Am i the only one who got a beautiful life until psych drugs ruined it all ?

[phersper]

Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, lithium, invega, nozinan, zyprexa, benzos, lyrica.

I'm emotionless since 7 months, cognitively impaired, trouble speaking, trouble being coordinated while moving, no joy, no sleep, no sex….

 

[LifeDestroyedMe]

Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, lithium, invega, nozinan, zyprexa, benzos, lyrica.

I'm emotionless since 7 months, cognitively impaired, trouble speaking, trouble being coordinated while moving, no joy, no sleep, no sex…

You're not alone. My life was amazing until invega ruined it

 

[Gaga786]

Me too :(

 

[HAKMKS]

Me, too

 

[Hollowman]

You're not alone there's many people it's ruined. Psychiatry needs to die what a scam!

 

[jessisme]

Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, lithium, invega, nozinan, zyprexa, benzos, lyrica.

I'm emotionless since 7 months, cognitively impaired, trouble speaking, trouble being coordinated while moving, no joy, no sleep, no sex….

If you are having trouble speaking and coordinating your movements you probably are on too high a dosage of one of your medications. You really should tell your pdoc that you are experiencing these symptoms so they can make an adjustment. You shouldn't be experiencing side effects like that. Hope things improve for you soon. xo, j

 

[theyspeak]

no, you're not alone.
different doctors prescribed different medicines to me and while they never worked, they slowly fucked me up. i kind of have the same problems as you.

 

[Already Gone6]

Hi, i'm in the same boat. 6 years i've been medicated. Citalopram, bupropion, olanzapine, abilify, haldol, risperidone... tried lots. I can't work, drive, lose weight, nothing. It's a joke. I have been convinced for awhile that I am ADDICTED to them too and just can't figure out how to taper off the right way. Not sure if it's a delusion or fact, either way scary as hell cause I really cannot figure out how to taper off them.

I've already decided not to go to my upcoming psychiatrist appointment in 2 days. Just gonna off myself instead.

 

[WhyWasIBorn]

It's really bittersweet because there's so many people online like on Reddit who say once they find the right medicine or combination for their condition they are a changed person. I have been trying to go back on medication recently actually but I am so hesitant to again or to even tell them how I'm truly feeling at risk of being involuntarily admitted, as well as the side effects...

I have tried so many a few years ago, probably 15 or 20 separate ones tried all in different combinations, either with the psychiatrist or at a hospital with whatever they were forcefully injecting me with. Had terrible scary side effects to name a few like my vision going completely blurry, Akathisia, or Tardive Dyskinesia, as well as the full psychosis I was experiencing that landed me in handcuffs and to the hospital multiple times, to my knowledge because I have Bipolar and was given antidepressants which can trigger the full blown mania that I had never experienced before. I feel like my memory has faded and been cloudy ever since but maybe that's just my Depression.

Yet my brain has still trying to get a psychiatrist to possibly go through these side effects again or whatever else may be worse on different meds... just so I can function as a "normal" human being in society who can supply for themselves.

 

[phersper]

Hi, i'm in the same boat. 6 years i've been medicated. Citalopram, bupropion, olanzapine, abilify, haldol, risperidone... tried lots. I can't work, drive, lose weight, nothing. It's a joke. I have been convinced for awhile that I am ADDICTED to them too and just can't figure out how to taper off the right way. Not sure if it's a delusion or fact, either way scary as hell cause I really cannot figure out how to taper off them.

I've already decided not to go to my upcoming psychiatrist appointment in 2 days. Just gonna off myself instead.

I understand you. Can you still feel pleasure? Joy? The effects of alcohol, coffee, cigarrettes? The dopamine rush after sport? How is your sleep? Are you able to feel natural tiredness in your mind/body?

 

[Already Gone6]

I understand you. Can you still feel pleasure? Joy? The effects of alcohol, coffee, cigarrettes? The dopamine rush after sport? How is your sleep? Are you able to feel natural tiredness in your mind/body?

The only thing I really enjoy is music. I am and have always been a very negative pessimistic person so I find more joy in not finding joy in things if that makes sense. Don't drink coffee, but yeah I do enjoy drinking occasionally, going to tonight as a matter of fact. I have also gotten super drunk one time on Jack Daniels while being medicated, haven't been able to hit that same feeling since but it was amazing the one time it happened. I also smoke but I get more displeasure from smoking to be honest. Sleep is fine. I've never had trouble sleeping to be honest. On medication or off I have no trouble getting plenty hours of sleep.

Exercise... now that is a touchy subject for me. I[d rather not talk about that.

 

[Grimpoteuthis]

These kinds of stories are the reason I haven't visited a psychiatrist yet even though I probably should. I am sorry of all of you here.

 

[FadingSunshine]

I feel emotionally numb all the time, but I no longer have crippling anxiety where I can't even think, so I'd say it's a net positive.

 

[HAKMKS]

Hi, i'm in the same boat. 6 years i've been medicated. Citalopram, bupropion, olanzapine, abilify, haldol, risperidone... tried lots. I can't work, drive, lose weight, nothing. It's a joke. I have been convinced for awhile that I am ADDICTED to them too and just can't figure out how to taper off the right way. Not sure if it's a delusion or fact, either way scary as hell cause I really cannot figure out how to taper off them.

I've already decided not to go to my upcoming psychiatrist appointment in 2 days. Just gonna off myself instead.

Do a hyperbolic taper. Dr. Mark Horowitz from the UK is an expert. You can consult with him for $250 US. He has a clinic in London and will be opening one in the US for getting people off psych meds. Taper one psych med at a time and wait 6 months to do the next.

