roxaine
I am Quinny
- Jul 26, 2026
- 3
i wouldnt say im suicidal, but i kinda wish i could just stop time for a while and just exist without being perceived or having expectations from anyone.
i want to move out from where i live but it costs so much and ive been trying to fly my girlfriend out so she can live with me for a bit and we can work on affording somewhere to live but we both have our own reasons to not move from where we are and it sucks because if i leave, i have to abandon my entire setups, pcs, servers, guitars, and amps because i can only get there by plane and its a do not travel place on the transgender friendly map or whatever and where im at is a blue place with safety, and all she would really be abandoning (we both came up with this btw) is her cat, family, friends, and car.
i dont know what she would have to do coming from one state to moving and living in another and it stresses me out too much and knowing how my parents are it would be near impossible for me to transition safely and i already feel like its too late
i want to move out from where i live but it costs so much and ive been trying to fly my girlfriend out so she can live with me for a bit and we can work on affording somewhere to live but we both have our own reasons to not move from where we are and it sucks because if i leave, i have to abandon my entire setups, pcs, servers, guitars, and amps because i can only get there by plane and its a do not travel place on the transgender friendly map or whatever and where im at is a blue place with safety, and all she would really be abandoning (we both came up with this btw) is her cat, family, friends, and car.
i dont know what she would have to do coming from one state to moving and living in another and it stresses me out too much and knowing how my parents are it would be near impossible for me to transition safely and i already feel like its too late
