Discussion Would you prefer to die or never have existed?

[Forever Sleep]

I know this has been discussed here before but, maybe not in poll form and, I'm curious.

Would you prefer to die- so have your existence on earth remembered to some extent or- to never have existed in the first place? I suppose it's the same question as to whether you wish you'd never been born to begin with but I guess, phrased slightly differently.

Personally, I wish I'd never existed. It's not that life has been utterly dreadful throughout. Although- a lot of it has been. And, the better times don't redeem the bad ones.

I mainly wish I hadn't ever existed to begin with though- because it would have saved me the discomfort of living. The discomfort and horror of dying. Either via natural causes or via suicide. It would also mean that it couldn't possibly hurt those left behind because- I never would have existed for them to remember me. It all would have been so much simpler.

Maybe my Mum would have been sad she didn't have children but- she likely only had a few years left herself anyway- she had cancer. The other people I've known in life simply would have found other people to be friends with.

Not that I've actually seen it but, I think the premise of: 'It's a Wonderful Life' is inaccurate. (The storyline is that a man is prevented from committing suicide by an angel- who shows them how life would have been for their loved ones without their existence.) But- I find it unlikely that because of one person's non existence, absolutely everyone's life would turn out far worse. It seems more likely that- some things might turn out worse, some would be compansated for by other events/ people and, some things may actually have turned out better! Who actually lives an entirely good or entirely bad life?

Besides- in that film- the guy had existed for however many years already. To do a better job of guilt tripping the guy out of suicide, he should have shown him how his loved ones would have reacted to that- as I see it.

 

[darksouls]

to never have existed

 

[tonicer]

I never wanted to exist. I hate the idea of dying and not knowing what comes afterwards but living like this is not worth it.

 

[rkk3]

i want to die i would of chose to exist
i like existing but i need to die
my body is in pain
im not done with earth i will come back
cant keep me away from earth

 

[LastNite]

Im sorry about your mother. I hope youre doing well.

To answer your question, I would say I wish I didnt exist in the first place.
think about it, if the first option is to die, then that means your life is already miserable in a way for you to consider death. So why would you choose that when you could choose the second option. That being to never exist. You wouldn't have to go through any suffering. Although, if my current existence actually helped someone in a way that benefitted them, then I might reconsider choosing the second option, but I'd doubt that it did. It's a complicated question.

 

[HollowSoul]

To never have existed.

Funny thing is, my mom had an accidental abortion and then she tried again and had me

if that abortion wouldnt have happen I wouldnt exist. I really hate the universe sometimes

 

[witchcraft]

To have died right before the time in my teenage years when I began to realize.

 

[thinvy]

I feel kind of terrible for choosing this because I know of at least a few people whose lives were genuinely bettered in a meaningful way through something I specifically did, but I'd rather have never existed. Someone I know and love dearly would probably still be alive today if I was never born. Maybe that person's prior relationship wouldn't have imploded like it did if I wasn't born. I genuinely believe they could have had an amicable divorce and gone back to being friends if I didn't fuck it all up. My older sister would have been happier because she would have been an only child getting all the attention she sorely needed. My younger sibling wouldn't exist without me (very complicated story but she's not my kid lol) but like also... I know my sibling is going through it mentally too. It would be less suffering in the world as a whole, I think, and that's a good thing, isn't it?

 

[cinnadoggirl1]

To never have existed frankly. My parents were both older (one had to take viagra to even have me and my brother) and I firmly believe it set us both for fucked up lives.
If I never existed, more people would be okay, because I would have never been there to make an impact or 'be known' in the first place. Now that I exist, the process of stopping existence is incredibly complicated, not only with CTB but grappling with the fact that it would devastate those around you. I hate it.

 

[idfwlnh]

I wish to never have existed. If I were not here, probably my family is still living in France, not in this top polluted and still-growing country, my brother wouldn't have to move school that much, he could have lived a better life with more friends. My mother wouldn't have to suffer so much because of me, she would have more freedom to herself. My haters will probably not have to waste their energy on hating me. But still, I appreciate my family. But I can imagine my family living in higher living standards if it weren't for me.

 

[ifihadnever]

To never have existed.

The only good thing life has shown me is the unconditional love of my pets. Apart from that, my existence has been pointless and im annoyed that I have to put myself through further pain to end it. So apart from the love of my pets, my existence has been nothing but a nightmare.....

 

[kouna]

My life had been quite good up until 3 years ago. Did a lot of travelling with my fiancee, went to concerts, raves, festivals, tried all kinds of drugs without abusing them. Got a brown belt in Judo and BJJ and became an adults' instructor. Also had decent jobs that either paid well or I enjoyed them. Owned and ran a nightclub for a few years.
My downhill started with my divorce, last summer. I hadn't realized how interconnected my life was with my wife's, now that she's gone there is practically nothing that I enjoy doing alone, I have a shitty job and except for watching Euroleague Basketaball, there isn't really anything that I enjoy doing with my friends.
It's like a fucked-up mid life crisis.
I own 2 properties, one is worth over 500.000 euros the other around 100.000. I often think about selling them and living off the interest + road jobs while travelling the world. I think that after my mom dies (I inherited the big house in incomplete status from her and completed it with a motrgage (paid off) + help from her and my grandma) I'll do that and be a vagabond for the following 20-30 years.

That's if I don't CTB first.

So, I'm glad I was born.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i wish i never had existed.

then i wouldn't have to be under threat of extreme torture .

also i wouldn't need to risk a diy risky suicide method that could leave me alive but with brain damage or more damage.

even if it were legal to pay someone to assist me as in shooting me with Nembutal , or 10x with a gun , to make it a more guaranteed suicide it still would cause worry suffering and dealing with defeating si. so Eternal Non-existence and never been born to me is always the best by far.

if i never had been born i would never have been under threat of extreme suffering

never suffered

i don't see a reason why i have to live even a minute more. definitely no reason to suffer in this evil life and evil prison world . and much less to risk suffering extremely or to suffer extremely . for what reason? there is none . i can't stand pain.

there's nothing worth even 1 second of the worst pain. much less 3 seconds , 10 seconds. what about months or years of the worst constant pain ? : what's worth that watching a garbage clickbait video? no. eating a sandwich? no not worth even 1 second of the worst pain , never

many more reasons

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I wish I never existed in the first place. And the way that my life is playing out, that would've been a great blessing. Human existence (I don't think any human being knows what 'life' is) just isn't worth anything.