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iloveeetreeeess1

iloveeetreeeess1

Member
Sep 18, 2023
25
Are you still taking the meds? Maybe you should quit
I haven't been on prozac for a few years, but honestly the damage was done, ever since being put on it I haven't been able to bounce back
 
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Teleftaía Anapnoí

Teleftaía Anapnoí

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Jul 6, 2023
127
My life was also almost destroyed by a wrong diagnosis and taking antidepressants. I'm probably bipolar, they haven't been able to diagnose me yet, but it has well-defined characteristics. They put me on antidepressants and I became a rocket ready to explode and go to another galaxy.
 
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PlathWannaBe

PlathWannaBe

Member
Nov 15, 2019
71
Citalopram has ruined me and given me PSSD. I stopped taking it over 3.5 years ago, and I still have serious sexual dysfunction.

I know many would say I am lucky, because my emotions are intact, but I usually just feel sad, demotivated and worthless most of the time anyhow.

I know that antidepressants work well for some people and save their lives. They have destroyed mine.
 
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ayaneechan

ayaneechan

Angelic Demon
May 7, 2023
54
Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, lithium, invega, nozinan, zyprexa, benzos, lyrica.

I'm emotionless since 7 months, cognitively impaired, trouble speaking, trouble being coordinated while moving, no joy, no sleep, no sex….
The side effects u tell in post are lot similar to my lithium experience

I used to take a antidepressant, but for me that was like just placebo.
Benzos where almost ok

Lithium was pure devil for me. After I took it I was shaking a lot, trouble in coordination and not much but a less trouble with speaking (this was why I cold stop it), my mood was totally unstable (my psychiatrist told me that's impossible).
Another reason cuz they took me it away is cuz i told that if I have to still take that I would take every pill I have in the same time. (I not suggest to say this btw, it made other things worse)

Actually I have just benzos at need. (i not use them, but they can be useful for me in other ways)
I still have big problems with sleep
 
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Alisalyx

Member
Jul 2, 2023
25
The side effects u tell in post are lot similar to my lithium experience

I used to take a antidepressant, but for me that was like just placebo.
Benzos where almost ok

Lithium was pure devil for me. After I took it I was shaking a lot, trouble in coordination and not much but a less trouble with speaking (this was why I cold stop it), my mood was totally unstable (my psychiatrist told me that's impossible).
Another reason cuz they took me it away is cuz i told that if I have to still take that I would take every pill I have in the same time. (I not suggest to say this btw, it made other things worse)

Actually I have just benzos at need. (i not use them, but they can be useful for me in other ways)
I still have big problems with sleep
Try olanzapine, at the start you might feel a bit sleepy the next day, but after a bit you don't feel anything the next day anymore
 
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painful existence

Student
Jul 11, 2023
134
For me medication had positive effects.They made my life (which was absolute hell) into something a little more bearable
 
Pardoe84

Pardoe84

Student
Jul 2, 2023
135
For me it was Cymbalta, that was the worst decision in my life. My dick shrunked from it and got numb. Erection problems, cold glans. Watery semen. I cannot feel alcohol or coffee or drugs like weed. No fresh feeling after sport. I have no joy in life anymore thats why i am here.

This desease is called PSSD and there are a few people here that ctb because of that a few years ago. Now we have some people again here that want to die because of that.
 
phersper

phersper

F*ck psychiatry
Jun 28, 2023
166
For me it was Cymbalta, that was the worst decision in my life. My dick shrunked from it and got numb. Erection problems, cold glans. Watery semen. I cannot feel alcohol or coffee or drugs like weed. No fresh feeling after sport. I have no joy in life anymore thats why i am here.