 

[suicidaleeyore]

Personally I'd already be dead if it weren't for my meds (lithium, paroextine, quetiapine)

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

No, I got on psych meds because I was miserable. I wouldn't have pursued them otherwise. It was like or death and worth a try to see if I could find something to help. My life was anything but beautiful before meds but has continued to get worse after taking them

 

[rotciv]

@eashanm

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I personally reject all kinds of psych meds as this is trial and error in almost all cases and the risk that there is irreversible damage to the brain and its natural chemistry is high.

However there are cases in which psych meds helped, this is totally individual, it's basically trial and error.

 

[HAKMKS]

Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, lithium, invega, nozinan, zyprexa, benzos, lyrica.

I'm emotionless since 7 months, cognitively impaired, trouble speaking, trouble being coordinated while moving, no joy, no sleep, no sex….

Watch the doc Medicating Normal.

You aren't alone.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Have you been on abilify? It sucked

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

I thought this thread was going to be psychedelics. I had a Hawaiian Woodrose (LSA) trip that gave me HPPD and a bad shrooms trip that got me paranoid for at least 4 months. But I also had good experiences before and after that bad trip. Maybe you could experiment with psychedelics? They can be very insightful and have anti-depressant properties at the end of the trip.

As for "real" meds, I tried Mirtazapine, only fixed my sleep. I crashed despite taking it and stopped taking it. Maybe stopping made my crash worse but IDK. I isolated myself from the world for the from Christmas 'til mid-April, not talking to family, friends or even paying the bills proper.

I got institutionalized against my will, my mother saw the fuckup that fiasco was, and we agreed to compromise on trying another psychiatrist. I have had a relatively good experience. I am now on Escitalopram and Buproprion.

I was deathly scared of PSSD since I was given SSRIs. There are both people on reddit and here (I wasn't a member yet) that had their libido ruined because of drugs. Thankfully it didn't mess with me much. While I don't agree at all with the line of reasoning that Psychiatry is a scam, that is sometimes found in the forums, I do think that psychiatrists often downplay the possible side-effects of drugs. I asked mine about all the side effects, if I had stayed shut and not done the research they wouldn't have said shit to me.

 

[busybee]

I got put on meds as a kid
Acted different cause of them
Got bullied because of that
Became suicidal cause of bullying
Different meds were given and I obtained a reoccuring depression from those
They recently tried meds again last year and that cured my reoccuring depression by turning it into a permanent depression

Each time they tried meds my mental state got a lot worse short term and my condition was negatively affected long term

bonus fuck up: I most likely have a chronic thyroid condition so I might have simply felt bad cause of that but they never tested for it so potentially the meds might be fully responsible for my depression

 

[Gaga786]

I got put on meds as a kid
Acted different cause of them
Got bullied because of that
Became suicidal cause of bullying
Different meds were given and I obtained a reoccuring depression from those
They recently tried meds again last year and that cured my reoccuring depression by turning it into a permanent depression

Each time they tried meds my mental state got a lot worse short term and my condition was negatively affected long term

bonus fuck up: I most likely have a chronic thyroid condition so I might have simply felt bad cause of that but they never tested for it so potentially the meds might be fully responsible for my depression

Same happened with me

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Not alone. I feel that when I started taking Zoloft at just 12 years old, that's when my life started going downhill. And now I can't even bring myself to stop taking it.

 

[lachrymost]

I had finally found some peace, but then after fourteen years of experimenting with them, the meds caught up with me. Thus came the gaslighting and medical trauma from having to deal with doctors who don't know about the harms of the drugs they prescribe. Last straws for me.

 

[DerOesi]

I got castrated by escitalopram but only had sexual symptoms and stupidly tried more drugs to heal it and bupropion was the one that killed me.

 

[iloveeetreeeess1]

You are most definitely not alone, I was diagnosed with major depression disorder in 6th grade when I was 12. It didn't take long for my therapist at the time to prescribe me prozac. I turned from an outgoing, charming, sociable child, to an empty shell of myself, who could no longer cry, eat, smile, laugh. I wish at the time my guardians would've prevented them from putting me on medications only after the 2nd visit, cause maybe then I would still have an ounce of life in me

 

[phersper]

I got castrated by escitalopram but only had sexual symptoms and stupidly tried more drugs to heal it and bupropion was the one that killed me.

Also for me it all started with a high dose of escitalopram and a mood stabilizer called lamictal. Since then it all snowballed…. I'm no longer myself, no longer in control of my body, no more joy, no more pleasure in anything, cognitive impairement, anhedonia, low libido….
It all started 9 months ago, I don't know for how long I can go on with a screwed body and brain

 

[Ashu]

The only thing I really enjoy is music. I am and have always been a very negative pessimistic person so I find more joy in not finding joy in things if that makes sense. Don't drink coffee, but yeah I do enjoy drinking occasionally, going to tonight as a matter of fact. I have also gotten super drunk one time on Jack Daniels while being medicated, haven't been able to hit that same feeling since but it was amazing the one time it happened. I also smoke but I get more displeasure from smoking to be honest. Sleep is fine. I've never had trouble sleeping to be honest. On medication or off I have no trouble getting plenty hours of sleep.

Exercise... now that is a touchy subject for me. I[d rather not talk about that.

What did the drugs do to your sexuality?

 

[phersper]

You are most definitely not alone, I was diagnosed with major depression disorder in 6th grade when I was 12. It didn't take long for my therapist at the time to prescribe me prozac. I turned from an outgoing, charming, sociable child, to an empty shell of myself, who could no longer cry, eat, smile, laugh. I wish at the time my guardians would've prevented them from putting me on medications only after the 2nd visit, cause maybe then I would still have an ounce of life in me

Are you still taking the meds? Maybe you should quit