Aren
Member
- Jun 15, 2026
- 87
Yes, thank you for checking. But I'm still in a pain too strong, fighting everydays to see one light and everydays the bridge and the jump too. For now last day i focus myself on little good news and dream about our dreams and i hope one day i will see her again even if i need to join death if i have no more energy to keep pushing or if i end our last dream then death will only remain and i can finally join her.
To ensure escape if needed I try to train my body and my brain to accept the act of jump and fall as a non danger. I only can do it in my mind and with little hight but i close my eyes and i see the bridge and the fall when i was over there. I keep training because my life is currently holding to almost nothing... And the people who put pressure on me since my girlfriend died keep doing it everyday... These people were friend and family before... It's hard to walk with all these losses.
