you suddenly get a million dollars. how different is your life now ?

[maki]

i think i would be a lot happier to be perfectly honest

 

[outrider567]

Not any happier--Money doesn't bring back the dead

 

[hopelessghost]

I wouldn't have almost any of the reasons for me want to ctb. It would solve 99% of my life.

 

[purebliss]

Would not change a thing for me. I am already fairly well of and by societies standards have in general a pretty good life.

My issues stem from simply being me.

 

[Shuaibyy]

I'd probably still be making the choice I am now. Money ain't gonna reverse what happened to me as a kid and sure as hell wont make me less fascinated with ctb.

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

It wouldn't change anything for me. It seems I was born with some neurodevelopmental issues and there's nothing I can do to change this. Even if I won money I still wouldn't be able to feel anything.

I'd still have anhedonia, emotional numbness, no human desires, an incurable autoimmune illness, and symptoms of a total lack of dopamine. Fuck my life.

 

[chaotic_crow]

Wouldn't change the choice I'm going to make but I'd go somewhere nice. Enjoy a nice vacation and donate the rest to different things

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

''oh cool, i'll die alone, but with more dumb shit''

That's about it really. I can kill myself in a pentagram formation of comedically expensive nude figurines of Holo The Wise wolf i guess ?

 

[LastAcrobat]

I'd be less stressed out about having to rush a job to pay off my student loans, and it would help the rest of my family a lot.

If I could manage it right it would be able to support me for a while. Maybe I could use it to take a break year.

 

[Forveleth]

Not at all. My reason to die has absolutely nothing to do with money.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

This would be enough for me to stay honestly. Yes, I would still struggle with myself, but I would be able to afford the circumstances that would make life worth living.

I could buy a property and cute cabin in the woods, grow a large garden, rescue + rehabilitate animals, surround myself with creature comforts, donate to people in need and actually help them, get a vehicle that's capable of off-roading, and overall live a hermit outdoor centered lifestyle.

 

[delinquentsandwich]

it would help a lot, I think
it might be enough to keep me motivated for a while longer at least
money and security is a huge thorn in my life

 

[AnonymousCat1]

It would fix my biggest problem right away and give me the chance to work on the rest.

 

[Asya]

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[LastDayOnEarth]

Would help a whole lot but ultimately if I run out of it ill get back to wanting to CTB

 

[Deepdense]

Not at all. I do this for sport.

 

[here_for_now]

Donate all of it to charity and keep some to get a peaceful suicide

 

[Drogon]

It would be nice but money wouldn't bring me the peace I truly desire

 

[theendoftheroad]

Enough money to buy enough substances to make me forget about everything, at least for a little while. I grew up poor so it'd be a really life changing amount of money and would probably stave off suicide but only for a few years. Would ironically make it a lot easier to go to because then I could SN

 

[Pluto]

 

[idfwlnh]

Being a millionaire will bring me new storms and challenges, but perhaps I'll be able to improve life in some aspect, but i doubt it'll make me forget why I'm a part this forum in the first place

 

[ireallywasnttogopls]

i would unironically use it to access a more ideal method

like euthansia through opioids, give myself the most peaceful death possible

 

[squiddedoutt]

it might be different for a little bit, getting to do alot of things I would want ( depression dependent ), but I think eventually I'd learn to accept it as a new normal (or run out and crash from the new normal) and then end up back where I am now.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I would give my family each a certain amount of money then go traveling around the world. I don't want fancy rooms, food or anything. Just to travel. Then before I ctb give out what's left to people who need it.

 

[Nolongerlive]

With that kind of money, at least i can buy N and ctb peacefully.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it's very unrealistic to suddenly get a million dollars.

but if i did then i would stop trying to work. i would have more free time to plan my suicide method and to defeat my si. i would use the money to make my method more reliable so i can kill these monstrous colony of cells they call a human body i'm trapped in. all money all energy all time must go to my suicide no matter what happens . i don't want anything from this evil prison world and evil life but to exit this hell . all i want is my suicide asap

 

[TAW122]

I would probably just enjoy travels and copes, but as long as my problem remains unsolved or unsolvable (not even money could solve it realistically), then I'd still CTB. The only difference is mainly how I celebrate my time before my demise.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't wish for that, all I wish and hope for is the peace of non-existence, I'd never wish for this torturous existence of dreadful suffering under any circumstances, to be conscious burdened with this painful, harmful existence that just causes all this torture and suffering will just always be an abomination no matter what.

All I want is to erase this existence, to me existing will always be a mistake, to suffer in this existence is just completely unnecessary and it's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed, for me only non-existence is desirable and positive, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself. To never suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence ever again is just all I hope for, it's so horrible and painful to me how a human can suffer for decades longer just to face the terrible agony of old age, existence to me is just so evil with existing beings tortured every second.

 

[Topaz111]

I might do something nice before CTB, but I would still die very soon. The amount of money you have severely impacts your treatment options, but if your condition is incurable, or you simply no longer have the strength left to fight it, then no amount of money can save you.

 

[Hefinator]

Would give it to family before cbt. Wouldn't change anything.