This desease is called PSSD and there are a few people here that ctb because of that a few years ago. Now we have some people again here that want to die because of that.
As a pssd sufferer I can say that depression is a walk in the park compared to pssd. And I can also say it cuz I was hardly depressed and anxious many years ago and I recovered.
The side effects u tell in post are lot similar to my lithium experience

I used to take a antidepressant, but for me that was like just placebo.
Benzos where almost ok

Lithium was pure devil for me. After I took it I was shaking a lot, trouble in coordination and not much but a less trouble with speaking (this was why I cold stop it), my mood was totally unstable (my psychiatrist told me that's impossible).
Another reason cuz they took me it away is cuz i told that if I have to still take that I would take every pill I have in the same time. (I not suggest to say this btw, it made other things worse)

Actually I have just benzos at need. (i not use them, but they can be useful for me in other ways)
I still have big problems with sleep
I tried lithium and I had a very similar experience
 
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DerOesi

Killed by Psychiatry
Mar 21, 2023
26
Also for me it all started with a high dose of escitalopram and a mood stabilizer called lamictal. Since then it all snowballed…. I'm no longer myself, no longer in control of my body, no more joy, no more pleasure in anything, cognitive impairement, anhedonia, low libido….
It all started 9 months ago, I don't know for how long I can go on with a screwed body and brain
For me it's seven months off the pills and I get worse daily. From a tall Athletic med student to a vegetable that gets care From his dad. What keeps me here are some philosophical theories about reincarnation. I fear what comes after death will be even worse that this hell
 
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Ampsvx123

Ampsvx123

Student
Jul 10, 2018
128
I have taken 1 month of it. Took years to recover, i feel if u are at a higher dosage for 3month +, there is no recovery. Life is too brief, the human flesh too weak. Half your soul, dead and gone, resting in wait of the lazy half, by the sad water of separation, for the boat, for the journey ahead.
 
phersper

phersper

F*ck psychiatry
Jun 28, 2023
166
For me it's seven months off the pills and I get worse daily. From a tall Athletic med student to a vegetable that gets care From his dad. What keeps me here are some philosophical theories about reincarnation. I fear what comes after death will be even worse that this hell
I feel you, same fears of reincarnation and what to expect after suicide. But I think I ll do it anyway….
I have taken 1 month of it. Took years to recover, i feel if u are at a higher dosage for 3month +, there is no recovery. Life is too brief, the human flesh too weak. Half your soul, dead and gone, resting in wait of the lazy half, by the sad water of separation, for the boat, for the journey ahead.
Thanks for the encouragement buddy
 
loterius

loterius

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Sep 21, 2023
43
The best way to fight chronic illness due to trauma or whatever isnt prescrription medicines like diazepam, lexapro, tramadol you name them. Its due to medicinal joints or cake or a combination. Medicinal cannabis is only product that can lift up life quality and will to life. more then alcohol, prescription medicines together.
Prescription cannabis only source that can really battle chronic pain and psychical constant discomfort.
 
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HAKMKS

Praying things get better
May 29, 2023
147
If you are having trouble speaking and coordinating your movements you probably are on too high a dosage of one of your medications. You really should tell your pdoc that you are experiencing these symptoms so they can make an adjustment. You shouldn't be experiencing side effects like that. Hope things improve for you soon. xo, j
Psych meds are the devil
Try olanzapine, at the start you might feel a bit sleepy the next day, but after a bit you don't feel anything the next day anymore
No! That's a serous antipsychotic that can cause akathisia
 
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Endoflifecomestoall

Student
Oct 31, 2021
120
I have msa. A degenerative neurological condition. The brain does change shape.
 
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Scattered-Soul

Scattered-Soul

It was an indescribable pain
Oct 2, 2023
163
My life wasn't beautiful which is why I got on medication, I thought of it as last resort but I had no idea what would wait for me on the other side. My life pre-meds was pure heaven compared to this. I have SSRI-induced progressive brain damage, started as pretty severe cognitive impairment from the first pill and has just been getting worse and worse despite me quitting them over 3 years ago. The only thing that got resolved was the sexual dysfunction (which is pretty useless when you're pretty much braindead), I still have the emotional blunting, severe DPDR and progressive cognitive decline among other things that I can't even comprehend. The DPDR and cognitive aspect of it are hellish. Depending on your situation you might be able to recover I think, I'm not sure if you're still on or off the medication/s.
 
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AliceTheGoon

Specialist
Jul 1, 2022
370
This place is a graveyard of pharmaceutical damage. Psychiatrists are willfully ignorant about who is or isn't susceptible. And stupid Tom Cruise has blood on his stupid hands for going on national television and forever connecting criticism of psychiatry to stupid Scientology.

