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Set Real Goul

Set Real Goul

Does'next on the menu' ring a bell for ya...normie
Jul 10, 2026
192
If I could sleep properly, it would improve things a lot.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
427
i dont know if i could fix my life from just one change. but i do relate to what you said i also wish i got born in a different body.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
381
If you could choose only one of these things, do you think your life would be good? Or would you need both of these things to change?

My life would not be good if I could only choose one of these options. It would need to be both things.
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
342
If I had supportive parents my life would be so much better. I wouldn't feel trapped and I prob wouldn't be mentally ill nor have childhood trauma.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
521
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Set Real Goul

Set Real Goul

Does'next on the menu' ring a bell for ya...normie
Jul 10, 2026
192
You have trouble sleeping? How so? I used to have very bad sleep problems
I don't really know how to explain it. I think I had something like a nervous breakdown. Because of that, right now I can only sleep for about three hours at a time. But anyway, I feel like the situation is slowly getting better. I think I might already be sleeping around four hours, although I can't really confirm it.

I'm waiting for autumn because I believe things might improve a lot then. I usually start feeling better during that time of the year.
If things don't get better, I'll go see a doctor.
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
If I had a loyal and empathetic chosen family, I might be brave enough to face all other horrors. I could actually have a chance.

But humanity is too selfish. Friends, partners, even spouses, get tossed aside at any sign of inconvenience. I'm tired, boss.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Specialist
Jan 11, 2026
345
Money
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
It's insane how much that alone would solve. But let's keep giving poor people drugs so they can pretend their predicament isn't real.
 
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suncide10

suncide10

Member
Apr 27, 2026
93
If I was born in a normal family with actually loving parents I think I'd be fine.
The way they raised me (or didn't) and what I've seen is probably the main reason I'm so fucked up.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,809
Money would help in the short term. To never have existed would solve everything.
 
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rorosbones

rorosbones

i want to sleep forever
Oct 12, 2025
30
i don't think changing just one thing would make my life good per se, it might help make it a bit better but i'd need to change a lot to consider it good.

that being said, i think i would want to change my appearance the most. if i was flat and skinny, i think i'd be a lot happier. maybe not the most useful change, but it's one i think about the most
 
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pond

pond

stuck like a nerf dart
May 8, 2018
303
I'd have to not be me. Like my entire conscious. Other changes might alleviate the pain but I just can't live with my brain.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,917
It would have taken major changes of multiple things in my life to not end up here. One change alone would not do it.
 
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Mangled Tangle

New Member
Jun 24, 2026
2
I don't know if I'd use the word "good". I have shit luck in every single facet of my existence. However I believe life would be doable if I either
A. Was born in a healthy body
B. Had money without needing a job

Either (or both!) of those would improve my quality of life enough that I could definitely stick around and be fairly comfortable existing.
 
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canidiealreadyy

canidiealreadyy

coolest ever
Feb 12, 2024
38
If one specific part of your life was different, do you think your life would be good? If so, what part of your life would you change? Of course we don't know what life would be like if things were different, but we can guess.

For example, I believe my life would be great if I was in the right body.
i genuinely believe that i wouldnt ctb next week if my ex boyfriend would take me back. the two of us still talk daily and most of our conversations consist of him begging me not to commit suicide. i appreciate how much he cares but i feel like all of his effort is misplaced. he could stop me from doing this if he could give us just one more chance. but i dont blame him for not wanting to at all. if i postpone my ctb date, i would get a chance to see him before i go. im scared its going to psych me out of it. i have a lot of thinking to do. 😭
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
322
If I am a citizen of the country I've been living in for the past 4 years. It would change the services I am eligible for, although I know they're not fantastic, but at least also provide me with security of not having to constantly worry about possibility of being deported in the future or having to leave the country I've called home more than my actual "home".
 
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decadance

decadance

counting goats…
Feb 18, 2026
31
if i was neurotypical most things would be better
 
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alphabetsoupz

Member
May 21, 2025
21
If I was neurotypical, my parents weren't insane and I grew into my looks earlier my life would've probably been better.
A lot of my issues stemmed from being in a horrific home life and being forced to present as very masculine against my will.
If my parents had been just a little less controlling and abusive I feel my life would have been more positive. I was exploited because I was so eager for freedom and respect.
 
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moriix

moriix

Member
Jul 22, 2026
24
If one specific part of your life was different, do you think your life would be good? If so, what part of your life would you change? Of course we don't know what life would be like if things were different, but we can guess.

For example, I believe my life would be great if I was in the right body.
i think if there was no war in my country my life would be so much better and I'd perhaps even want to live. i think i rolled an okay hand in life overall and the worst of my mental illness was mostly set off by the start of the war
 
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franklyditto

Member
Jul 12, 2026
10
Maybe if I be like other normal people i will not be like this. I always want a normal family maybe not that rich just some middle class with no abusive father that would be good.
 
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