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Turned 20 years old recently.What is the average age range for people here? I will be 39 next month.
I seen this documentary yesterday about our website. It said most people are teenagers and early 20s who ctb...
Thoughts?
First time I attempted was 15 too.I just turned 21. Wanted to commit since 15
When I see someone very young who wants to die, I think that maybe there's still a possibility for them to try different things, change their surroundings, and perhaps manage to feel better and find joy in life? like seems to be hope for someone young, idk. The reality is that I've been feeling this way since I was 11, and now at 34, I regret not having done it when I was younger, none of those years have been worth it. In fact, everything has only gotten worse.Why does it matter if someone "has their whole life ahead of them"…? it just seems like such a worn out lazy cliche when people say this about anyone considering ctb at a young age…
People's problems don't magically change form, based on being some arbitrary age…
I can honestly say it would have been better if I died suddenly in my sleep as a kid or teen. Yet even if society could see how my life has panned out since that time, many people would still consider it a big tragedy that I didn't get to experience adulthood…
Why exactly? What's so amazing or important about crappy adulthood, that it was so vitally important that I get here?
The tragedy is that I've had to trudge through early/mid adulthood knowing I don't value any of it, and I've seen countless people on here who have expressed similar sentiments.
I actually feel great relief when I see a suffering young person on here who has escaped their pain. Because not only have they escaped their current pain, but very likely several decades more of it… and they can't miss out on any theoretical happy life that some people imagine they might have had.
Plus, it's just discriminatory to diminish or downplay the suffering of someone simply because they happen to be young.