/rant
 
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HAKMKS

Praying things get better
May 29, 2023
147
This place is a graveyard of pharmaceutical damage. Psychiatrists are willfully ignorant about who is or isn't susceptible. And stupid Tom Cruise has blood on his stupid hands for going on national television and forever connecting criticism of psychiatry to stupid Scientology.

/rant
He was right, though, but sadly, yes, connected it with a cult.
 
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phersper

phersper

F*ck psychiatry
Jun 28, 2023
166
My life wasn't beautiful which is why I got on medication, I thought of it as last resort but I had no idea what would wait for me on the other side. My life pre-meds was pure heaven compared to this. I have SSRI-induced progressive brain damage, started as pretty severe cognitive impairment from the first pill and has just been getting worse and worse despite me quitting them over 3 years ago. The only thing that got resolved was the sexual dysfunction (which is pretty useless when you're pretty much braindead), I still have the emotional blunting, severe DPDR and progressive cognitive decline among other things that I can't even comprehend. The DPDR and cognitive aspect of it are hellish. Depending on your situation you might be able to recover I think, I'm not sure if you're still on or off the medication/s.
I'm in a very similar situation. Last week I had a crash due to taking too much benadryl (an antisthamine) to help with my sleep. It completely deregulated my system. Anhedonia, dp/dr, emotional blunting got so much worse and I lost all the progress I had made on the sexual dysfunction. I even lost the pleasure to poop, to orgasm, no more morning erections. I barely sleep. My muscles don't relax, I have mild akathisia. This condition is hell. I deserve euthanasia.
 
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NumbItAll

NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,057
My life already sucked but then psychiatry made it worse. A few fluoxetine pills nuked my brain and I am still recovering over a year later. Still not nearly as bad as some of the horror stories out there though. PSSD sounds unbearable. Psychiatry is such a joke. I wish I had known about all the risks before starting. Never could have imagined this outcome.
 
claraisnotcarol

claraisnotcarol

from dust to dust
Oct 4, 2023
111
in my case, I still can feel, and I definetely would have already killed myself if it wasn't for the meds, but they are making me more and more incompetent. I have memory losses constantly. my speech is all mumbled, I have severe trembling, nausea, and in general, feeling like I'm losing every bit of intellinge left in my brain.
but also, they made me lose weight. and since I'm still recovering from my ED, if I stop taking them, I'm terrified of gaining weight. I rather die.
 
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phersper

phersper

F*ck psychiatry
Jun 28, 2023
166
My life already sucked but then psychiatry made it worse. A few fluoxetine pills nuked my brain and I am still recovering over a year later. Still not nearly as bad as some of the horror stories out there though. PSSD sounds unbearable. Psychiatry is such a joke. I wish I had known about all the risks before starting. Never could have imagined this outcome.
Full blown pssd is unbereable. Lucky you that you're not in this situation. I'd give a leg to recover at least 80% of who I was.
 
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Ampsvx123

Ampsvx123

Student
Jul 10, 2018
128
Ur definitely not alone, Psychiatry is one of the main attraction of this world. Plebs of all nations flock to praise it. It ought not to cease.
Let the fools, lovers and buffoons proudly condemn a brief little while their posterities to it. If u have manners, you ought only to criticize it, if u consider this mad world ur dear home, today and beyond death's aftermath.
 
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osper1

Member
Sep 21, 2023
10
In my case I was forced to use psychiatric drugs

I went from never thinking about suicide to wanting to try to CTB, I thought I was alone in this

lithium, quetiapine, clonazepam for getting angry with psychiatrist after being forced to be in the asylum
 
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IWishToDie

IWishToDie

I check notifications once per week
Dec 31, 2023
480
You can't fix depression from life circumstances with pills, only for the rare people that have genuine chemical imbalance.
 
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
641
You can't fix depression from life circumstances with pills, only for the rare people that have genuine chemical imbalance.
It's complicated, like all human things. Nothing really "fixes" life problems, not even talking and thinking through and working it out and dealing, and drugs licit and illicit can be a positive factor along with all of those, though I personally came to the point where I felt the way forward for me was to renounce them.
 

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