you suddenly get a million dollars. how different is your life now ?

[GoGoTornado]

I would give most of it away, after spending enough to take care of my debts so I wouldn't inconvenience someone after I'm gone. So...in a way it would make ctb easier.

 

[endboss]

It would only make dying more comfortable.

 

[Swan16]

Still shit

 

[burninghill]

No different, unfortunately. I have more money than I have use for right now, so I doubt having an extremely drastic amount more would bother me much. I'd just get to buy more takeout.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I will fly to 1st world somewhere nice, I can eat good meals, I don't have to live in stained home or struggle everyday. I will just run away from this abusive household and everything. Will start my new life.

 

[Seneca65AD]

Assuming tax free and it would not raise any red flags with the IRS/CRA (with my luck, I'd be audited), it would keep the black dogs of depression away from me for a short time until I clean up some cash flow issues. However, I do see myself getting back to my present level of depression/anxiety eventually.

 

[tonicer]

I'd travel and tip people very well and donate to animal shelters and stuff. I'd still kill myself once my parents are gone so i don't even have to be mindful not to spend it all in a couple of years.

 

[mjolnir]

Having more money would help, but I would still likely have depression and other disorders.

 

[Supplicium]

Honestly, it would help a lot.
I'd probably give another try to life.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

Knowing that I would be leaving the people I love some money to help them be ok would make it easier for me CBT.

Money comes and goes in life, so anyone who thinks money would make them want to live shouldn't be thinking of CBT. Money is a completely solvable situation, it just takes time and a lot of work.

 

[tomame]

would probably pay someone to kill me

 

[Matchaaa]

I'll travel to many countries and look for an opportunity to immigrate to one I like.
If that happens, maybe I won't choose to take my own life for the time being. Because what I need most is money.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Objectively, it would make my life easier, and that would probably allow me to live a better life and focus on the other aspects that I feel like I'm missing out on, without having to work or stress about finances.

Ultimately, I can't say for certain it would guarantee happiness forever, but I could see it helping me and maybe prolonging me ctb.

 

[DeadManLiving]

It'd be like a tourniquet

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

Waaaay better, I can pay someone to kill me with some good shotgun. Then donate the rest for some animal cause.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It wouldn't change a thing.

 

[rkk3]

i would definitely go to a beach and go in the ocean

 

[inpainnosleep]

The only thing it would change is that I could get a private doctor to help me with my benzo withdrawal which is making me a lot more suicidal and it gave me akhatisia which I'm afraid is permanent. I had other physical and mental health issues before the benzo withdrawal and was already very suicidal and had already joined this forum. I did not anticipate the benzo withdrawal because it was a cut in my dose and not cold turkey but I feel terrible right now. Also my system is kindled due to previous Clonazepam withdrawals this year. The only reason I increased my dose (I had extra because I didn't always take my full prescription) was for its anti-epileptic features because I wasn't sleeping at all due to myocolonus, which is treated by epilepsy meds including Clonazepam. I would never be able to tolerate other epilepsy meds and now that I ran out of extra clon and am back on my usual dose Im in horrible withdrawal and have akhatisia because of it. I don't understand. When it comes to opiates there are a lot of medications and treatment options so people do not have to go through withdrawal. Benzo withdrawal is even more dangerous and worse a lot of the time (and my nervous system is already messed up by benzos and other meds anyway, so its just getting a lot more messed up right now). But if I had a million dollars I could go to a fancy rehab or get a private doctor. I don't understand why only fancy rehab treat benzo withdrawls in a way that's humane.

 

[un.exist]

Instead of being a depressed loser, I'd become a rich, depressed loser.

 

[Unlucky777]

Anyone want one million dollars to kill me?