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just_a_girl

just_a_girl

Member
Feb 13, 2026
18
I'm 26 but trans so you can like quadruple that
 
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RadioRamen

RadioRamen

Member
Nov 14, 2025
40
40 here . Having a young child is the only thing that makes CTB an impossible choice but the want for an exit remains
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
277
27, turning 28 in a few months. I'm surprised I've lived as long as I have. I've wanted to die since I was 14.
 
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bellaisdonewithlife

Member
Jan 29, 2026
51
I'm 29. I've been suicidal for 11 years since I was 18 when I realized what kind of incurable genetic shit I was born with, my intimacy issues also arose then, and my incurable autoimmune illness hit me hard then too.

I'd say I regret surviving this long in a way. I can guarantee you that at least 50% of people in my position would take themselves out. I was literally bedridden for a few years. It was a living hell. I'm still here for now.
 
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vascomorrow

Member
Feb 11, 2026
67
I'm 29. I've been suicidal for 11 years since I was 18 when I realized what kind of incurable genetic shit I was born with, my intimacy issues also arose then, and my incurable autoimmune illness hit me hard then too.

I'd say I regret surviving this long in a way. I can guarantee you that at least 50% of people in my position would take themselves out. I was literally bedridden for a few years. It was a living hell. I'm still here for now.
Wow that sounds really hard. 😞
 
somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Self sabotaging day #178406
Aug 30, 2025
135
I'm turning 23 in a couple of months.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
519
56 next Thursday
 
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kaveh95

Member
Feb 19, 2026
11
What is the average age range for people here? I will be 39 next month.

I seen this documentary yesterday about our website. It said most people are teenagers and early 20s who ctb...

Thoughts?
Turned 18 a few days ago, just made my account
 
EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,806
Though, rather interestingly, the further you go into the past, the more it skews towards a middle-aged userbase.
This is a misconception~ The polls which show this are flawed and did not receive as many as respondents as the first poll from May 2018, which is now deleted... for some reason...
 
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BougainvilleaBlooms

BougainvilleaBlooms

Member
Mar 7, 2023
20
Recently turned 24, but was ready to go at 8 realizing life wasn't gonna get any better.
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
696
I will be 39 next month, but I am suicidal ever since the age of 16 ;-;

I just cannot endure this worsening life anymore, i will probably ctb this year.
 
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tasmaka

tasmaka

Neutral good
Feb 14, 2026
45
Just turned 18, The people Ive spoken to seem to be in groups based on the subject, newly 30s, over 60, or miserable 20s.

I have nothing bad to say about anyone of these groups or people, just wish nothing but the best for everyone.
 
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UnPlugMe69

UnPlugMe69

I wish to omit the emergent property of existence.
Jan 28, 2026
8
21, attempted CTB at around 10 and was fine until last year. I didn't know CTB was a thing back then, it is sad that a kid could come to such a conclusion on their own. I feel like I just woke up like a sleeper agent. btw are 21 year olds kids? I thought i was an old head.
 
doireallywannadie

doireallywannadie

Member
Jan 21, 2026
12
What is the average age range for people here? I will be 39 next month.

I seen this documentary yesterday about our website. It said most people are teenagers and early 20s who ctb...

Thoughts?
im 18 but a lot of the people here seems to be either middle aged or olderr
 
legionary

legionary

mutt
Feb 20, 2026
6
im 21, turning 22 soon. i worry my presence is inherently offensive to some of the older people on here, i feel bad about having so much of my life ahead of me yet still being in this place
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,374
36

in terms of achievement and self-sufficiency, teenager
 

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