or final option. Ok, so they've gone through all the preparation steps... this user is 20 years old (if they're telling the truth, rather than easily bypassing the age verification), they presumably found a source to purchase a lethal substance here on this website after less than a month's activity, and they actively posted about regretting their choice post-consumption. Do you feel good, as a middle aged man, about rage-posting over people trying to save their life, creating threads of your own trying to ban the spaces where that was available even after their potential death, knowing that they may have spent their final moments in fear, suffering and regret? Knowing that they may have had a potentially fulfilling life had they ever made it to adulthood? You, alongside FC, are the type of user that gives fodder to people who view this website as a death-cult. You and them are the type of user that make me question whether the criticisms of this space are founded. This isn't a platform exclusively for people who have long decided and made all the preparations for CTB, depressed teenagers with no where else to turn for support join the site every day, and the number of people just casually accessing these threads is increasing with the publicized controversy. If this kid's parents ever get a chance to look through the thread, the way some others have, they will see support and well wishes in making a difficult choice, encouragement to call for help in even a moment's regret... but they'll see it alongside users insisting that this young girl's decision is long-since made and we're all wasting our time to try and offer her alternatives, that even suggesting she should call for help if she's uncertain is somehow infringing on her autonomy. They will see that and they will be justified in their anger toward this community, because of you.
Yes, it's all my fault the world is a shitty place and this girl attempted to ctb. I accept all the blame. Happy now? Or should I self-immolate as punishment for my unforgivable crimes against humanity?
 
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INTJme

INTJme

Epeolatrist
Mar 22, 2024
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🙄
If anyone should be banned from this community, it's these people.
Thank you for your services as the judge, jury and executioner. Your unsolicited contribution will never be forgotten.
🙄
have fun encouraging little girls to kill themselves, INTJ. I will be busy committing suicide while you spend the next ten years tabbing between reddit and SS claiming to be the voice of the suicidal.
I will do as I please and you're free to do as you want too.
 
Yarani

Yarani

When I deserve it the least, I need love the most.
Mar 29, 2024
167
Please stop disrespecting the place of her possibly last words and human contacts with your arguing and venting. Please do it now. Take it somewhere else, anywhere but here. Thank you.
 
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Sunshine

Sunshine

Student
Jan 11, 2019
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Someone commenting "are you absolutely sure you want this?" isn't going to stop someone who is sure from CTB, people are commenting because there are plenty of users on this website for whom CTB is not the only or final option. Ok, so they've gone through all the preparation steps... this user is 20 years old (if they're telling the truth, rather than easily bypassing the age verification), they presumably found a source to purchase a lethal substance here on this website after less than a month's activity, and they actively posted about regretting their choice post-consumption. Do you feel good, as a middle aged man, about rage-posting over people trying to save their life, creating threads of your own trying to ban the spaces where that was available even after their potential death, knowing that they may have spent their final moments in fear, suffering and regret? Knowing that they may have had a potentially fulfilling life had they ever made it to adulthood? You, alongside FC, are the type of user that gives fodder to people who view this website as a death-cult. You and them are the type of user that make me question whether the criticisms of this space are founded. This isn't a platform exclusively for people who have long decided and made all the preparations for CTB, depressed teenagers with no where else to turn for support join the site every day, and the number of people just casually accessing these threads is increasing with the publicized controversy. If this kid's parents ever get a chance to look through the thread, the way some others have, they will see support and well wishes in making a difficult choice, encouragement to call for help in even a moment's regret... but they'll see it alongside users insisting that this young girl's decision is long-since made and we're all wasting our time to try and offer her alternatives, that even suggesting she should call for help if she's uncertain is somehow infringing on her autonomy. They will see that and they will be justified in their anger toward this community, because of you.

This is such a good post. Thank you for being a voice of reason and truth.

I will check this thread and I hope maybe to hear from her again, it is possible she survived.
 
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unabletocope

I'd like to shut down
Mar 13, 2024
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I think this one is legit, I hope you found peace
 
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