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rainbowpuker

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Feb 15, 2026
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44 now 45 is a few sleeps! Yeah go me lol
 
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pumpkinboy

pumpkinboy

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Mar 6, 2026
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18 I don't know if this is the right place for me
 
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CosmicError

CosmicError

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Feb 4, 2026
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25 i know i have a whole life ahead of me but that life will be a sad unhappy life full of regrets and broken dreams id rather die than live such a life
 
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tomame

tomame

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Dec 28, 2025
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30 .. but, i feel 90
 
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BigTimeLoser

BigTimeLoser

Grew screwed, so I screw up everything
Mar 6, 2026
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halfstay

halfstay

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Feb 4, 2026
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20. the fact that my "whole life" is ahead of me is a nightmare actually. just waking up and going to sleep with the misery. over and over and over.
 
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BradGuy123

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Jul 6, 2025
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I'm in my 50s. Old man here.
 
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ohsosleepy

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Is that something I ought to do?
Feb 9, 2026
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23. If I had to comment on it, it would just be the same things everyone else in my age range is saying lol
 
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FoxSauce

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Aug 23, 2024
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23 in a month- i dont wanna
 
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Webcore

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Mar 4, 2026
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OldAlan

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68. Never imagined I'd ever reach 17, but luck has helped me a lot over the years.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
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43. Feel like I've been around 58 years approximately. I'm tired of people saying life is short.
 
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Captive_Mind515

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King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
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Why does it matter if someone "has their whole life ahead of them"…? it just seems like such a worn out lazy cliche when people say this about anyone considering ctb at a young age…

People's problems don't magically change form, based on being some arbitrary age…

I can honestly say it would have been better if I died suddenly in my sleep as a kid or teen. Yet even if society could see how my life has panned out since that time, many people would still consider it a big tragedy that I didn't get to experience adulthood…

Why exactly? What's so amazing or important about crappy adulthood, that it was so vitally important that I get here?

The tragedy is that I've had to trudge through early/mid adulthood knowing I don't value any of it, and I've seen countless people on here who have expressed similar sentiments.

I actually feel great relief when I see a suffering young person on here who has escaped their pain. Because not only have they escaped their current pain, but very likely several decades more of it… and they can't miss out on any theoretical happy life that some people imagine they might have had.

Plus, it's just discriminatory to diminish or downplay the suffering of someone simply because they happen to be young.
 
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Nat.

Nat.

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Aug 28, 2026
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Why does it matter if someone "has their whole life ahead of them"…? it just seems like such a worn out lazy cliche when people say this about anyone considering ctb at a young age…

People's problems don't magically change form, based on being some arbitrary age…

I can honestly say it would have been better if I died suddenly in my sleep as a kid or teen. Yet even if society could see how my life has panned out since that time, many people would still consider it a big tragedy that I didn't get to experience adulthood…

Why exactly? What's so amazing or important about crappy adulthood, that it was so vitally important that I get here?

The tragedy is that I've had to trudge through early/mid adulthood knowing I don't value any of it, and I've seen countless people on here who have expressed similar sentiments.

I actually feel great relief when I see a suffering young person on here who has escaped their pain. Because not only have they escaped their current pain, but very likely several decades more of it… and they can't miss out on any theoretical happy life that some people imagine they might have had.

Plus, it's just discriminatory to diminish or downplay the suffering of someone simply because they happen to be young.
When I see someone very young who wants to die, I think that maybe there's still a possibility for them to try different things, change their surroundings, and perhaps manage to feel better and find joy in life? like seems to be hope for someone young, idk. The reality is that I've been feeling this way since I was 11, and now at 34, I regret not having done it when I was younger, none of those years have been worth it. In fact, everything has only gotten worse.
 

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