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lovelulu

lovelulu

with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
Jan 3, 2026
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im like 99% sure that she doesn't really "love" me. Sure, maybe she did before, but now she just spends all of her time with this one girl playing roblox with her all day. We barley even talk anymore because she leaves me on delivered for hours. Her excuse is "she gets distracted playing." Anyway, I've told her multiple times to just block and leave me if shes going to give up on our relationship. She insists that shes not giving up. Then, she proceeds to play all day and just act so...annoyed and uninterested when talking to me. Im really confused on why she keeps me in her life when she barley even talks to me and doesn't even seem like she enjoys my presence. Im starting to think its just out of pity at this point. It hurts so much. I'd rather her leave then just keep me in her life for no reason. Does she want something from me or something??
 
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violetforever

violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
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im basically in the same situation. im apparently "loved" but im ignored for weeks while hes off talking to other people everyday who enable his addictions. all i know is our best days are behind us and they most likely arent coming back. its probably my desperation that holds onto the belief that deep down i still mean something special enough to him or else he wouldnt keep me around.

i literally think we are kept as backups or something for when/if their main focus fails. she probably senses your dependency and knows youll never really leave her for good so she figures she can do whatever because she has that hold over you. im guessing she does want something from you but only when the time comes and its convenient for her. people can just be cruel and love to know they have someone obsessing and worrying over them.
 
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